A Woman's Diary

Though I have never been in love, I’ve loved.

I’ve loved so deeply that my heart aches for days.

So much so that I’ve fallen ill from the words of those I adored,

and broken down in tears from their pains.

Perhaps had it not been you whom hurt me,

this situation would not have consumed everything.

Now, I can’t believe a thing that I hear or see.

It all feels like a dream that engulfs my entire being.

Did our youth and friendship mean nothing to you?

I wonder this often as I stare at the night sky.

I wish I never had to bid you adieu.

I hate to say that I long to die.

It's month nine since we last talked.

I saw you were online and almost reached out.

Of course, I can't be that blunt and so I walked.

I walked through the night, full of thought.

You hurt me! I should hate you.

Disown you, bruise you, fight you,

but it hurts to know I lost you.

Do you regret it? Do you feel blue?

Dearest brother, if only you knew.