A Silver Lining

Angst

Let me be real

Let me be raw

Leave me be

To just be

I don’t feel like doing anything

I just don’t

I feel lost on a course only I am charting

I’ve been here for so long

Can’t track the way back

No power to light the path

The world’getting bigger

I am getting smaller

The world’s a spin

I am stuck

I’m at a rake in the road

Not a fork

Each path with its thick forests

Its share of thorns, even on the roses

Let’s hope

Let’s love

Have faith

They say

These never ending stories of virtue and valour

Prestigiously taken on by those gone before us

Were the skies bluer then?

Did the sun shine brighter?

Was there more grace?

Did life have higher purpose?

To what end?

Colors in the day

Black by night

On and on we go

Wake to sleep

Sleep to wake

Smiles. Sad. Happy. Frown.

Tears. Laugh. Dance. Pain.

Going through the motions and emotions

Pulling on the strings of our hearts like

There is an orchestra we cannot fathom

So What

So When

So Where

So Why

I’m empty

I’m full

Full of emptiness

Full of grief

Full of expectation

Full of nothing

How do I make sense of it all

What is the best of me?

What is the worst of me?

Years behind, years ahead

Finding a smidgen

of some silver lining

Of some respite

To keep being

To keep moving

To keep loving

Because that’s all I have come to know

And has proven to be as real as I am