The new Luna

I always sit in the back of my class, this makes me invisible and I easily go unnoticed, it gives me time to think without anyone’s eyes on me, my mind drifts back to the previous night as my teacher drones on about positioning of a model, we’ve been doing this for a week now and I can’t listen to it anymore. It’s the last thing on my mind right now all I keep seeing are those eyes, the eyes glowing in the darkness of my dreams, they’re the brightest of blue almost white, they dig into my soul and grasp at my heart, it’s like I can feel them really looking at me the crazy part is I can see his tall muscular figure even in the depth of the dark. I can see his outline against the forest, he’s shrouded in darkness and stays perfectly still. Those eyes. It’s like they pull me yet I can’t move, I’m frozen in time waiting for him as he looks to be waiting for me. Every night for the past week I keep having the same dream but each time I have it I’m slightly closer to him. I feel like he wants to tell me something but he doesn’t, neither of us say a word and yet I feel at peace. I feel like I should fear him but I don’t, all I feel is complete. Total calm, I can’t escape these dreams and yet I don’t want to. A deep part of me begs for it to be real and for him to truly be there with me, I just want to reach out and touch him. To glide my hands over his huge shoulders and arms and to fall into his eyes…

The loud bell makes me jump, how have I been sat here for an hour already? It’s thinking of him… he makes me lose time and yet I have no idea who he is.

On my walk home my mind is still wondering back to my dreams trying to make out the man of my shadow dreams. I stop dead in my tracks, what is that smell? It’s incredible! It smells like nature, the forest in the warm summer, the freshness of new flowers and yet there’s almost a spiciness to it. The smell is strongly of male and slight perspiration. My eyes dart everywhere, a few passing cars, a few groups of people walking up and down the street, females giggling to each other about males walking by. Our pack grounds are 4 miles away from the university I attend, this is nothing but a warm up for a wolf, we have no issues with distance, I love the walk it gives my wolf a mild satisfaction so I don’t have to let her out just yet, the moon will be full tomorrow and everyone will be out in wolf form for the Luna moon, it’s where you have the greatest chances of finding your mate.

The whole community will be out, mated or paired wolves will be off enjoying themselves and going on a sex craze through the woods, for us unmated and unpaired wolves it can be a dangerous time out there. Some of the unattached males will be out in full on rage looking for females in heat. I can already feel the beginning of it starting in the depth of my stomach. I groan inwardly as I approach my driveway and see 3 cars. Great my brother and sister are home for the celebration…