Chapter 1: It Started with a Baby
The car door had barely clicked shut when she hit me like a tornado.
A cloud of floral perfume and silky fabric swirled around me as she launched herself into my arms, nearly knocking me backward onto the gravel driveway. Warm, frantic kisses rained all over my face.
There was only one person in the world who greeted people with that kind of wild, unstoppable energy.
βMom,β I groaned, though I couldnβt stop the small smile tugging at my mouth. I tried to gently peel her arms away. βIβm thirty-one. People are staring at the βbabyβ being tackled in the driveway.β
Pamela Mayer just laughed, squeezing me tighter. βNonsense. You could be a hundred and gray, Maurice. Youβll always be the boy I brought home in a yellow blanket. Get used to it.β
I shook my head, grabbing my bag from the trunk. As I followed her inside, the familiar scent of home, cinnamon and old floor wax, hit me, along with a heavy dose of dread. I hadnβt stepped foot in this house in six months for a reason. The relentless guilt-tripping, the crying, the βcheck-inβ calls had become a mental minefield I wasnβt ready to cross.
Since they wouldnβt let up until I showed my face, so here I was.
Please, I prayed silently as I stepped inside, just this onceβ¦ donβt start with the usual sermon.
My prayer didnβt even reach the ceiling, it hit the floor before I reached the living room.
βYouβre alone?β my fatherβs voice boomed. It wasnβt a question; it was an accusation. He stood by the mantle, his posture as rigid as a military generalβs. βPamela, did he really not bring anyone?β
I let out a long, tired breath.
βHe didnβt,β Mom answered, her voice a little too bright, a little too excited. βBut that doesnβt matter. Our boy is finally home!β
Something felt off.
I lifted my head, then I saw her.
Matilda.
She was sitting on the sofa, smoothing her skirt with an expression of smug triumph. She looked like sheβd already picked out the wedding china. That girl was a master of social chess, and I was clearly the king they were trying to corner.
The thought of what she did the last time crossed my mind, Matilda tampered with an elevator just to have alone time with me. The scene from that event still gives me the chill. That girl is pure bad luck.
I turned on my heel, ready to retreat to my old room, but my father was faster. His hand clamped around my arm like a vice, steering me firmly toward the study.
βWhat now, Dad?β I asked, exhaustion heavy in my voice.
He didnβt waste time.
βYou still havenβt found yourself a girl, have you?β
All the energy drained out of me in one second. I just stared at him, speechless.
βDadβ¦ I just got here. Iβm hungry, Iβm tired, and I drove for hours to see you two. This really isnβt the welcome I was hoping for. I just want a night of peace.β
βYouβve had years of peace, Maurice. What you lack is a purpose,β he snapped, closing the door behind us. βLook at you. Thirty-one. At your age, I was already raising you. If you donβt like Matilda, fine. Find someone else. Anyone. I donβt care if sheβs a waitress or a wanderer, just bring a woman home and start a life, or Iβll start making your decisions for you.β
I glanced at him from the corner of my eye, my chest tight.
I said nothing. What was there to say?
Nothing, because the truth was a ghost I didnβt want to summon.
Even at thirty-one (almost thirty-two now), marriage had never once crossed my mind in a serious way. Part of me wished I could just get it over with, find someone, get married, and finally shut down these endless lectures and emotional ambushes.
I walked away without another word and headed upstairs to my old room. My hand had just touched the doorknob when my phone rang.
It was Martin, my assistant.
The moment Martin spoke, the room, the house, and my fatherβs demands simply vanished.
βSir... itβs Mia,β Martinβs voice was distorted by wind and sirens. βThe shopping plaza downtown. There was an explosion. Itβs an absolute inferno, Maurice. Sheβs still inside.β
I threw myself into the car, the tires screaming against the asphalt as I tore out of the driveway. I had only been in the city for an hour, a coincidence that felt like a cruel joke from the universe.
Not her. Please, not her.
My heart hammered against my ribs as I threw myself into the car, slammed the door, and floored the accelerator. The engine roared to life, and I tore out of there like the devil himself was chasing me. The assistantβs words kept ringing in my head on loop.
No. No. No. Not Mia.
I drove like a madman through Chicagoβs insane traffic, screaming through red lights, weaving between cars with this cold, frantic kind of focus. Traffic rules? They barely even registered.
I believe I broke every traffic law that ever existed. It was a miracle I didnβt kill anyone. Or myself.
All I could see was her face, the way she looks when she was smiling brightly like the sun, those dimples, those beautiful dentitions, those blue eyes, the way she never noticed me watching her from the shadows of her life.
But none of that mattered.
Mia was my life.
She didnβt even know I existed. She might not even remember me. And that was okay. As long as she was breathing. As long as she was safe and happy, I could live with the silence. I could live with the distance.
Because although I was just a stranger in her periphery. But she was the sun my world orbited around.
And if anything happened to herβ¦
I pressed the pedal harder, the world blurring outside the windows.
I just needed to get to her.
I slammed on the brakes in front of the building, tires screeching, and bolted out of the car without even killing the engine.
The crowd had already swelled into a chaotic sea in front of the mall. Thick black smoke poured from the upper floors, and when I caught sight of the angry orange flames licking out of broken windows, my blood turned to ice.
People were shouting over one another. βFirefighters are on their way!β someone yelled. Another voice cut through the noise: βThe buildingβs about to collapse, stay back!β
No one was moving. No one dared step into that burning hell.
My assistantβs car screeched to a stop beside mine, and Martin, along with a couple of my guys, rushed over. The moment Martin saw the raging fire, his face went pale.
βBoss! Please stop! Just hold on okayβ Martin shouted, grabbing my jacket. βHelp is coming. The fire department said the structure is unstable. You canβt go in!β
I didnβt hear him. I only heard the roar of the fire and the silent scream in my own head.
The situation was dire. A massive pillar groaned and crashed somewhere inside, sending sparks and debris flying. There was no safe way in. Every rational part of me screamed to wait.
But then I thought of Mia trapped somewhere in that inferno, and every ounce of reason vanished.
I stripped off my overcoat and ran to the decorative fountain near the entrance. I dunked the heavy fabric, saturating it until it was leaden with water, and then I charged straight into the flames without looking back.
I stumbled through the haze, my vision blurring. My wet coat was already steaming, the moisture evaporating into the hungry air. I was losing time.
I could barely see two feet ahead. Debris rained down around me as I pushed deeper, coughing, stumbling, but never stopping. My lungs screamed for air. Every breath felt like swallowing fire.
I didnβt know where I was going. The hallways had turned into a maze of collapsed ceilings and flickering flames.
My coat was already drying out from the insane heat, but I kept it pressed over my mouth and nose.
At one point, my legs nearly gave out.
Exhaustion and smoke were winning. I dropped to one knee, gasping, ready to collapse right there.
Then I heard it.
A faint voice, almost lost in the roar of the fire.
It was like some invisible force grabbed me by the chest and pulled me forward. I didnβt question it, I just followed.
βMia!β I roared, the sound swallowed by the collapse of a nearby ceiling section..
I strained to listen through the crackling flames.
βHelp meβ¦ pleaseβ¦ helpβ¦β
There it was. Weak. Terrified. But... alive.
I followed the sound, shoving past a toppled shelf, my hands burning as I touched hot metal. Hidden in the corner behind a tall cabinet, I finally found her.
My Mia.
She was curled into a ball, her skin silvered with ash, her eyes closed. She looked so small, a broken porcelain doll in a burning house.
βIβve got you,β I whispered, draping my damp coat over her to shield her from the sparks.
I didnβt have the strength to carry her back through the maze. I saw the shattered remains of a second-story window. So I carried her rushed to the nearest broken window and leaned out, waving frantically.
The firefighters had finally arrived below. βUp here!β I shouted, my voice hoarse.
βBelow!β I screamed at the silhouettes of the firefighters. βTake her! Take her first!β
I felt the rough canvas of a ladder hit the ledge. Hands reached up. I lowered her carefully, watching as they pulled her into the cool, evening air. I stayed there until I saw the paramedics swarm around her, until I knew she was breathing. I let out a single, relieved breath.
But before I could I could celebrate, the floor beneath me gave way with a sickening crack.
Everything went black.
The Soul Tie
The hospital air tasted like bleach and fire. Every time I tried to expand my lungs, my shattered ribs sparked a white-hot fire. I was a mess of bandages and burnt skin, but the physical agony was a dull hum compared to the panic in my chest.
Is Mia safe?
That was the only thought that mattered. I squeezed my eyes shut, and the heavy fog of the pain medication dragged me back to the one day I had spent twenty years trying to bury.
October 16, 1996
I was ten years old, sitting on a hard plastic chair in a hallway that smelled like bleach and something else I didnβt understand at the time, something that felt like death. My grandmother was in surgery after a fall, and in all the confusion, the adults had completely forgotten about me.
Hospitals feel endless when youβre a child. Every corridor looks the same, every turn feels like it leads somewhere youβre not supposed to be. I started wandering, my sneakers squeaking against the shiny tiles, not really sure where I was going.
Then I heard it, a sharp, gut-wrenching cry that stopped me dead in my tracks.
It wasnβt just a cry; it was a soul-shattering scream coming from a room down the hall. It made the hair on my arms stand up. I followed the sound, my heart thumping against my ribs like a trapped bird.
I saw a man, Carlos, leaning against the wall. He looked like heβd been struck by lightning. A nurse stood in front of him, her head bowed, her voice a mere shadow.
βCongratulations, Mr. Carlos,β the nurse said, her voice shaky. βItβs a girl.β
Carlos lunged forward, eyes wild with desperate hope. βCan I see her? Is Emily okay? Let me see my wife!β
The nurse froze. Her silence hit harder than any words.
βIβm sorry, Carlosβ¦ Emily didnβt make it.β
The scream that tore out of him didnβt sound human. He collapsed against the nurse, clawing at her scrubs. βNo! This is a joke, right? It has to be a joke! Take the baby, I donβt want her! Give me back my Emily!β
βShe only wanted to bring a child to life. Why take her life instead. God why? Knowing how much I love her. What child murders his own mother? Why?β He wailed and totally lost himself.
I watched from the shadows, heart slamming against my ribs. That was the day I saw what love could do to a man when it shattered.
Later, under a sky bleeding rain and lightning, I pressed my face to the window and watched him hug his wifeβs cold body to his chest in the dark, crying profusely like a child.
Later, he walked to the nursery and just stood at the entrance like a ghost, staring at the tiny bundle in the nursery from a distance, his eyes completely dead.
βMr. Carlos? Your baby?β a nurse asked softly as he turned to leave. βKeep her,β he rasped, his voice hollow. βI donβt want her.β
Almost immediately, chaos exploded at the hospitalβs entrance, an accident had happened nearby sending gurneys crashing and doctors shouting through the halls. Nurses vanished into the frenzy.
Carlos melted into the pouring rain like a shadow.
In the middle of the storm, the nursery was completely forgotten.
And the baby... alone.
And as if sensing abandonment, she began to cry. It wasnβt the loud, demanding cry of a hungry baby. It was a lonely, panicked sound echoing off the cold linoleum floors.
But no one could hear her, not with all that noise.
For reasons I couldnβt explain, I took one step. Then another. My legs felt like they were moving through deep water. I reached the side of the cot and looked down.
I expected to see something that justified the fatherβs hatred. A monster that had killed its mother.
Instead, I found a miracle.
She was tiny, her skin the color of a crushed rose petal. When she opened her eyes, a deep, oceanic blue the frantic wailing stopped instantly. And I suddenly got captivated.
I couldnβt believe there could be a thing so beautiful. I just stare at her bewildered.
Then she did something that nearly stopped my heart.
She smiled.
A tiny, hiccuping curve of her lips, pure, trusting, and so damn enchanting it hurt.
I reached out a trembling hand. Her small fingers smaller than a penny, brushed against mine. Then something shocking happened, the moment our skin touched, I felt a strange powerful current shot through me, the spark that traveled up my arm was terrifying.
It was like a soul-tie I wasnβt old enough to understand, but too far gone to break.
I suddenly became scared. And I honestly felt like running away, but it felt like my feet was glued to the ground. I felt a mix of awe and something I still canβt name.
Outside, my fatherβs car honked, loud, impatient.
I took a step back, intending to run. I made it to the door, my heart screaming leave, leave, leave. But I couldnβt move another inch. I looked back at that lonely crib in the middle of a chaotic world that didnβt want her.
A fierce, protective clarity washed over me.
No one was looking. No one cared.
Then suddenly, as if being possessed by an inexplicable force, something I couldnβt explain then and still canβt now, I walked back to that pink bassinet, scooped up the warm, milk-scented bundle, and tucked her deep inside my oversized denim jacket. I zipped it up until I could feel her heartbeat thumping directly against mine.
βDonβt cry,β I whispered into the fuzz of her hair. βIβve got you.β
The hospital was a madhouse of sirens and shouting. Yet, no one noticed a ten-year-old boy slipping out into the rain, carrying a secret that would define the rest of his life.