Chapter one Glitter , rainbows and a simple life .
Don’t let the world change your smile use your smile change the world it’s taken a long time to gather my thoughts and I’ve decided to write a book I’ve laughed until I cried and cried until I’ve laughed I’m currently sat in an acute ward of South Wales hospital after being section for the third time in six months I’m left wondering how it got to this I’m not going to ask me I’m just going to tell the truth and poetry and writingTruth matters in the new world we live in we lie to ourselves and others forcing fake smiles and meaningless words I wasn’t sure of what Sort of book I should write a deep dark journey through my troubled mind maybe or not to mystic account of my struggles to maintain a normal life or with Whimsical journal hinting at the person I’ve told the world for many many years only time will tell all I hope is that I can strive to help others who may have been was still in the own dark places there are many different mental health battles I’ve had to fight that is it I’ve been invisible to the eye three main mental health battles for me have been postpartum psychosis a rare condition that affects new mum after having a baby postnatally I was completely unaware I was suffering with this condition and became a danger to myself and my baby I was lucky the midwife and the health visitor picked up on it or it could’ve become a tragedy for us both.
Next is bipolar when people have bipolar disorder they my change from very high with lots of energy to irritable or even angry state they might talk a lot stop sleeping to strange embarrassing things and have unrealistic ideas and then Ward. can also slip into a depressive state The true extent of my struggles will be revealed along the way with the intent of voices will not fade on their own but Join together and echocardiogram I sit here amongst all the other patient sitting watching listening suspicious of everything they can all see and I have abundance of knowledge in fact this isn’t the case I’m a complete mess up this book is going to be very bluntly and honesty honesty is the best policy good luck on my journey my lovely let’s continue on a mental health journey together.
A fabulous Hello
I had better introduce myself it’s just the average Leaza Jayne Lloyd
This book is written showing my journey along life and times and psychiatric units we all and just a rollercoaster novel of life each in turn getting on and off at certain chapters of life or complex events will change in speed and direction is with the blind compass I’m just going to say how the hell it is no better version just simply life my life hasn’t been glitter and rainbows I should let you do know first hand before jumping into the perception that I’ve lived in incredibly enchanted life I truly hope your stories of a evoke on an intriguing journey of amazement as a reader I want to put you at ease that you are not alone ragdoll my alter ego name I’ve used after being mistreated in such a violent relationships I spent many years in trapped in a conditioned in domestic violence with the toxic intensity that extensively added to my vulnerabilities that I am currently suffering from today . Some people automatically assume when a relationship is over the damage stops, I learnt from a young age the hard way feeling more like a possession and a human being I began to feel less than perfect I’m now only learning how to live life I haven’t live life boring just in a controlled bubble I’ve been called many names some not for some not very nice names start still affect me today please feel free to put this book down if it doesn’t interest you see clearly all the truth always interests and minds
