Muddled Emotions

Raven is your typical 25 year old, well not so typical as we will soon find out, she lost her mum at 20 and never knew her dad, she worked full time in a library local to her home, books were her life, she knew she could always get lost in a book and it would take her away from the reality that she hated, in a little town in the country side, but not to far from the beach, she mostly kept herself to herself, she had one close friend who worked beside her, an elderly lady Holly, around the age of 65, who she had met when she was just 20 not long after her mum died. Raven was at the library most weekends and Holly took her under her wing and the rest was history.

Raven is sat at her desk reading and like clockwork, the same guy from the last few week enters, she knows his been watching her and she wasn't sure why, if he knew that she knew he was watching her, she wasn't sure, same routine every time for the past month, he comes in sits at a distance, acts as though he is busy reading, or occupying himself, but she always sees him watching her, observing her, today she was going to find out why...

Raven waits for him to take his place in the spot he goes to, she heads over, she never really noticed how gorgeous he was, around her age, blonde messy skater boy hair, very broad and built, as she gets closer he looks up at her and quickly gives her a smile, she wants to melt, he has a cheeky grin and piercing blue eyes, she wants to run but she is rooted, he stands towering her, she looks up at him.

She was even more beautiful in person then the photo, he looks at her offering his best smile, he couldn't believe he had finally found her, he could finally go back to his boss and tell him the good news. Before he feels stupid he quickly begins to speak "Hey.."

She smiles shyly "Hi...Can I help you, I mean I have seen you here for the past few weeks and you keep watching me..."

He wanted the ground to swallow him, she wasn't supposed to know that, he had to think of something quick "Yeah, I was wondering if I could take you out for a drink some time!" he panicked, he was praying she would say no, this couldn't happen.

Raven looks gobsmacked "wait really? you waited weeks to ask that" she was unsure and it seemed odd to her

He grins and nods "well every time I went to I backed out, and of course, I'm Theo!" he wanted to run what was he doing

Raven looks on at him confused "Raven...." after a few minutes she agrees and they swap numbers and he leaves practically running, she heads back to her desk the rest of the day passing uneventfully.

A couple of weeks pass, she hadn't really thought more on Theo until a text comes through "Hey Raven, Don't think I have forgot about taking you for a drink! how about Saturday? I'll meet you at the library after your shift xx "

She thinks for a few moments, wondering if she should or not she had been hurt so much previously she wondered if it would be worth it again. Reluctantly She agrees, there was something about him, like she should stay away from him, but she didn't want to.

Saturday soon swings around and the time was fast approaching to when she was meeting him, she was extremely nervous but so excited.

As she is packing up her bag ready to leave a voice calls out behind her "Hey Raven" she spins and there he is, the butterfly's erupting in her

she smiles over at him "Hey Theo"

He grins "you ready!" She smiles nodding, they head out in to the night to the pub, and get to talking.

After a couple of hours go by, and there hasn't been even one awkward moment, they had so much in common and got on so well, they were lapping up every second they could with each other. They got on so well, as the night started to wrap up, Raven decides it's time to get home as it was getting late, she stands getting ready ready to leave "Thank you for tonight it's been amazing, it's been great getting to know you!"

Theo smiles over at her with a pained look "yeah it really has and it's been incredible getting to know you Raven..." he stands "let me walk you home?"

She smiles and nods, he holds the door open as they head out in to the night, they eventually stop outside hers, he looks her dead in the eyes, then to her lips, he can't restrain himself, he crashes his lips to hers, she doesn't hold back either, and wraps her arms around him, he holds her close as the kiss deepens, he pulls back "Goodnight Raven..." it takes every ounce of him, all his willpower to pull away, although that one kiss was enough to get him hooked

She smiles up at him "Goodnight Theo" she heads in doors, he is stood for a few minutes, he felt bewitched by her completely enchanted, after a few more minutes of savouring every second of that night including her lips on his he heads off.

As she gets in her head was swimming, it was one of the best nights of her life, he seemed so perfect, but she knew all to well that if it's too good to be true then it probably is.

To her disappointment she doesn't hear from him for the next couple of weeks, she decides she isn't going to let him get to her. It was a Saturday evening and she was getting ready to head out to her local where she was the weekly entertainer for an hour a night, she sung every Saturday night, it was her time, and her time to let lose, it took her a while to get that confident but she did she quickly became a favourite there

As Raven is wrapping up her evening she heads over to the bar to have her usual drink that she had before heading home. But as she is sat there, out the corner of her eye something, NO Someone catches her eye, she turns and Theo is sat there having a heated conversation with an older man, she is a little curious but brushes it off knowing it was none of her business, as she finishes her drink she begins to head out

"RAVEN!?"

She spins as she is about to leave "Oh Theo... hey..."

He looks a little panicked "What you doing here!" he knows already why she is but he had to try cover why he was

She gives a smooth but firm yet cold response "I sing here every Saturday, I am just heading home don't let me stop you" she continues out

He calls out "WAIT PLEASE!"

Raven freezes "It's ok Theo... you don't owe me an explanation, or whatever"

Theo looks at her hurt, he really did like her, but he knew she would hate him, if she knew why he was really around, he never intended to fall for her like he did "Please, I wanna see you again...give me a chance, please I can explain..."

Raven gives it serious thought she isn't sure what to do, then decides she only has to hear him out if nothing else. They head out to a little local bar, the strange man who he had a heated discussion with watched them intensely as they leave.

As they head in to the bar, they get drinks and sit down, Raven sits swirling her drink round with the straw, Theo watch's her closely, he takes a deep breath "I'm sorry it took me so long to get back to you...."

She buts in before he can continue "Listen Theo you don't have to do this, it's ok I promise you, we can just leave it where it was...leave it on good terms" she stands to leave feeling this was a bad idea after all

Theo gently takes her hand "PLEASE..."

Raven shakes her head "you wouldn't even be sat here right now, if you hadn't bumped in to me, so let's just quit while we are ahead.."

He still holds her hand "That's not true!" he knows he would of contacted her, he knew where she was and that she worked there but she couldn't know he knew.

Raven shakes her head "You can't have known I was there, listen I'm gonna go" she downs her drink and heads out he try's to protest but she doesn't listen.