B(i)ye in July
On a good day, on one of my highs
I don't procrastinate, got good hold of the time
I do all the things I should've done last July
I'll start a big project off the top of my mind
I get a glimpse of hope
And it gets torn down
It can happen in a spliz
Or take a week to simmer
Waves of tunnel vision
And bouts of self doubt
Folding all my laundry
Vs leaving it all out
Forgot to brush my teeth, gotta take shower
Self hygiene should be top of the hour
13 past projects, they can wait till July
I shouldn't wait till July, but I wait till July
On a bad day, on one of my lows
I procrastinate, feel like a drone
Turn off the lights when I go to the bathroom
Turn all the mirrors around
I get a glimpse of hope
And it gets torn down
It can happen in a snap
Or take months to just wait out
I hyper fixate on people
It keeps me focused
I get unhealthily obsessed
Then lose interest when I'm with them
Forgot to drink some water for about 6 weeks
Keep eating late at night, impulsively
I look around my room, and in a click
I feel motivated to clean my tv
I got glimpses of hope
And it got torn down
It can happen in a flip
You can only wait it out
I clean my whole room, get to the laundry
Get to the wardrobe, I'm procrastinating
I fall back behind, and I think in my mind
"I knew this would happen, the cycle persists"
I'll do my laundry tomorrow, it can wait till July
I'll fall back behind again, remain in the cycle.
But it can't wait till July.
It'll wait till July.
