Testimony

Testimonies 

Emotions

It is like a storm or thunder that shakes my thoughts and lightning that flashes thoughts of pain leading wounds in the past of mistakes

Job

You are greater man then me. I am no man. 

I  am mortal! I have been chosen by God. I am a child of the King of Kings and Lord of Lords! I have failed every temptation until now. I have crumbled. I have battle scares. I have wounds that of my past that only my God can heal. I have cursed, rebelled. Paid greatly for my disobedience yet Gods grace and mercy have broken chains. I’m free, redeemed, loved and forgiven by the most high. Yet so many against me. So many enemies rise. Yet the God of wanders. The universe declares his majesty. My God is bigger than any problem or temptation I face. I stand in my filth and ruins. Yet God cleanse my sins. I accept his sacrifice. And he’s brought me this far. God of the universe. I praise and want to give glory to him. He is my first love. Yet one humans eyes of blue sky’s breaks my bond of blindness. The desire to come back home to God! Yet rejected by all. And punished.  My enemies accuse me. My enemies lie about me. My Jesus is my advocate. I stand on trailer as humans act as demons to destroy me at all cost. Yet my Gods hand swipe them away from me. And my little family’s victory to over throw my enemies is my vision! I am a PRAYER WARRIOR fighting spiritual battles. I give those battles to God. I am powerless. My Heavenly Father is powerful! Praise the KING OF KINGS AND LORD OF LORDS! What may be unfair, might be fair. 

I stand humbled, bold , confident, and retentive. Praying for the lost, prodigals, drunks, homeless, scisoprenics, bypolars, disabilities and veterans. I am a prayer warrior. I will keep praying for those who are exactly like me. Pray for me too! …….

addictions

I’ve had an addiction all kinds of foods. to people to though some really deal with drug addictions. I’ve seen them hit rock bottom I’ve been addicted to alcohol and still a taste of drop of alcohol knowing what trap can become . yet God free me slowly, teaching me true love, and God said to me free from those addictions to never feel like I need that alcohol or certain kinds of food and yet he still teaching me slowly, and he still loves me every day and showing me love through those who do care about me and love me . It makes all the difference to keep living this life.

wounds bleeding. Reminded of so many sins

When you’re not on guard of your mind, the thoughts can rise with temptation when my bleeding bloody wound reopening I can’t see past suicide or a darkness that rises within to those emotions store within me like a cup of poison brewing words that tore me down. giant that have me paralyzed, and then I see Jesus I see my heavenly father rescue me. light in my darkness, closing my wounds, slowly and growing into blossoms and vines, making my body a broken pieces to repair yet it’s all in my head filled with God’s love he’s slowly teaching me to love and forgive to trust him, setting me free from beginnings just from a thought. I find myself free once again.

Battle scares

Having scars from battle. some really do fight with themselves having guilt , shame feeling not good enough. I’m not worthy yet  quiet. They’ll never gonna want you to know what tornadoes torn through them, battling to learn how to forgive those who hurt them took advantage of them and he said words to them that stopped them from dreaming, lost in darkness never knowing the real purpose those who fight quietly tears that break the silence and Christian music and secular music healing them and God, reaching down to save them that you were abused. used misunderstood . yet praying through their storm  and temptations, asking God to deliver them from all of that. I pray for them and really I’m praying for me.

Nature comes to me

Dove

As I look up the sky 14 years old, seen a beautiful dove as a dove spread its wings coming closer to me. It speaks only a dove can no words just a bird call. inches away from me. Did it accuse me never again have I seen a dove so gorgeous it spoke loud to me

The woods

I saw carefully walking into the woods, go on a path that leads to the fort. many path were created. I ran on the back of the path getting drunk off of becoming lost into my imagination. the woods, quiet birds sing. laying on the fort, listening to rock music Pine trees, tall pine straw covered the ground everywhere in the woods. A friend became to me a freedom that showering me with magic. memorize the beauty that surround me. Drunk off a spinning circle the entire swing that never stopped in my spinning

Elephants

I see I visit I get to join the line waiting my turn to write the elephants magical moments to meet a gentle giant like elephant

Slug

I looked down seeing the grass move. I realize a friend on my ankle. I carefully pick up the slug and place it in the grass. I smile to the slug as it stretch towards me. Maybe he was saying thank you I still don’t know why it chose me?

Butterflies

As my whole life, I chase butterflies as yellow butterflies come close flying over my head. blue butterflies fly away from me and I definitely want to be one with nature as I sit in my backyard. One day thousands of white butterflies fly around me and my family’s dog. fly past us. one baby butterfly flies to my nose. I close my eyes, not realizing my desire to be one with nature yes again chosen. Yes finally God answers!

Dragonflies

As I spin a circle of splash over and over, reaching to the bottom of the pool, walking from the hill from the pool floor, I walk trying to walk to the bottom of the pool, deepest part my ears pop . Floating not able to finish walking to the bottom. I sit Indian style on the pools bottom floor. Looking up at the of the surface of the water. Reflections of trees and sky’s. Moving as waves. I jump in the pool feeling me sink, but I feeling the touches of the bubbles. I love the bubbles. breathing through out of my nose, big bubbles. I finally rest staring at the sun’s glory through the oak tree, creating a shade on the deep of the pool, dragon flies land on my head, choses me, but for what reason? seven dragon flies land on my head. still this day don’t know why?

I sat in a long chair outside by the pool. It was a pink blossom tree shed this pink blossom flower flowers that float to me, chose me. coming to me when the wind embrace me with the pink blossom flowers as one pink blossom flower falls into the palm of my hand. I know then the wind was my favorite of all nature. The wind still brings me leaves from the tops of the trees. the wind still blows and welcomes me to be in its presence. And my heavenly father is among all that and more..

Lightening that surrounds me in my living room. Powerful buzzing sound. Blue power spreads over the windows of a trailer I lived in. Let God saves me. Tv turns off. The lightening of blue colors disappear. As strange things happen. Unexplained to me. And left with questions of why and what is my purpose?

A fish tank. With 13 brown fish. Not pretty. Gather in the corner of the fish tank. All facing at me. I pointed at the fish and I just said. There’s something wrong with those fish. No answer. Walking away slowly. Still don’t know why. These keeps happening. Rather in dentist office. Or at a restaurants. Or at a friend’s house.

Space ships

A dark night. Visited by watchers that didn’t mean for me to see them. A square ship flying above the trees. Lights bulbs every inch of different colors flash at the bottom of the ship. One ship takes off in the field. I prayed to see a space ship. God answered. I saw three ships. And the evidence the next was their circle left on the ground. The ship had no sound but its engine blew through the trees quietly. I heard the brush moving the top of the trees. 1994 i sleep with a light on and still do till this day.

Once again years later. A brown ship I spot in daylight. Not afraid. This time I smiled not just at the unknown visitors but at the half of moon that the sun lit that day. Truth in all of this. 2026

A shadow in the dorm. No one else saw the shadow but me. I reach out to it. It was my size. I was just a kid. It moved fast away from me. I went and lay back down. It seemed confused then it walked out of the dorm. It slammed the door. I never saw the shadows until years later.

The government shut down the program I was in. I was put in another program. I forgot it all until years later when I had face my past within memories within memories. Slowly healing. Slowly letting go of my past. All pain and mistakes. I survived. They’re unknown and never seen visitors who fight for us to survive and live!

At age 8 I prayed to the moon. The moon must have heard my prayer. I didn’t know about God. I talked to the moon. The moon answered. I was set free.