Chapter 1
Two years ago - 2021
Shay
This Oklahoma weather is crazy! The weather channel says it's going to be a doozy. Tornado warnings are in effect until 7:30 p.m. with potential downpours. "Stay off the roads, y'all. It's gonna get nasty." the weatherman says.
Darren needs to hurry home before he gets caught in it. He was already late to begin with. The last I heard from him was forty five minutes ago saying he was wrapping up at work and would be leaving soon. I've tried calling him for the last thirty minutes, but his phone goes straight to voicemail. I text him real quick and decide to finish dinner so it'll be ready when he gets home.
Shay: Darren, where are you? Please hurry home, I'm worried. I love you.
Another hour went by and still no word from Darren. I keep pacing the floor running to the door with any little noise I hear, hoping it's him. Fuck! Don't do this to me! Get your ass home!
I hear a car door and rush to look out the front window. That's definitely not Darren's car, but it's too dark to see who it is. Maybe he got a ride home from someone for some reason.
There's a knock on the door and as I walk to open it, I get a really bad feeling in my gut. Something isn't right. You know what the saying is "Trust your gut"?
I hesitantly open the door and standing in front of me are two police officers. "Are you Shay Thompson?" one of them asks me.
"Yes sir, I'm Shay. How can I help you?" I ask. Deep down, I know. I'm praying my gut is wrong. But my gut is never wrong, so I should have known.
"Mrs. Thompson, I am so sorry, but there was an accident. When we arrived, your husband was already deceased. He had his wallet on him, but we will still need you to come identify the body." the other officer spoke. I couldn't move. There was a ringing in my ears and as I stare at the officers, I can see them talking, but I can't hear them.
"N-no, you m-must be m-mistaken." I whisper, still unable to hear what they are saying. I can feel myself starting to hyperventilate and before I can grab hold of anything, everything went black.
"Mrs. Thompson? There you are. You fainted, but we caught you before you hit the floor. Would you like me to get you some water?" the officer asked.
"I need to see my husband. Please take me to him." I state. God, please don't let it be Darren. I can't live without him! We were just talking this morning about starting a family. He had made love to me, whispering in my ear how much he loves me and to let's start the family we have always dreamed of.
"Of course, we will take you there now." the officer responds. I grab my purse and step out into the world that, if my gut is right, will be a world without Darren.
5 years previous - 2016
"Whoa, we're halfway there, whoa oh, livin' on a prayer! Take my hand, we'll make it I swear, whoa ohhh , livin' on a prayerrrr!" I sing as I take my morning run. I know the song is old, but it's one of my favorites. I look at my watch and see I still have another hour before class. I'm in my senior year of college, majoring in Psychology, but after taking all of the classes, I'm having second thoughts about what I really want to do. Too late to change majors now, though.
I keep running and before I know it, I'm sprawled out on the ground. "Hey, watch where you're going!" the guy yells.
"I am so sorry. I wasn't paying attention. It was my fault. Are you okay?" I ask embarrassed.
"Yea, I know it's your fault. Just pay attention from now on." he huffed.
"Dude, I said I was sorry. And how rude of you to not even ask if I'M okay. Geez, are you always like this?" I ask with my hands on my hips.
"Whatever. See ya around." he groans and walks away.
"I sure as hell hope I won't see you around. Asshole." I call out as I pick my phone up off the ground. Damn, the nerve of people.
I walk back to the apartment I share with my best friend and doctor up my knee. I didn't realize it was all scraped up until I was halfway home.
"What happened to you?" Carla asks with a frown.
I roll my eyes and say, "I ran into some dumbass, literally, and fell. He was such a jerk!" I exclaim. I walk to the bathroom we share and turn the shower on so I can get ready for class. After showering, I bandage up my knee and head out. Looking around campus, I let go of the frustration from jerk-face and focus on the beauty around me. It's so pretty. Everywhere you look, there are huge oak trees with picnic tables for students to sit at to either eat, or study. Flower beds line the stairs leading into the main hall, which surprisingly are still standing with all the wind and rain we get.
I walk up the steps to the main hall and I'll be damned, there he is. He's leaning against the wall with his arms folded with a frown on his face. I pretend I don't see him and walk past without looking in his direction. "Hey!" he calls out and rushes to catch up with me. I ignore him and keep walking, but he keeps following. "Please, allow me a second?" he asks, his voice softer than before.
I stop without looking his way, waiting for him to say something. "I'm sorry I was such a dick earlier. I swear I'm not usually like that. I had just received some bad news and I took it out on you. Truly, I'm sorry." he said with sincerity.
I sigh and look his way and damn, how did I not notice his striking blue eyes earlier? "Apology accepted. Now if you'll excuse me, I have to get to class." I reply as I walk away. What the fuck? I was screaming mad earlier, but when he apologized and I looked into his eyes, I felt myself get wet. Stop Shay. You aren't in college to partake in a sex fest. You are here to learn. Plus, I wouldn't know what to do anyway. I'm a virgin at twenty one. I've had the opportunity, but it just wasn't how I expected my first time, so I passed.
I couldn't focus during class. All I kept picturing were a pair of electric blue eyes; staring into my soul. I put my earbuds in as I head out and as I was changing the music on my phone, I bumped into a second person today. Fuck, Shay! Pay attention. "I'm so sorry." I started to say when I look up into those same electric blue eyes as before. Shit.
This time he didn't yell, he just stared at me and grinned. "Hey. It's you." he says.
"Me again. Still clumsy." I say as I blush.
He reaches out his hand and says "Darren Thompson. And you are?".
"Shay Miller." I say as I shake his hand.
"Well, Shay Miller, how about I buy you a coffee?" Darren asks with a smirk.
"Sure, why not?" I reply.
Over coffee, he explains his bad mood from earlier. "My girlfriend of six months broke it off. She said and I quote "It's not you, it's me.". I mean, really? Can people not use another line these days?" he says sadly.
"I'm sorry, Darren. Everything happens for a reason. We may not know why at the time, but it will eventually reveal itself." I say as I lay my hand on his arm. I felt the heat from just a simple touch and wondered if he felt it too.
"You colliding into me twice today, is there a reason for that?" he asks with heat in his eyes.
"That was just me being clumsy." I say shyly.
One year later - 2017
I graduated summa cum laude earning my bachelor's degree in Psychology. I am currently working on my master's degree and then next will be my PhD.
Darren and I have been together since we went for coffee. I now know it was meant to be. I'm so in love with him, which is why tonight, I'm giving him all of me. He has been so patient and hasn't pushed me, even when he's gone home with a hard on that looks painful. I'm sure once he gets home, he takes care of it, but who can blame him?
I'm not innocent by no means. I have toys I use, just none that I insert vaginally. I've had orgasms by clitoral stimulation, which some have been given by Darren. He went down on me a few weeks ago and it was amazing, but I stopped it from going further. But tonight, there's no stopping me. I want him to be my first.
Carla is out with her boyfriend and said she's staying at his house tonight, so Darren and I will be alone. I straighten up the apartment and make sure everything is in order.
I shower and shave, put some light make-up on, and get dressed. Tonight I chose an emerald green dress that comes to my mid thigh and is a flowy material. Spraying on a little perfume, I hear a knock on the door. Here goes nothin'!
I open the door for Darren and fuck, he looks hot. Tight skinny jeans that hug his ass and a short sleeve button up shirt, that show off his muscles.
"Hey baby girl." he says and leans in for a kiss. "Damn, you smell good. And you look beautiful." he adds. He pulls me closer and hugs me tight, and I can already feel his erection poking my stomach.
"You hungry?" I ask as I walk to the kitchen. But not before I see the hunger for something else in his eyes.
"Not really, I had a late lunch. But thank you, though." he replies.
"Want to watch a movie then?" I ask. Damn, I'm so nervous.
"Sure, what do we have to choose from?" he asks. Darren starts flipping through Netflix and stops at one of the Fast and Furious movies. "Yea, let's watch it." I say before he can ask.
We snuggle on the couch and start the movie. My hand is resting on his leg and I'm very aware of how close I am to his cock. If I were to move my hand one inch closer, I'd be right on him. Come on, Shay. Just do it.
Sliding my hand up, the side of my hand rubs up against him and he's hard. I will myself to make that final move. Moving further, I lift my hand and place it over his cock.
"Fuck, Shay. What are you doing?" he moans out. He tries to move my hand, but I hold steady.
"Darren. I'm ready. I love you and I want to take the next step." I whisper shyly. I start rubbing my hand over his erection and feel him growing harder. I lift my head and meet his lips, sliding my tongue over his bottom lip, waiting for him to give me access. It doesn't take long and his mouth is taking mine, our tongues moving together in a smoldering kiss.
"Take me to bed, Darren." I say. I start unbuttoning his shirt, running my hands over his smooth chest. "Shay. Are you sure?" he asks as he slides his shirt off of his shoulders.
"I'm as sure as my love for you." I say, standing up and walking towards my room. I hear him follow, and then I feel him behind me. He unzips my dress slowly, as if he's waiting for me to change my mind, but I give my answer as I let it slide down my body. Darren lightly runs his fingertips down my arms, raising goosebumps across my body. Unhooking my bra, he lowers it down and it drops to the floor. Standing there in panties only, he starts kissing down my neck while bringing his hands around to cup my breasts. I moan at the feel of his hands on me.
I feel him bend down as he slides my panties down, dropping to my ankles. "Turn around, Shay." he says quietly. I slowly turn around and Darren doesn't move. "Fuck, baby. You are so beautiful." he adds. He removes the rest of his clothes and all I can do is stare. He must have seen the look on my face because he says, " I will be gentle, I promise. Do you trust me?" he asks. I nod my head as he walks towards me. Lowering me to the bed, he captures my lips again. The kiss went on, and then I feel his fingers brush over my nipples. I arch my back, needing more.
Releasing my lips, he slides down and pulls a nipple into his mouth, licking around it in circles. "Ohhh." I moan as my hands go to the back of his head, pulling him closer. Darren licked, tugged, and sucked on my nipples until I start begging for more. "Please Darren. I need..." I moan as my body is on fire. "You need what, Shay? Tell me. Tell me what you want. I will do anything for you." he asks me, waiting for me to respond.
"I need your lips on me." I reply, knowing I'm blushing from head to toe. "Where, Shay? Where do you want my lips? Tell me. Use your words, baby girl." he says. He continues playing with my nipples and my body needs release. "My pussy!" I scream out. Before I could blink, he was hovering above my pussy and burying his face in my wet warmth. His tongue is everywhere; on my clit, sliding up and down my slit, and diving into my hole. "Fuck!" I yell, bucking my hips up to his face. Darren uses one arm and holds me down while his other hand reaches my mound. Circling my pussy with his finger, his tongue goes back to my clit.
"Darren. Please. I need you." I beg. My hips are moving on their own, searching for something, but not sure what. "I'm going to slide a finger in. If you say stop, I stop. Okay?" he asks. I nod and then I feel him slide a finger in. He goes slow, moving it in and out. He starts licking my clit again while fingering me and it feels so good.
"I need more." I beg. Lifting my hips, I need him deeper. "You ready for another one?" he asks, never stopping his movements. "Yes!" I scream. Darren adds a second finger, giving me time to adjust. Back on my clit, he sucks it between his teeth and fingers me faster. I feel heat and tingling start at my toes, working its way up. And then a feeling like I've never felt washes over me and I moan out "I'm cominggg. Ohhhhh. Fuckkk." My whole body is shaking and I feel extra wet down there. Darren removes his fingers and slides up, his cock at my entrance.
"Last chance, baby girl." he says. "I'm ready. Please. I need you in me." I beg. He pushes in and I gasp at his size. He gives me time to adjust and goes another inch. He keeps doing this until he's halfway in, and then he says "I'm sorry, it will only hurt for a second." as he crashes his mouth to mine, then pushes forward hard, breaking the barrier. I try to scream, but his mouth absorbs it. After feeling me relax, he starts moving, slowly, in and out. The pain starts to turn to pleasure. I lift my hips each time he pushes in, but it's not enough.
"Faster. The pain is gone. You won't hurt me." I moan in his ear. Darren starts moving faster and I feel so full. "Fuck, you're so tight. I won't last long." He groaned. "Baby, faster please. I need it. I need YOU." I beg.
"If I go faster, it's going to be really fast. You okay with that?" he asks as he rolls his hips. "Oh fuck! Yes, please!" I exclaim. "Hold on baby, it's gonna be rough." he grunts just as he starts pounding into me so fast, I can't do anything but feel the explosive pleasure moving throughout my body. "Fuck, Shay. Fuck. I love you. So fucking much. Come on my dick, baby. Clamp this tight pussy around my cock." he moans. He lifts me up by my ass and holy fuck! "Ohhh shittt! Oh God, fuck, Darrennnnn!" I scream as my orgasm hits me and I fall over the edge.
"Fuck, that was beautiful. I'm coming right behind you." he groans. He speeds up faster and harder and then sinks all the way and comes deep in my pussy.
"I love you, Shay. One day, I'm going to make you my wife." Darren whispers, wrapping me tight in his arms.
"I love you too, Darren. And one day, I'll say yes." I whisper back. We fall asleep in each other's arms, looking forward to our future.
