Willing

"Jasmine, Jasmine," I can hear my sis Tris calling but I'm on the roof staring at the stars. Come out here to feel peace to feel right when everything is tumbling out of my control and that's why the darkness,stars, and the moon givee what the world can peaceful silent " Damint jaz you hear me,oh for fucks sake. Mom she on the damn roof again."I hear grunting and shuffling telling me big sister is climbing out ofy window on to the roof. I stay put slient waiting for _three,two, one. "Jasmine why are up here now" I look over to Tris and stare blankly at her. As look her over o wonder really wonder what she has over me. She is not smart. Unlike me she as and IQ of 100. Where as i have and IQ of 278. She is tall standing at 6ft 1 inches. Where i am just 5ft even she slim with an supermodel body and lool like fairy princess. I got cruves, in an anubunce. We are both athletic she a cheerleader,basketball player and volley ball player. Where i am gymasit, am majorette(drill team), soft ball, and track. She belongs to no clubs and spends most weekends partying and drinkimg. I belong to two organiztions National honor society, and studemt conuscle. Plus I am a part of the AFJROTC where senoir airmem and apart of the sabor,color gaurd,regluation,and armed drill team. I am second in command of my flight.

But all of it. I mean evreything i have on her she has more the looks. Blonde hair thats cut in layers that stop at her shoulders,ice blue eyes that seem like the winter sky during a snow, fall perfect eye brows she dosent have to pluck, a small perk nose with a pericing,pink bow lips that are plumb and only needs lip blam. Cruves that she fits into a size 5. All that seems to draw attention of everyone male and female and when she turns on the charm well i do wish you well. No one can deniy her.

"I came up here to be alone"

I tell blanly. I turn my attention back to night ask looking on the Oryan's belt. Then I kicked.

"Well get up mom said she needs help finshing dinner."

I sit up, I was fine here by myself cooling off, relaxing after my track meet. All wanted was time to myself then Tris climbs up here for this. What.. The.. Actual.. Fuck?!

"And why can't you help her?"

"Because, Jaz,(is that a sneer) Mr. Walkins and his son is coming and i need to get ready thats why!."

Oooh that what going. Uh its not the regular. " I don't want help cause I want hang out, or I have a date with this really hot guy from school." Nope she wants to prepare for Amon Walkins the son of Jod Walkins our dads boss. (My dad Chris O'Neail, he works for Mr. Walkins as pravite investgator. My dad is a retaired police detative. And Army Vetertain, but 45 he is still as smart and strong as he was at 21. And twice better than any man younger or older than he is. But he left the police force four years ago because Mr. Walkins made me and offer ge couldnt refuse. What is was i will never know but it is what it is.) It is no secrect that Tris has the most untaural addtraction to Mr. Walkins son Amon but who knows if likes her. I mean gose to a different school. Leaves on tge other side of town. I dont know the dude but he is adttractive but looks arent everything case im point Tris. You may look on the outside and even have all charm that God can give then dubble that to what is taught. But your heart,soul,mind can twist the most beautiful things the world has given to blance out all darkness, and evil things mankind has created. So no she can have she love his beauty, charm,money,and prestige. But me I want what our parents have love. True love. My parents married cause love. Diddnt matter that mt dad is White (Itlian) and mom is colored ( puerto rican and Egyptian) they love without bounderies. No lines, its true.

"Fine go and get ready,... Ill help mom."

I stand dusting off dirt.

"Has dad made home yet?"

We climb down to my room and go through my window.

" Nope he arrive with the walkins... So move its now time to get peefect... Well more dont think?"

She as we walk down the hallway. I roll my eyes, cause really?

"Tris you the no need to perfect what is already perfect you need just say time up my game do you think?"

I wink back at her. Turn and walk down stairs. But still her say.

" ...Short ugly ass bitch.."

Wow that never gets old. Her reminding me of my looks. Wow, after all this time it huers that my own sister hates me. Hates cause i smarter, cause even though i am 15,and she just 17 we are in the same grade. We just finshed our softmore year in high school. In her mind i am standing to close to her spotlight. And God forbide anyone cast a shodow anywhere near that light. Jeez it hurts when who is supose to love hate you cause you are on a simular level. Yep fuck my life.