Chapter 1
Oh God...how I wish I could just push her off him and bitch slap her so hard she sees stars even though standing under the bright sun.
But alas! I can’t do anything after all the leech has my best friend under her charm at the moment. I know it won’t last long but it still hurts to see her hanging off his arms pecking his lips like a woodpecker.
How I wish I could tell him what I really feel for him. I wish I could shout it from the rooftop that the love I feel for him is way past the realms of friendship and has been for a long time. I want to tell him that I no longer want to be treated like a baby sister because my feelings for him is not the pure love of a sister but rather the desire burning brighter than the sun itself.
Omg I didn’t even realise that I have started with my mental rant again and forget to tell you who this bitchy girl sprouting this violent shit is...so here it goes...
I am Annabelle Summers and I am a highschool senior. I am blessed with very loving parents and a not so loving older brother who I know has some sort of love for me but it’s burried deep down maybe somewhere in his intestines(I am still trying to search for it) but last not the least I have my best friend, Jacob Parker, who by the reason was the subject matter of my long violent rant.
I know people say it’s quite a cliché for childhood best friends to turn into highschool sweethearts and then walk hand in hand into the sunset for a happily ever after only if my life was so simple. But no my best friend had to be the biggest player my highschool Austin High had even seen and has to have the neverending line of girls after him.
“Ann again you are day dreaming. You really need to stop it” I literally jump out of my skin when Jake suddenly whispers into my ears.
“You doofus u scared me” I say my heart beating a mile a minute but my cheeks were bright red being again caught by Jake staring into space standing in the middle of an almost empty parking lot of my highschool.
At least he doesn’t know what I was thinking about my murderous thoughts safely tucked into the dark crevice of my brain.
I slap his arm showing my dislike of him laughing at my expense.
“Let’s go inside or else we will be late and I am in no mood for detention today” I tell him and start speed walking towards the school gate. He follows me to my locker as his is just beside mine, we collect our books and go to our first class that we both share English.
After sitting on our desk side by side I begin my interrogation keeping my tone as casual as I can.
“So you and Cassy huh...I didn’t see that one coming” I make a conscious effort to keep my tone free of the venom dying to pour out of me. I really thought Cassy was one of those girls who could resist his charms and not fall all over him and his football jersey. But I guess no girl is that strong to say no to the epitome of charm that is Jacob Parker.
After all I fell for it too and I fell hard.
" Ohh it’s nothing serious we are just having fun. You know I don’t do relationships she is just fun to have around. Nothing more nothing less”
He tries to explain this in his player language which mostly includes the words “not serious” and “just for fun”.
Its always fun for him but the girls always end up demanding more and he drops them faster they you can say 123 and I know I should really feel bad for these girls and knock some sense into my best friend. I also know that I should really not be so in love with him but what can I say he is totally different towards me he has always had my back made me feel safe and loved. Let’s just say we have been though a lot together and I can’t imagine him ever not being a part of my life.
A very big crucial part...I have thought many a times to finally tell him that I want to be more than his best friends but then I see him with his flavour of the week and my resolve shatters. I wait for him to be done with her but this vicious cycle continues.
May be one day he will love me back and if it’s Jake I get in the end I am ready to wait.
