2.24.2023
Though I have never been in love, I’ve loved.
I’ve loved so deeply that my heart aches for days.
So much so that I’ve fallen ill from the words of those I adored,
and broken down in tears from their pains.
Perhaps had it not been you whom hurt me,
this situation would not have consumed everything.
Now, I can’t believe a thing that I hear or see.
It all feels like a dream that engulfs my entire being.
Did our youth and friendship mean nothing to you?
I wonder this often as I stare at the night sky.
I wish I never had to bid you adieu.
I hate to say that I long to die.
It's month nine since we last talked.
I saw you were online and almost reached out.
Of course, I can't be that blunt and so I walked.
I walked through the night, full of thought.
You hurt me! I should hate you.
Disown you, bruise you, fight you,
but it hurts to know I lost you.
Do you regret it? Do you feel blue?
Dearest brother, if only you knew.
