Hard to read
This was really hard to read, but in many ways I sympathize with a lot of what you said. Although I can only imagine the emotional scars that you were left with after experiencing such trauma, I want you to know that what happened isn't your fault. I know what it's like to not feel loved by a parent and feel like a worthless piece of garbage, but I've learned that seeking forgiveness from the person that hurt you will only hurt you more. It's only when you seek forgiveness in yourself that you start to feel better. What happened to you does not define you or hinder you from who you want to be. Great piece though. Definitely felt my emotions pulled in every direction.
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Keep writing and remember that when it comes to your dreams, the sky's the limit!