The biggest mistake of my life
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Hammer POV
'Isabella DeLuca'.
I stare numbly at the glass bottle shattered around my feet, feeling like my heart will beat out of my chest.
Isabella? My Bella, she's back?
I don't know what I feel right now; excitement, hope, fear, overwhelming guilt, and self-loathing. I've completely checked out of the conversation with Axel, and he knows it.
When I first heard some stuck up bitch was refusing to work with my club I was angry and ready to head over there and show her what she's missing. Now that I know who she is I'm not surprised that she wants nothing to do with the club, my club. If the roles where reversed I'd feel the same way but that fact does little to numb the sting that she clearly still hates me even after all of this time.
I'm brought back to my senses as Quinn starts trying to clean up the mess and Axel drags me to sit in my office chair intent on getting answers.
He's going to be disgusted with me when he knows the truth.
Axel was only eighteen when I met Bella. He'd just enrolled in the military and wasn't around for most of the year we were together, so he doesn't know much about what happened, only that I had a woman but fucked it all up. I haven't wanted to talk about it and he never asked but here we are.
"What the fuck is going on Pop? How do you know that woman? Better yet, why does she hate the club? Quinn has her heart set on working for this bitch I need to know!"
Slamming my hand on the desk I seethe at my boy. "Don't fucking call her that!"
His shocked eyes widen further as he waits for my explanation. Sighing deeply I drop my head into my hands and start to share my shame.
"She was mine. Seven years ago, she was my Bella, the woman I told you about. If you knew the truth of how I treated her, what I did and said you wouldn't blame her for wanting to stay away."
"Jesus fucking christ Pop what did you do?"
I can't look at either of them but they deserve to know the truth now that my past is fucking with Quinn's future.
....
Seven years ago.
I can feel the rage brewing inside of me as I stare at the pictures in front of me. I don't want to believe it but how can I not? It's Bella, clear as day and the man with his arms wrapped tightly around her sure as shit isn't me.
How the fuck could she do this to me?
I fucking love her and she's cheating on me? The fucking bitch!
"You shouldn't let her embarrass you like this Hammer, give her a taste of her own medicine! I'll help you to put her in her place, you don't deserve this and you can do so much better than a cheating whore. Let me help you please."
Mandy is one of our club whores and the one who brought me the proof of Bella's betrayal. I know she's always wanted a shot at being my old lady and she hasn't been shy of rubbing it in Bella's face that she had me first. I know Bella hates her and was always concerned I could be swayed by her but I promised her that she was the only one I wanted. Well fuck that! I'll show her exactly what I think of her now, she's nothing more than a lying cheating slut.
I'm seething all day as I wait for the evening to come. Is she with him? Is she fucking him? Telling him she loves him too? Why didn't I see the truth?
The bottle of whiskey that I'm working through does little to help numb the rage brewing within me, I just want to get this over with.
I sent a message to Bella asking her to come to the club tonight after her shift finished saying that I wanted to take her out on a date. Really I just want to confront the bitch but if she knows I'm on to her she won't come. She replied saying that she couldn't wait and that she had a surprise for me, you and me both.
I've spread the word so the boys all know what she's done and while a few are skeptical, the majority are on board with my plan and looking forward to telling the bitch exactly what they think of her.
Ten minutes before she's due to arrive, I command Mandy to drop to her knees and suck my dick, we're going to put on one hell of a show, so I need to be ready. For a fleeting second, I feel guilt and want to stop, but then I remember that she did this to us.
She ruined us.
Feeling myself getting harder I hear the unmistakable sound of her car pulling up and get the nod from my man at the door that she's here. I pull the whore up by her hair and bend her over the bar in full view of the front door waiting until she walks in with a big beautiful smile on her gorgeous face. She's dressed in a little black dress and looks absolutely amazing, I take in the sight of her, drinking her in until the realisation of what's happening starts to dawn on her face, then I thrust myself into Mandy.
I start fucking her hard keeping my eyes locked on Bella who's face is white and eyes wide.
How do you like that bitch?
"W..what the fuck is this?? What the fuck?!" She all but screams at me as I keep fucking the moaning whore in front of me.
"You should know what this is you fucking slut! You've been fucking another man behind my back so I thought you'd be familiar with the concept."
Laughter rings out around the bar with hollars of whore and tramp, my brothers letting her know exactly what they think of her.
She turns to leave and two of my brothers block the way making sure she stays to witness what's happening. Mandy screams out her pleasure as I slam into her one last time flooding her pussy with my cum.
"I've never cheated on you! Are you fucking kidding me? What are you talking about? Why are you doing this Braxton?" Tears stream down her face as she fights through sobs to get her words out.
"KEEP MY FUCKING NAME OUT OF YOUR MOUTH!! I've seen the pictures..."
My words trail off as the doors open to reveal the fucker from the photos, she brought him here? Rage boils hot in my blood as I push Mandy away and stalk towards him, I'll fucking kill them both!
"What the fuck is going on here?" The asshole shouts looking around the room.
His eyes land on Bella sobbing and his face contorts in to one of rage, feeling protective of his fuck toy I guess.
My heart is fucking broken and she brought this prick here, to what? Rub my face in it? I want to hurt her as much as she's hurt me and I know just how to do it.
Levelling her with a glare I say the words I know will break her.
"Your foster father was right, you really are a desperate whore. I bet you fucking begged him for it, spread your legs whenever he asked and loved every fucking second before crying wolf! You DISGUST me, I can't believe I ever touched you, you fucking slut!"
She grabs a bottle of beer that rests on the bar beside her and launches it at my head, narrowly missing me. Then all hell breaks loose. Mandy runs at Bella tackling her violently into the bar as my men move to restrain her. I'm about to take care of her fuck boy until his frantic words register in my ears.
"GET THE FUCK OFF MY SISTER!"
Sister?
Impossible! I know that Bella does have a brother and he lives overseas. I've never met him before but we've spoken on the phone a couple of times when he called her. He said that he hoped to visit soon but...
No.
FUCK, PLEASE, NO!
I can feel the shock reverberating around the room as my brothers realise the same thing that I have.
God, what have I done?
I rush towards Bella only to be tackled by the man I now know is her brother. He lands a hell of a punch to my jaw and is about to throw another before Bella's screams draw his attention and her words steal my breath.
"MATTEO! The baby, I'm bleeding! Something is wrong with the baby! Help me, please!"
Baby?
"...Baby?" I breathe the word unable to believe it.
Bella's eyes meet mine and they are full of fear, hatred and pain. Her beautiful features are pulled into a venomous sneer, as she spits out the last words I heard her say.
"I fucking hate you! I came here tonight excited for you to meet my brother and to tell you about the baby, OUR BABY and you fucking do this to me? If I lose my baby I will never forgive you. Stay the fuck away from me you evil cunt!"
Her brother picks her up and runs from the room hushing her cries and trying to sooth her fears. I'm frozen to the spot my brain still swimming in drink unable to believe what I've done, how could I get this so wrong.
She didn't cheat on me.
She's pregnant with my child but now may lose the baby, because of me.
What the fuck have I done?
I finally snap out of my stupor, grabbing the keys for my truck and tossing them to my Enforcer Snake I let him drive us as we rush to the nearest hospital. Bella may hate me but I have to know that she's OK, that they're OK.
We arrive at the hospital in record time but all we can do is sit helplessly in the waiting room until there is news. Hours pass by before I finally see him, Bella's brother. Matthew? Matty?
Matteo.
He looks devastated but roars in anger when he sees me. Rushing toward me he looks like he wants to finish my beating from earlier, and I'm more than willing to take it.
A red headed woman wearing hospital scrubs appears out of nowhere running to him and halting his approach. Words pass between them before he starts to sob in her arms and allows her to lead him away.
I know right then without having to ask that the baby is gone. Our baby is gone, and it's all my fucking fault.
I sit in the waiting room for hours consumed by guilt and grief trying like hell to get an update on Bella's condition but no one will tell me anything other than she refuses to see me, and I don't blame her.
The next day I wake to security telling me that she is no longer a patient and that I need to leave. I rush to her apartment desperate to see her, but she isn't there.
Days pass as I search every possible place I can think of but I can't find her, she's disappeared. Gadget my tech guy does a search of the Web to see if we can trace her movements via credit card, desperate I know, but I need to find her to try and make this right.
We finally get a hit on her brother's credit card but my hope dies when I see he used it to buy three tickets to England on a flight that left this morning.
I trash the club meeting room in a fit of rage and cry for all that I've lost but I have no one to blame but myself, for the vile things I said and fucking that whore.
Why did I believe Mandy when she showed me those pictures? When I saw that they were hugging and looked familiar I was filled with jealousy.
After all that Bella has been through growing up, she couldn't stand being held by anyone but me. It took along time for her to be able to build that faith in me and let me in. She would shy away from physical contact with everyone else, but not me, because she loved and trusted me. That made me feel like a fucking king.
When I saw her holding someone else my first thought was that she'd lied to me. The second was that she must be fucking him too. There wasn't a third more rational thought but I fucking wish that there had been.
If I had just asked Bella, this wouldn't have happened. Now that the jealousy has cleared I need answers and I know where to start.
Mandy.
The biggest mistake of my life.
I storm out of the office determined to find the bitch. Why did she have pictures of my woman in the first place? Why was she following her?
As I'm about to round the corner I hear her bragging to the other club whores in hushed tones.
"...worked like a charm! I told you I would get rid of her, she didn't have what it takes to be Hammer's woman anyway. Plus it was so easy to get him to fuck me, he clearly didn't love her. All it took was one picture of her hugging some guy and he was fair game. The best part, he was so drunk and angry that he didn't even use a condom! Fingers crossed I'm pregnant, that will be my ticket to finally being his old lady and how fucking hilarious would it be? She loses his baby and I'm pregnant! It's too good. You can't make this shit up!"
I grab her by the hair and drag her to the main room where I tell every brother about the conversation that I overheard. I then have her locked in her room while we meet to discuss her punishment. Whilst I want to kill the bitch, that isn’t something that we do here so it has to be a club decision. All of us could be implicated if we are ever caught.
There is no way she's pregnant yet. If the men don't approve killing her we can at least act quickly and get some plan B into her system so I can make sure that she never carries my child before we kick her ass out. That's one thing that I can save Bella from, she will never have to know that pain.
I get the go ahead from my men and relish the thought of ending her life.
She did all of this on purpose, she knew Bella didn't cheat on me but I was still fucking stupid enough to believe her lies.
Finding Mandy's room empty with the windows smashed spiral in another fit of rage, trashing every last one of her belongings. We end up on a manhunt for her that lasts months but eventually the trail runs cold and we have no choice but to let her go.
We would never hear from her again.
It's time to work on getting my woman back.
....
Present day.
If only I knew how wrong I was.
Almost a year after I lost Bella a baby girl was left on the club doorstep with a note saying that she was mine to do with as I pleased.
Lily.
DNA tests confirmed she was in fact mine and in that moment I knew any hope I had of winning back the love of my life was gone.
As much as I wanted her back I couldn't turn my back on my child and Bella would never forgive me for this, how could she?
I'd knew then that I'd truly lost her forever.
