Hardest Moments

Have you ever felt like you were dying and still continue to die every day.? Well That's what happened to me before I was saved from a life of torture,anger,and pain. Someone came who was in pain just as much as I was and showed me a world I never knew. And everyday I die to my old self and become someone new which is why I titled this Chapter Killed By a Black Knight.

Note to readers: It may sound depressing but in no way am I suicidal. I am using figurative language to describe my emotions.

I love you like a vampire loves blood.Your eyes are so black like a swirling ocean of darkness It's calm and quiet like death.It terrifies me yet exhilarates me. I'm breathless The darkness embraces me like a warm blanket. I don't run from it I wholeheartedly embrace it. It makes me feel peace. A type of freedom I never knew." Why did you save me? And "Why do I feel free? I asked . I am not supposed to feel this way. I am supposed to suffer. How dare you save me!!I am no longer vulnerable.At least when I was hurting nobody could take advantage of me. Nobody could fool me. Now I am lost.You have forced me to fully trust you to depend on you. You saved me my Black Knight, and I don't mind drowning in your darkness as long as it means I will never lose you. My love for you pains me so much it burns.My desire for your darkness has become a fire that cannot be extinguished. I burn for you my love.I desire your soul. Your heart is mine. Noone else is allowed to taste what is mine. My anger and vengeance is a thirst that cannot be quenched by anyone. I will destroy anyone and anything that burns your light. Only my Knight has the power to burn me alive and it excites the daylight out of me. My life source comes from you without it I am dead. Is it worth risking my sanity on this Knight "Hell Yeah it is"! I am only alive through pain. I don't mind touching and cutting myself on the thorns of this black rose if it means I will be wanted. If I had to choose between natural death caused by natural pain and dying by the hands of my Black Knight I would choose my Black Knight. Nothing can be better than being killed over and over again by this Black Knight. Drain me of all life I am not afraid of you. I welcome your darkness with open arms. Kill me slowly make me drown in the ocean of you. I need to drown. Your darkness is my drug I am addicted to it.