Mother's

You’re in bed on Saturday night and you realize something, something you’ve never noticed before. It was someone you had forgotten to show appreciation to. Someone who was not always there but at one point was making an effort to be there. This person was your mother, she was your birth mother. Not one of those foster mothers that you can’t always trust. Your actual mother. Your mother wasn’t always there and sometimes was but was doing drugs. That’s the rough patch in her life. At one point in your life something changed about her. She was different, more respectful and was actually there for you. You realize your mother was always there for you all along but she had struggles she had to work through. You too were struggling as well. You are a teen after all. Your mother was a really nice person when she’s not on drugs, she knows how to handle herself. No one is perfect and people have rough times in their lives. Of course it’s not a matter of what is going on it’s a matter of how you handle what is going on. Also you aren’t the easiest kid to get along with. Your dad was never around, always drinking or doing drugs. He never helped your mom if she needed help raising you. Your dad was an asshole then and will probably always be one. Only some people you can trust and they have to be showing they care as well. Dcf has caused a struggle in your life, you’ve been in foster homes and out of home placements. This one group home stuck out to you. It had a very messed up system that no one really understood. You overcame a lot of problems and fears in this group home. You met a lot of people who were there to support you. A lot of people who cared. Even if you were a pain in the ass sometimes. You learned new things that can help you in a crisis. You also learned new things you enjoy. You realized that you actually enjoy helping people and that it makes you smile. You like knowing you can make a difference in someone’s life just by helping them. Just by telling them positive things that might help them get through whatever they are going through. Just by comforting them if they needed it. At this time there were alot of people in your life you told to fuck off because you were scared of being manipulated or abused again. You had to remind yourself that that was your past, and that you had room to shape your future. At that moment is when you decided what you would do. You decided to find a job at a group home for teens with mental health issues. You also decided you would foster teens seeing how most people only take in babies. And that is exactly what you did. You became a successful person in life.Not money wise but successful because you helped people. You helped teens and you helped your friends. That’s all that mattered to you. All that mattered was that you saw a smile on other people’s faces.