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My first crush, Artemis. He is one of the people I trusted with my life. We were acquaintances; people who just talked about inconveniences, projects, assignments. He is known around school, at least people from our grade. And he is one type of a male, everyone adores him, I could tell by the look on their faces they are either jealous or too friendly, to be seeing him as a friend. And we could say I am one of those people. But I tried so hard not to, I didn't want to be like them, I wanted to be more than just another supporter of his.
One day in middle school, I was walking across the hallway, about to enter my third period class. He was surrounded by his friends and a female. In his eyes there was admiration towards her, obviously she was oblivious to him. But they were good friends, and she probably likes him too, but very well at hiding them. I've seen her give him those same doe eyes; he gives to her too. Both like each other but too scared to admit their feelings, and that same day was the day that I told myself that it'll be my last day of me giving him my ogling eyes. He and she are meant for each other. And I can still remember that day as if it were yesterday. Since then, as the week ended, I stopped looking for him, and did my best to not turn his way.
A month passes by, and there was a new student. I was told to give him a tour around campus, and so I did. Around the school campus, bottom floor to the third floor. We became good friends after that. I kind of slowly gained a small crush towards him, sadly he rejected me after I told him, obviously I told him before I gained more of a romantic-ish crush towards him. Either way, his name is Josh Albert. Albert is his middle name. He tells me that he has a crush towards someone. I was hurt a tiny bit, I mean who wouldn't after telling their crush that they like them then tell them that, that they like someone else. And to say that the person he exactly likes is my science lab partner. She's kind and really pretty, which is cool and all, but it did hurt me. I went and cried because I only liked him a tiny bit. He noticed me crying and apologized after and I just nodded. And he also gave me a hug afterwards, making me glad to have an understanding friend like him. That day I also realized I might not even had like him in a romantic way but saw a genuine nice male. Which may have had made me believe that I had a crush on him.
Now we are in high school, those were my middle school crushes. Then there's my high school crush. In freshman year, I gained a crush towards an obnoxious guy. I didn't realize it until barely the last few days before school had ended. I also realized he was a gilipollas, aka an idiot. And his name is Luis. God, did I believe he was the hottest guy in my grade. Jesus, some friends that I've made friends in middle school, told me about 'red flags' and all, and he had so many. Either I was too blind to even notice, or I didn't even bother to care to even notice any of them. But I'm over him now. Happy? Happy!
Either way it is almost the end of sophomore year. Since my last crush, I haven't crushed on anyone. At least not yet, and it is killing me. Closing my locker, causing a thud echoing through the hallway. I let my head hit on my locker, with a really loud thud, that echoed through the hallways. Trying to think of anything else but crushing on random strangers, there is no one I am infatuated with and it's so lame not being able to. "Umm, Aurora?" I hum. "Are you okay?'' I look up to see a concern Joshua and Samantha, on the left side of my locker. I shrug going back to my position. "We got invited to a party, do you maybe want to join us?" Joshua beams. I turn to him with my tiring hazel eyes, he was crossing his arms (Samantha had her arms dangling around his), leaning in one of his legs waiting for an answer of mine.
I gulp I know this conversation won't go the way I want it to, "I can't go. I've been really tired recently, I didn't get enough sleep this week, I'm really sorry," I blurt out, my head hung low. I heard him sigh, when I glanced up as my eyes stood curious, he was. Nodding? I glanced at Samantha who had a sad face. Nodding towards them, "sorry I gotta go," I wave bye to them. They wave back at me, turning around leaving the scene. Turning my head back, facing forward so I don't end up hitting something. Or someone.
Too late, I hit something sturdy. Slightly shaking my head, my drowsy eyesight and a tall figure got down to my level, "are you okay?" They ask with their thick accent. It sounds familiar, I made eye contact with the one and only Artemis. Why is he pulling my arm? The look on his face was... concerned? Wait, am I dreaming? Rubbing my eyes. Shit that hurts.
I back away from him, my back ends up hitting the lockers behind me. "Ye - yeah," I stammer. I glance across the hallway, keeping my eyes away from his hazel eyes, that consisted more of the green. But I regret the decision I made when I look in that direction, there stood his girlfriend; Mabel. She had a jealous expression; she changes her expression when she sees me staring at her and turns around. I sigh, 'why did she look jealous, she has him. He likes her so much, she is so damn lucky' I told myself, but shrug it off. Maybe she wasn't jealous. Either way, she trusts him, like he trusts her. Well I think. "Well, I have to go," I tell him. We made eye contact but shut my eyes tight after. I couldn't keep looking at him, I ran away before he said anything else. "I wish you liked me," I mutter, while running. Knowing no one could of heard that, unless the ghosts count.
I barge in the office, "can I have a pass–"
