Angst
Let me be real
Let me be raw
Leave me be
To just be
I don’t feel like doing anything
I just don’t
I feel lost on a course only I am charting
I’ve been here for so long
Can’t track the way back
No power to light the path
The world’getting bigger
I am getting smaller
The world’s a spin
I am stuck
I’m at a rake in the road
Not a fork
Each path with its thick forests
Its share of thorns, even on the roses
Let’s hope
Let’s love
Have faith
They say
These never ending stories of virtue and valour
Prestigiously taken on by those gone before us
Were the skies bluer then?
Did the sun shine brighter?
Was there more grace?
Did life have higher purpose?
To what end?
Colors in the day
Black by night
On and on we go
Wake to sleep
Sleep to wake
Smiles. Sad. Happy. Frown.
Tears. Laugh. Dance. Pain.
Going through the motions and emotions
Pulling on the strings of our hearts like
There is an orchestra we cannot fathom
So What
So When
So Where
So Why
I’m empty
I’m full
Full of emptiness
Full of grief
Full of expectation
Full of nothing
How do I make sense of it all
What is the best of me?
What is the worst of me?
Years behind, years ahead
Finding a smidgen
of some silver lining
Of some respite
To keep being
To keep moving
To keep loving
Because that’s all I have come to know
And has proven to be as real as I am
As real as these thoughts
As real as this heart
As determined as this breath
So help me God
