Beneath the Lies We Live

I don't know when my life started to feel like i'm not in control anymore. Everything is broken, everything i've always dreamed, i have nothing left, and im so fucking destroyed.

Well this must be confusing, that's how i'm feeling, a D? A FUCKING D? this can't be right, i've never had less than a B, especially at Biology, how can this be right? I looked at Mrs Kate like i've seen a ghost and i raised my hand.

"Yes Mrs Pearson, what's your question?" she asked me, she knew what i was going to ask, i could see in her face.

"Im sorry, but how can i have a D? I studied all weekend and i'm pretty sure i knew everything" I told her, i was trying to ignore all the looks from my classmates.

"Well clearly it wasn't enough Mrs Pearson" I tried to argue, to say that i did studied like hell but she cut me before i could even talk "Next time, try harder" ough i hate that bitch, how could she say that to me? to ME, her best student... I heard the bell ringing, i quickly packed everything into my suitcase and stormed out of the room.

My parents are going to kill me, i'm so screwed... And so unlucky, while I was looking at the test in my hands I didn't notice the boy coming towards me and I ran into him.

"Oh shoot, i'm so sorry" i said catching my test that fell on the floor.

"Sorry" the guy said before disappearing. I looked at his back and rolled my eyes.

Well ignoring that guy i walked to my locker where i saw my boyfriend waiting on his phone.

"Hey babe" I said and kissed his cheek.

"Hey gorgeous" He smiled. "What's with that face?" He asked when he noticed my face, i opened my locker and put in there my test.

"Got a D" I showed the test in my hands before closing the locker, he wraps his arm around my shoulder and lead me to the exit of the school.

"Don't worry babe next time u'll do better." He opened the door for me.

"I hope so" i murmured

"I know so, babe u're so smart" He looked at me with those eyes, hum those eyes that every girl dreamed of- pure love- i smiled forgetting about the test while i entered his car. I sat on the passenger seat and he got into the drivers seat. "so...hm...u wanna do something or u want me to drop u home?" He asked starting the car.

"I don't wanna go home yet" he smiled with my words.

"Good" He simply said, before driving away from school.

I watched the road in front of me, in the car was silence, but it wasn't a uncomfortable one. I watched as he pulled over, i got out of the car and walked with him still in a comfortable silence to one of the many tables with view for the river. We sat there in silence, hearing only the frogs, crickets and water moving.

"He's back" Liam said, i looked into his green eyes confused.

"Who?"

"Joey" My heart stopped, i tried not to show how that name affected me.

"How do u know?"

"I saw him at school, Jacob told me that his girlfriend had said that Joey had got expelled from the old school but u know Britney, she loves to start rumors."

"Yeah" I said distracted, looking at the water moving.

"You okay? I mean do u still feel something for him" He asked, i quickly looked at him, his expression made me want to slap my face.

"Yeah, no, of course i don't feel nothing for him anymore." I tried to smile "I promise babe, he's past"

There was a long pause while he stared into my eyes "If you say so" He said and passed his finger through his brown hair.

"Hey, i'm with you okay? I love you, i don't give a damn if Joey's back or not k?" I said with my hand in his chin so he would look at me. He looked into my eyes and nodded, i smiled and got closer to his face. "You're the only one i want." I said that and kissed him, my lips moved against his like they did a lot of times before. This time felt different, maybe cause im trying to show and prove him that i don't care about joey-or maybe i'm proving myself that- no, no. I'm kissing Liam i can't be thinking about joey. With that i gave my full attention to my boyfriend.

It was 10pm when Liam dropped me home, i entered my room and i fell on my bed i can't believe this is happening, why? why do i deserve this? He's back...

I looked at some point on my room, Joey, Joseph Carson is back. My mind is running with memories, of him, of us... of what he did to me.

Let me explain, Joey Carson was my childhood best friend. We were neighbours so we know each other since we can remember. He's one year older than me, but that didn't make us less friends, we were always together, literely everyone thought we were dating, in love. At some point they were right. I knew i could always count on him and when i turned 14 he admitted his feelings for me. Yeah that's right, he asked me to be his girlfriend and i loved him-or thought i did- so i said yes. We dated for a few months before everything went down. He changed, he turned 16 and every girl started to flirt and get all over him, i never been a jealous girlfriend but that really pissed me off cause he was liking the attention... one day we had a huge fight that made him admite he wanted me to be Alex -the prettier and popular girl of our school- he said i was too complicated, and messy and he was tired of me...i broke up with him that day, since that day we haven't talked and a month later his mother got a job in another city and he moved- i think to LA- i have been so happy since that, i found my boyfriend a few weeks after he left and i have good grades, great friends, my life is great. And now he's back, at school, at my school. I can't believe it.