Chapter 1

~Rogueâs POV~
I was a joke from the moment I was born. My parents named me Rogue because of my fiery red hair - as red as the rubies, as red as the blood, as red as a heart. It was an accurate name. I had always been the butt of the joke. Ever since I was a little kid, other kids had avoided me, called me names, and thrown rocks at me. It was a miserable experience to be the target of everyoneâs ridicule.
I knew from a young age that I would never be a knight or a craftsman in building swords like my father. Instead, I was destined to be the village fool, the one that everyone used to amuse themselves by humiliating and then forgot as soon as they were done with their fun.
But when life gives you lemons, you make lemonade. And I did just that.
Instead of letting their words and taunts hurt me, I learned to laugh with them and to make a joke of myself before they got the chance to do it first.
My interests were... unconventional. While other boys aimed to learn swordsmanship and how to battle in upcoming wars against the kingdom, I indulged myself in acrobatics.
Acrobatics, dancing, tumbling - Iâd train at the edge of the courtyard, where the others wouldnât notice me, and do backflips, handstands, and somersaults. And with my gangly limbs and lanky physique, it must have looked amusing. I learned to juggle and ride a unicycle. Not exactly the kind of skills that would help in war. But I didnât care. I was a natural acrobat, a natural performer, and I spent hours training myself to do amazing things.
As a little boy, I lost count of how many times my mother scolded me when I came home late, all bruised and dirty.
âYouâll ruin your fatherâs name!â sheâd said, wiping soil off my face with her apron. âYou look like a beggar, a vagabond, not the son of a swordsmith!â
Iâd laugh and go wash up at the well, returning to their small workshop covered in soot and sweat. My father would be grinding away at a steel blade, his face covered in a sheen of perspiration, and heâd give me a wry smile as I slumped down next to him.
âYou got yourself a proper beating again?â heâd ask, glancing down at the cuts on my knees and elbows where Iâd tripped yet again.
âAye, aye,â Iâd say with a grin, âbut I can almost land the backflip now.â
âYouâll land on your face and crack your skull open one day,â heâd say gruffly, âyou should stop all of this and learn something useful, like a normal boy.â
Iâd laugh and stick my tongue out at him. âNot a chance,â Iâd say. âIâm gonna be the best acrobat this townâs ever seen.â
My mother would throw up her hands in despair. âYouâre going to be the death of me, Rogue,â sheâd say. âI keep telling him to learn fencing, to learn to defend himself like a normal boy, but he refuses,â sheâd complain to my father.
My father would laugh and shrug. âHeâs not interested in swords and fighting, you know that. Let him be. Let him do what makes him happy.â
All the while, I was acutely aware of how I must look to others - a gangly, redheaded buffoon prancing around on a unicycle like a crazed court jester.
âThatâs what I will be one day. The court jester!â I had declared to my parents.
Of course, theyâd just stared at me, horrified. âA court jester? A buffoon?â my mother said. âDo you want to be the laughingstock of the entire kingdom?â
âA laughingstock?â Iâd said. âIâll be the funniest, most entertaining person theyâve ever seen! Iâll make the greatest king in the world laugh his guts out! And Iâll get paid good money for it too! Itâll be amazing!â
My mother would sigh hopelessly and throw up her hands in despair. âHe takes no interest in whatâs actually useful in society. He has no sense of duty, no sense of responsibility, no sense of honor. Heâll be the death of me. I just know it.â
My father sighed and wiped his sweaty forehead with a handkerchief. âYou do know what the life of a court jester is like, boy?â
I gave him a cheeky grin. âOf course I do. They perform for the king and his court, tell jokes and stories, sing songs, and juggle. And they get paid good coin for their performance. Whatâs so bad about that?â
My father chuckled and shook his head. âYou think itâs all sunshine and japes? Life in a royal court is like living in a lionâs den, Rogue. One wrong move, and youâre done for.â
âYouâre making it sound like a death sentence,â I said. âWhat could possibly be so bad about being a jester? It sounds like the best gig anyone could ask for! Being paid to crack jokes and tell stories all day!â
âBut thatâs all you will do your entire existence, boy. You will be at their mercy. You will never have a chance to have your own life... Marry, have children...â
I rolled my eyes at that. âWho cares about that? I have no interest in marriage or having children. Sounds like a boring, mundane life. And anyway, who knows? Maybe Iâd meet a beautiful lady in the court and fall in love with her!â
My father laughed out loud at that. âBeautiful ladies donât care much for jesters, boy. What woman would want to be seen with someone whose job is to entertain the entire court, like a trained monkey?â
I huffed and crossed my arms. âYou donât know that. Some ladies might find it entertaining and charming. And maybe the kingâs daughter would be impressed by my tricks and humor, and Iâd catch her eye, and weâd fall in love and...â
My father sighed and shook his head. âSon, be realistic. Even if something like that were to happen - a princess falling for a lowly court jester - do you think the king would allow it? Youâd be sent to the gallows before you could utter another word.â
âWhat? Why?! Thatâs stupid! Why should the king care who the princess marries? Itâs her life, her decision! She should be able to marry whoever she wants!â
My father snorted, cleaning his hands. âRoyal life is different. The marriages are mostly political. There is no romance.â
I scowled. âThatâs horrible. So the king gets to decide who his daughter should marry, just to... what? Make political alliances? Thatâs horrible. She should get to marry for love, not convenience!â
My father gave me a rueful look. âThatâs the way things are. You canât change centuries of custom and tradition, boy. And anyway, the king would never agree to the marriage in the first place. Think about it - it would make quite the scandal. The firstborn princess of the kingdom marrying a lowly jester? It would make a mockery of the royal house.â
I slumped, sulking. âBut whatâs so bad about being a jester? People love them, right? I could bring joy to the entire court, cheer up the king when heâs angry...â
My father shook his head. âJesters may be adored by the common folk, but theyâre considered little better than clowns in the eyes of the nobility. Jesters can be executed or punished at the whim of the king and his court if they displease them. Youâd be playing a very dangerous game if you became one, boy. One that you might not survive.â
I looked down, suddenly discouraged. âBut... but it could be really fun, right? Telling jokes, entertaining everyone, being in front of a crowd, the people laughing at my jokes, thinking Iâm clever and funny...?â
My father sighed and ruffled my hair. âThat part, yes. It could be very fun, boy. But you need to look at the bigger picture. You have to remember that life in a royal court is not the same as life in a village like ours. Itâs a whole different world. Itâs not all fun and games. There is danger and politics and jealousy and greed. And sometimes, death. You must be prepared for that.â
Did my fatherâs warnings deflate my confidence? Not really. Despite my fatherâs stern words of caution, I remained optimistic. My mind was still filled with daydreams of performing for the king, making him laugh, and maybe even catching the eye of a beautiful princess.