My dirty secret

My name is Shay. But before I moved to America I was known as Shuna Kentrel. But to start from the beginning, when I was little, I always loved dresses, skirts, and feminine clothing, but I would never tell anyone. I knew I would be completely disowned by everyone I knew and loved.

I grew up with three main gods in my life, raised to believe that everything was for a reason. I never understood why. If everything was planned why would I be going through something amazing and then five minutes later something terrible? But never the less I believed it, and to some extent I still do.

The three main gods I grew up with were Asaka god of the earth, ague god of water, pape ge the god of death, and also livia godess of life. Now, I always knew there was love in the world, which is why I was confused that there was no god or goddess for it, but I was a child. By the time I turned thirteen I started wondering why there was only what we called acteptt relationships, in other words as straight relationships.

I’ve heard about this same sex love an relationship but it was strictly forbidden from where I lived, at the time everything there was set. There was no new things, and when new things did happen they tried to get rid of it. They didn’t like new things and in fact it kind of scared them. My mama told me that the gods made everything perfect with intention of never changing it. In their eyes everything was perfect. So when I became thirteen I was scared and confused when I started checking out boys my age. All I knew is that it was new to me and if anyone were to find out about it they try to fix it.

I kept asking my self what were these feelings, they were all so new to me. Was something wrong with me? Eventually it became my secret of getting very atached to boys, I couldn’t help myself everything about them turned me on from there smell when they sweat all the way down to the dirtiest part of them.

After a few months of keeping this to my self. My grandparents we’re going to move to Sarasota. And right around this time my secret was getting out. What happened was there was this really cute boy in my school, his name was kenyon, everything about him turned me on. His skin was like smooth melted dark chocolate, his teeth were as white as snow. His lips looked soft like cotton candy. But when we went to the bathroom, I obviously saw some things that turned me on and before I knew it, all blood was rushed south, he clearly noticed and I was kicked out of school. My parents couldn’t believe what happened so they told me to leave I had no place to go so I asked my grandparents if I could come with them.

My grandmother was always very understanding but my grandfather was opposed to having what he said “a disgraceful and demented child” coming along with them. Eventually he turned around and I was off to Florida to start a new life.

As we made our way to the airport I saw the one boy I couldn’t get off my mind kenyon. He was wearing all white with new shoes I’ve never heard called airforces he was already quite tall but these shoes made him even taller, I quickly realized i had a thing for tall guys.

But I never knew why he was at the airport. I blew it off, me and my grandparents headed to the section where our plane would arrive. Not much later we got on the plane. My grandfather knowing that most people on the plane would recognize me, and he said he’d never be caught dead with me near him. So they sat near the front and i was sitting in the back near the restroom.

As I sat down there was this young girl named kinsha we were close I wouldn’t say we were friends but we were close through her brother caleb. Now kinsha in calebs eyes was the favorite child so she sat in first class with her parents, and luckily for me Caleb got to sit next to me, but nothing could have prepared me for who was about to come on the plane. As caleb sat down next to me kenyon came on the plane. Somehow looking hoter then before.

As he came walking down the center path he stopped in front of my seat and moved in to sit near the window. With him even closer I could smell him. He smelled like fresh plucked cherry’s mixed with the riches of dark chocolate. As the plane took off I couldn’t keep my eyes off of him with the sun light glistening off his face showing how gorgeous his hazel colored eyes were, while the golden light made his skin look like the sweetest brown sugar.

Caleb who was the first person to know about my secret. Noticed that I was staring in awe at kenyon, so he tried distracting me. We started talking about what we wanted to see in America, the amazing food we heared about like pizza, and hot dogs. As we were talking, Kenyon turned to me and said isn’t it beautiful.

I was stunned that the boy of my dreams was talking to me. W-what? I asked nervous as hell trying to play it cool. He said the sun, “the sun is so big and bright making the clouds a tint of pink and yellow, I never knew what it was like in the sky but I do now. Its so much more beautiful than I could imagine.” He was right everything up here was beautiful, you could get lost in the beauty of the sun setting in the east.

Looking out the window with him made me just feel so calm and I eventually fell asleep. When I woke up Kenyon was smiling at me. And I nearly screamed. I was sleeping on his solder. Looking up at him he said “your very cute.” I was shocked nearly shaking. I felt blood rushing to my face I could only imagine how red I looked. “You woke up just in time. Look out the window, I know you’ll like it.