Chapter 1
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The fluorescent lights buzzed overhead, casting an unflattering glow across the cluttered art studio. Shimizu Rei slouched at her desk, absently spinning a black gel pen between her fingers. A stack of paperwork towered in front of her—contract revisions, invoice confirmations, and some random tax forms she didn’t fully understand. Her dark brown eyes skimmed the page in front of her, unseeing. The air smelled faintly of turpentine and stale instant coffee.
In the background, a muffled hum of indistinct chatter came from her coworkers. Their laughter was faint and distant, like static on a dead channel. She wasn’t a part of that frequency, and she didn’t want to be.
The pen stopped spinning. With a sigh, Rei leaned forward, tapping her phone awake for the hundredth time. 1:37 PM. Time was crawling. She shifted uncomfortably in her chair, her oversized pastel hoodie bunching awkwardly under her arms. She hated this kind of admin work. She wanted to be at her tablet, creating—bleeding her soul out through her digital pen into her eerie, cursed little masterpieces.
Instead, she was stuck in paperwork purgatory.
“Rei!” A voice cut through her thoughts, high-pitched and sing-song.
Rei didn’t bother looking up right away. She already knew who it was.
Matsuko. The overly chipper office assistant. Perfect hair, perfect smile, and a voice that grated on Rei’s nerves like nails on a chalkboard. Rei pasted on her best half-hearted smile, finally lifting her gaze.
“Hey, Matsuko.” Her voice was flat, but polite enough. She’d learned early on that people didn’t like it when you sounded dead inside.
Matsuko was holding a small, colorfully wrapped box, complete with an obnoxiously oversized bow. She grinned as she plopped it onto Rei’s desk, pushing aside a precariously stacked tower of forms.
“I totally forgot your birthday last time, so I got you this!” she announced brightly.
Rei stared at the box. Her expression didn’t change, but her mind immediately started spiraling.
My birthday was three months ago.
She didn’t say it out loud, though. She just blinked and forced a weak, “Oh… thanks.”
Her fingers moved automatically, tugging at the ribbon. Matsuko’s face lit up with childlike anticipation, as if she’d just handed Rei a winning lottery ticket.
The wrapping fell away, revealing a sleek, white box with neat pink text across the top: Acne Care: Complete Skin Renewal Kit.
Rei’s mind went blank for a moment, the silence in her head almost deafening. Then, like a tidal wave, the thoughts came flooding in.
What the actual fuck.
She stared at the box.
Was this supposed to be a hint? Did I look like I needed acne cream? Do I even have acne?
Her skin was fine. Sure, she had the occasional stress breakout—what 23-year-old didn’t?—but this felt... targeted. Malicious. She resisted the urge to side-eye Matsuko, who was still smiling like she’d just performed the ultimate act of generosity.
“Uh… wow. Thanks,” Rei muttered, her voice dry as sandpaper. She stuffed the box back into the wrapping paper and shoved it into her bag, already planning to chuck it into the trash at the earliest opportunity.
Matsuko clapped her hands together, completely oblivious to Rei’s simmering inner monologue. “I knew you’d love it! Self-care is so important, you know?” she chirped before bouncing off to annoy someone else.
Rei watched her go, her expression a mix of disbelief and exhaustion. She slumped back into her chair, staring at the papers in front of her like they were written in a dead language. Her mind, however, was still stuck on the “gift.”
Self-care, huh?
The irony wasn’t lost on her. Self-care, to Rei, usually meant curling up in the dark with a bottle of cheap wine and binge-watching cursed internet videos until she passed out. Or sketching feverishly until her fingers cramped, pouring all her misery into twisted little caricatures of life’s absurdity.
She sighed, running a hand through her disheveled hair. Another drop in the overflowing bucket of weirdness that was her life.
Rei glanced at the clock again. 1:41 PM.
Four minutes had passed. It felt like an eternity.
She grabbed her pen, turned her attention back to the paperwork, and muttered under her breath, “Happy fucking birthday to me.”
The clock above the office door ticked relentlessly toward 8:00 PM, each second dragging Rei closer to freedom. She scrawled her signature on the last piece of paperwork, her handwriting barely legible, and slammed the pen onto the desk with a satisfied grunt.
“Done,” she muttered to herself, her voice hollow with exhaustion. She grabbed her oversized tote bag, threw it over her shoulder, and trudged toward the exit.
The cool night air greeted her as she stepped outside. The city buzzed with life—car engines growled, distant music pulsed from unseen clubs, and voices mingled in a chaotic, muffled symphony. Rei shoved her hands into the pockets of her hoodie and started walking.
The streets weren’t crowded, but they weren’t empty either. Her boots scuffed against the pavement as she moved through pools of yellow light cast by the streetlamps. Her thoughts wandered, replaying Matsuko’s faux-kindness from earlier.
Acne cream. Seriously. She let out a soft, bitter laugh. What’s next, deodorant? A fucking gym membership?
She turned a corner, and the street grew quieter. Fewer lights, fewer people. The shadows stretched long and jagged, clawing at the edges of her vision.
Then she felt it.
A sharp, warm breath ghosted across the back of her neck.
She froze mid-step, her heart slamming against her ribcage. The sensation was unmistakable—hot, damp, alive. She could almost hear the faint sound of air being exhaled.
Her breath hitched. Slowly, she turned her head, her eyes scanning the darkness behind her.
Nothing.
The street was empty. Just asphalt, shadow, and the distant glow of a convenience store sign.
Rei’s pulse thundered in her ears. Her eyes darted to every corner, every shadow, every flicker of movement. Still nothing.
She swallowed hard, the metallic taste of adrenaline flooding her mouth. Get a grip, Rei. You’re just tired.
Shaking off the unease, she quickened her pace. Her apartment was only a few blocks away, and she wanted nothing more than to lock the door behind her and drown herself in her art.
By the time Rei stepped into her apartment, the strange sensation had almost faded from her mind. She tossed her bag onto the couch and kicked off her boots, the dull thud echoing in the small, cluttered space.
Her sanctuary was a chaotic blend of pastel and macabre. Posters of her favorite horror films and old, faded anime hung crookedly on the walls. Plushies with missing eyes and jagged stitches sat alongside vintage porcelain dolls on the shelves. Her desk was a mess of art supplies, empty cans of energy drinks, and her beloved drawing tablet.
Rei shrugged off her hoodie, revealing an oversized tank top that hung loosely on her frame, and plopped into her desk chair. She powered on her tablet, the screen illuminating her face with a cold, bluish glow.
She didn’t need to think about what to draw—it came to her in flashes, unbidden and visceral. Within moments, her stylus danced across the screen, creating jagged lines and grotesque shapes.
A figure began to take form—a gaunt, eyeless creature with elongated limbs, its mouth stretched impossibly wide into a twisted, hungry grin.
Rei’s breathing slowed as she became lost in the rhythm of creation. Her hand moved faster, her strokes more erratic. The shadows in the room seemed to deepen, pressing in around her as the creature on the screen became more vivid.
Then it happened again.
The breath.
Hot, damp, impossibly close.
Rei’s entire body went rigid. The stylus slipped from her fingers, clattering onto the desk.
Her eyes darted around the room, wild and searching. Her heart pounded, every nerve screaming at her to move, to look, to run.
She spun her chair around, expecting—praying—to find an empty room.
Nothing.
Just her cluttered apartment. The shadows, the dolls, the faint hum of her tablet.
But it was there. She could feel it. Something. Watching. Breathing.
Her gaze lingered on the darkest corner of the room, where the light from her desk lamp didn’t quite reach. The shadows there seemed deeper, darker, almost alive.
Rei’s fingers tightened around the edge of her desk. “Who’s there?” she demanded, her voice barely above a whisper.
No answer.
The only sound was the faint hum of the city outside.
Rei stayed frozen for what felt like an eternity, her eyes fixed on the corner, waiting for something—anything—to move. But the darkness stayed still.
Finally, she forced herself to turn back to her desk. Her hand trembled as she picked up the stylus.
She looked at the screen.
The creature she’d been drawing stared back at her, its empty sockets filled with a sickly, amber glow.
Rei blinked. The glow was gone. Just her art.
She exhaled shakily, closing her eyes and pressing her palms against her face. You’re losing it, Rei. You’re fucking losing it.
The next morning arrived too quickly, dragging Rei out of a fitful, dreamless sleep. Her alarm blared on the nightstand, vibrating against the stack of half-empty sketchbooks piled there. She groaned, slapping it off with the energy of someone who’d fought the Grim Reaper and lost.
It wasn’t just any day. It was Mom Day.
Rei dragged herself out of bed, her limbs heavy, and threw on whatever clothes didn’t smell like regret. She grabbed a ratty denim jacket on her way out the door, not bothering to check her reflection. She didn’t need to. She already knew she looked like shit.
Her mother’s apartment smelled like old fabric, mothballs, and a faint, unidentifiable medicinal scent. Rei stepped inside, kicking the door shut behind her.
“Mom? I’m here,” she called out, her voice flat but loud enough to carry.
“About time!” her mother’s voice rang out from the bedroom, sharp as ever despite her age.
Rei sighed, slipping off her shoes and making her way down the narrow hallway. Her mother, Shimizu Yukiko, was sitting in her bed, propped up against a mountain of floral pillows that clashed horribly with the beige wallpaper. Her thinning silver hair was pulled back into a bun, and her sharp eyes narrowed the second Rei came into view.
“Jesus Christ,” Yukiko barked, her voice dripping with disdain. “You look like a cockroach that crawled down a well and died there.”
Rei winced, the insult landing with the precision of a knife between her ribs. She didn’t respond, just looked away and muttered, “Good morning to you too, Mom.”
“Don’t ‘good morning’ me,” Yukiko snapped. “What the hell are you wearing? You look like a vagrant. And your hair—when was the last time you brushed it? You want to scare people on the street?”
Rei ignored her, grabbing the plastic gloves from the bedside table. She knew what was coming next. It was routine at this point.
“Alright, let’s get this over with,” she said, her tone devoid of energy.
Yukiko shifted, lifting the blanket covering her legs. “You know,” she began, her voice more conversational now, “if I didn’t have you, I’d have your father do this. But the bastard died first, lucky bitch.”
Rei didn’t flinch this time. She had heard that one a thousand times before. “Yep. Lucky,” she muttered, pulling the gloves on.
The process was quick and clinical. Rei didn’t allow herself to think about it too much—she just got it done. She wiped her mother’s wrinkled skin with the precision of someone who’d mastered the art of dissociation.
“Thank you,” Yukiko said, though her tone lacked any real gratitude. “You’re good at this. You should be a nurse.”
“Pass,” Rei replied flatly, tossing the used wipes into a trash bag.
Yukiko adjusted her position, leaning back against the pillows. “So, have you found a boyfriend yet?” she asked, her sharp tone replaced by something resembling mock curiosity.
Rei froze for half a second, then continued cleaning up as if she hadn’t heard.
“Well?” Yukiko pressed. “You’re 23. Don’t you think it’s time? You’re not getting any younger, you know.”
Rei straightened, peeling off the gloves and tossing them into the trash bag. “Haven’t really had time for that,” she muttered, avoiding eye contact.
“No time? What the hell do you do with your life? Draw those miserable little pictures of yours?” Yukiko scoffed. “You’re wasting your youth. When I was your age, I had a husband, two children, and a house to clean.”
Rei’s jaw tightened. “Different times, Mom.”
“Different my ass,” Yukiko snapped. “You’re just lazy. No ambition. No wonder no man wants you.”
Rei clenched her fists, her nails digging into her palms. She didn’t respond. What was the point?
Yukiko sighed dramatically, shaking her head. “Well, don’t come crying to me when you’re 40 and alone. God knows you won’t find anyone looking like that.”
Rei turned away, focusing on tying up the trash bag. Her face was blank, but inside, her thoughts churned like a storm. She forced herself to take a deep breath and reminded herself it would be over soon.
“Anything else you need, Mom?” she asked, her voice carefully neutral.
Yukiko waved her off. “No, no. Just leave the trash by the door and get me some tea before you go. And brush your damn hair. You look like you’ve been living in a dumpster.”
Rei nodded silently, grabbing the bag and heading for the kitchen. Her hands shook slightly as she filled the kettle, but she ignored it. It was just another day. Another reminder of why she kept her distance.
As the water boiled, Rei stared out the small window above the sink. The sky was a dull, overcast gray, heavy with unfallen rain. She could see her reflection faintly in the glass—her tired eyes, her unkempt hair, her hollow expression.
A cockroach that crawled down a well and died there.
She let out a bitter laugh, low and quiet.
Maybe her mother wasn’t entirely wrong.
