Chapter 1
Taste of blood in my mouth as I wake and look around.
Bodies strung all around me, how did it come to this?
In disarray and disoriented, I stumble into a run-down home.
Hungry crows mock me from above, smelling the rot all around me.
Your voice lingers in the back of my head, a time bomb that was honestly waiting to go off, just never thought it ends up like this.
Screams of the white noise deafen me as I trudge through the massacre... a price to pay.
Never wanted to see you hurt or pulled apart; I just wanted to have two happy halves, but life doesn’t work that way.
On my knees, you had me begging please for you not to walk away, but you left without even a word.
The sun blisters my dry, cracked lips that long to be on yours, even if just one more time.
I was not enough for you or anyone, so I finally gave in to the madness that plagued my heart so deep.
Seeing you walk away back to the one who drew you to me did more than hurt me; it broke something inside.
A once happy fluttering turned to dust in my gut and festered into this demon living now inside me.
I fall and embrace the empty grave of the ledge of both my body and soul.
Mind fell to insanity and took out all like you, to save just a few worthy... was it worth it?
My body went limp then ripped into all it could of you and couldn’t stop.
Air is refreshing, hard to breathe.
Those screams of agony, met with laughter from you, awakened the evil inside, long locked away.
Confused and scared as I dashed at you, hate-fueled to you and jealous.
However, I was beyond hurt, and you knew it deep down.
Pushed all my buttons to get to me, then left me for a fate worse than death.
Shattered my tiny arm, but you couldn’t stop me; nothing could now that I had given in.
Bone jutting out became a weapon, and to your shock, I stuck it into your pretty throat.
I cried as you died in front of me...
Falling faster breathing harder
I kissed your forehead, but when I tried for that last kiss, you were waiting.
You lunged at me and dug your teeth into my throat, tearing me apart!
With your dying breath, you spat in my face.
It was a blur after that.
The smell of gasoline and the memories of human screams were what I had left.
I was not like you after all or anyone else... I was not destined for this.
Fighting that demon in me for so long, having it store and eat away the hate and sorrow I thought it did... it saved it as energy.
Converted to blend in but never capable of being one of you.
The rush of hot air dried my eyes.
My limbs were broken, as was my heart, forever.
Will the crows feast on me? Alternatively, am I too tainted even for them?
Pressure is too much to turn to see the sun one more time before I.....
