Sinful Delusion... or not?

" Thank you, Sir. This will be 150.000 Baht. Do you want to pay cash or via credit card?" Without thinking I answered credit card.

Because if I would think further about this I would eventually retreat or run away. Quickly paying with my black no-limit credit card, I sighed internally to myself.

Great, Saint...

You couldn't have chosen a more criticized thing to do...

But truth to be told I was just so damn lonely. So tired of getting used just because I was wealthy. So exhausted from getting cheated on just because I was more of the introverted side. I was so done with relationships by now but I wasn't the type for one-night stands either. Flirting with someone wasn't something I could do for dear life since I was that bad at socializing. Until now all kinds of relationships I had, either friends or lovers, were initiated by the other part and I just went with it to please everyone.

I was a chronic pleaser and I freaking knew this was wrong in so many ways. So I had finally decided it was enough. After almost a year of no skinship with another human being or any kind of affection I was so done for. After the really ugly discovery of my boyfriend fucking my alleged best buddy in our apartment a year ago, I pledged to myself to never open my heart to anybody ever again. I was uncomfortable with touches and skinship ever since because I was so deeply hurt and traumatized by the event itself.

My former small insecurities about my body turned into a serious mess after that and made me believe it was my own fault it went this way as I wasn't the most desirable person from the very start. My stupid delusional mind was reminding me over and over again of this fact and at some point I was so convinced of it, I blamed myself to be the ugly reason for my boyfriend to find someone more appealing than me. My therapist was a great help at this time but not even he could make me want to get closer to people until I felt comfortable in my own skin again on my own accord and pace.

Especially since I by now had internalized it wasn't my fault at all but these bastards were horrible human beings and just playing with me from the very beginning. Today I felt like being my old self again and that I was finally ready to start a new chapter of my life. For that I needed someone patient and experienced to help with my trust issues and get me slowly back to the right way of intimacy. Which got me to the place I was currently in. An exclusive brothel a bit out of town my friend had recommended. This was the very first time I would ever have paid for sex and I didn't know what to think about it.

Should I feel low for being here and exchanging money for a fuck or was this the right choice since the employees were experienced and wouldn't judge me?

Whatever it would be, I shoved it far out of my head for the time being as I was already led into a luxurious room to sit on a cozy chair. The woman from the reception asked me to choose one of the available guys in the thick portfolio in front of me for the package I had just bought and then placed water and even cookies on the table in front of me. Exhaling deeply to calm my racing heartbeat down, I reached out for the leather folder with slightly shaking hands.

I would really pick out and order one of those guys for the night. Like a freaking happy meal or something like that. The absurdity going on was real. The cover of the folder flipped open and I could see the first professional shot picture of a handsome man in boxers and a detailed description of his various skills. Something like his size, technique and things he was especially talented in. And though he was gifted and seemed like a good catch, he wasn't my style. Flipping over to the next page, I once again saw a pretty picture and some words but had to skip again.

The first third of the folder was filled with Tops, the second with Bottoms, the last third was versatile. It didn't matter that I was versatile as well and usually was able to do both. Normally I preferred being a solid Top actually. But for tonight I needed a Power Bottom or versatile who would and could top from the bottom and guide me confidently to find my pleasure again. At the same time I couldn't help but get bright red ears from the variety of fetishes this house offered. There was a bit of everything accumulated in the descriptions of the employees in question.

From golden showers to rough bondage roleplays, someone with such kinds of kinks was absolutely in the right place and would find it here without a doubt. I was just at the first three versatile men when I paused in my actions. The next page was definitely it and I didn't need to search further as there couldn't be any better than him. Number 4 was absolutely breathtaking in appearance and aura just from the picture alone. I didn't even need to read the description, he was perfect for the task I had in mind. And so freaking handsome it was curling my toes. Sharp jawline, manly defined features and a body to die for.

The description said 8 inches and his special talent was giving mindblowing rimjobs. I was all in for it right on the spot. I didn't need to know more about this sexy man, I just needed to see him straight away and find it out myself firsthand. Suddenly my body was more excited than my mind was concerned. My skin flamed up and I was sweating in pure desire already. The raw ecstasy about what was going to follow was taking over and had me almost panting in visible need. To cover up my uncalled-for excitement in front of other people I drank some water to wet my parched throat.

Then I waited for someone to come back and guide me further from here as I didn't know what to do this moment. Thankfully the well-dressed woman came back a moment later and asked politely if she could offer me a cup of coffee. As if I wasn't about to choose a prostitute for the night but waited for my car to get fixed. I declined and stated reluctantly that I had made my decision. She smiled while taking the folder and asked if I had chosen number 4. I nodded and she said cheerfully.

" Very good choice, Sir. I will inform Ae about your wish. Please wait a moment, it won't take long and I will bring you to the assigned room." With newly awakened esprit she strutted away on her murder high heels and left me alone with my nervousness.

You're really doing this, Saint...

You just bought sex with a stranger for a night...

There's no turning back now, you need to pull through no matter what...

I was so riled up I had to dry my palms repeatedly on my pants because they were getting sweaty. Five minutes later she came back and said.

" Please follow me, Sir." Standing up I arranged my clothes to look more presentable and hesitantly tailed her down a large hallway with multiple doors on each side. In the middle of the long path she stopped and motioned to the door to her right side with the number 4 engraved in a golden placate at the front.

" Please let us know if you want anything not provided in the room. Food, supplies and gadgets are included in the price. Thank you for your visit and enjoy your stay." With this she knocked three times and opened the door to hold it open for me.

Taking a careful step in I could hear her shutting the door behind me. It sounded like the final gnash of a prison cell gutter and echoed overloud in my kind of empty mind. Taking a few deep breaths I then slowly took one step after another until I was fully inside. The spacious modern expensive room had everything needed like I could see myself when my eyes roamed around the interior. A big bathtub with whirlpool function in one corner, fluffy carpets and pillows just everywhere, a king-sized bed with black golden satin sheets.

What made me all the more nervous were multiple embarrassed reflections of myself in the large mirrors attached to every single wall. And after lifting my head up I could even see a huge mirror covering the entire ceiling up as well. Just when I wanted to look for the guy of the portfolio the satin sheets on the bed slowly moved. The motion in the corner of my eye pulled my entire attention to the humongous bed immediately.

Apparently the shiny satin sheets matched an elegant satin bathrobe that clothed up a literal god. He was casually leaning his back onto the headboard with spread arms and looking like a whole course buffet. I froze where I was and could only stare at this personification of oozing testosterone and defined muscles. Then a husky murmur floated through the dim room directly into my ear and pulled a deep shiver out of me.

" You can come closer, I don't bite." After swallowing the saliva down that had gathered in my mouth while eyefucking him I croaked out.

" Sorry, I've never done something like that." A low hum answered me.

" Thought so. You don't have the look." He summoned me to come to him with a crooked index finger and I moved forward in snail speed while scrunching my eyebrows confused. He threw me a blinding smile and explained.

" All guys who exactly know what they want have this specific 'hungry for sex' look in their eyes. You don't have that. You want something else, am I right?" I nodded while inching towards the bed on weak legs.

" So... What... Do we... Just... Go at it?" He moved flawlessly slow so he was sitting upright and patted a spot on the bed right next to him for me to take place right there.

" Whatever you want to do, you can do. You paid for the entire night. I'm just here for you and you only to fulfill every single one of your wishes and desires." Once I dared to sit down next to him, my body started shaking again.

Maybe it hadn't been such a good idea to come here. Suddenly I didn't felt comfortable to be in the presence of a half-naked man. Who seem to sense my anxiety right away and immediately murmured soothing words to me.

" It's ok, calm down. There no need to be nervous. You're not in danger or will be forced to do anything you don't want. We can just sit here and talk, we don't even need to touch at all if you don't like it. I'm here to make you feel good, nothing more nothing less." I tried to reduce my stress level since this wasn't the point to have gotten here in the first place.

This visit was supposed to be for release of stress and calming my nerves down, not the exact opposite. I needed guidance since I didn't know what to do or where to go myself this moment. And if I wanted this to end in the way I wanted and needed I had to be honest and voice my concerns out.

" So... What... Can I... Do now?" To my surprise he instantly seem to notice my helplessness and said in a calm deep voice.

" Maybe you want to take a hot bath first? You will feel refreshed and relaxed afterwards and can think in peace about the next steps meanwhile." It sounded like a good idea, but I wasn't sure if I was ready to take a bath with someone I didn't know one bit. Seeing my torn face he chuckled softly.

" Without me, don't feel obligated to anything. I can just lay here and do nothing until you have decided what you're feeling comfortable with. I will mind my own business until you tell me otherwise. Just know that you can ask anything from me whenever. I can give you a massage, scrub your back, play some music or just speak with you for entertainment. It's totally up to you. Whatever makes you feel good. I can be everything for you tonight. A lover, an emotional support and good listener, an obedient Sub or a controlling Dom. Just be yourself and feel free this one night." He couldn't have said any better words to make me feel at ease.

Slowly, really slowly I felt the tension in my body leave bit for bit. Until I had finally mastered up the courage to make a request on my own.

" Then I would like... some music while bathing." He blinded me once more with a pearly white smile and nodded his understanding.

It was a bit odd to fill up a bathtub that wasn't my own, but it looked so fancy and made so many nice bubbles I got over it quite fast. While checking the temperature I heard his deep voice from behind in some distance.

" Any music wishes? I have almost everything for every taste here." I shook my head and looked over my shoulder to see him raking through a shelf with dozens of CDs.

" Anything slow will be more than fine." After a few clicks I heard soothing jazz music echoing through the entire room.

" There are also bath bombs, scented oils, sponges or peelings if you like those by the way." I didn't, just normal bubble soap was totally enough for me.

" Do you want something to drink? Champagne, Scotch, Vodka, I can mix you a cocktail if you like." He was just making small talk and though I knew he only tried to make me relax with this, it had the opposite effect.

I was getting nervous again being bombarded with so many questions at once. Harsher than intended I then blurted out.

" Could you please stop talking for a minute? I'm trying to think over here." Then there was only music playing as a background noise.

The bathtub was filled by then anyway and without thinking that another person was with me in the room and would see me naked I undressed quickly and sat down in hot bubbly heaven. A deep satisfied sigh escaped me when I sank down to my chin and let the heat warm up my body entirely. Some minutes passed this way and I came back to my senses remembering the other guy. It was certainly not my usual behavior to be that rude so I said to the bubbles in front of me.

" I apologize, I shouldn't have leashed out on you like that. A glass of champagne would be nice." I could hear glass chiming and rustling of clothes when he moved back to the little bar in the other corner of the room to follow my wish.

A moment later a flute with pearly liquid appeared next to my head and I took it with a small thanks. After the first sip I already felt a little better and less tensed. Spreading my limbs out as good as possible I relished in the steamy water paradise until I couldn't stand the silence anymore. He was mute like I had told him to and it bothered me after a while more than it should.

" You can speak again, silence makes me even more nervous than talking. Sorry for shutting you down so coldly." I once more heard him moving when he got comfortable on the bed again. Then he chimed in with this husky baritone seriously sounding like liquid sex in my ears.

" It's alright, I will survive it. What's your name by the way?" I knew his was Ae though I doubted it was his real name.

For a moment I contemplated to give him a fake one too but then quickly went against this thought. If this night would go the way I originally had planned he would be screaming my name in the best case soon and I didn't want to be called a fake name then. It would be uncomfortable beyond belief for me.

" I'm Saint." He hummed again and it oddly sounded like content purring.

Somehow it was sexy and sweet at the same time and it got me hooked immediately. He was hypnotizing in a way I didn't even know was possible at all.

" May I give you a compliment, Saint? Or wouldn't that be appreciated right now?" With that sensual voice of his most likely everything he would say would sound nice so I nodded my agreement.

" You have such a nice booty, your body is beautiful." So he was indeed peeking when I had undressed earlier.

It should have made me feel vulnerable or caused some discomfort at least, but it strangely didn't. Instead I felt only flattered by the praise and it had my heart take a sudden extra hard beat. Flustered I replied with a soft 'thank you.' I assumed him smiling behind my back since I didn't turn around to look at him but heard it in his voice instead.

" I'm on the bed if you should need something." With this he wanted to take his former place, but I beat him to it with a raised palm.

Holding a fluffy sponge up I just then dared to look over my shoulder and raise a questioning eyebrow to the handsome man.

" Can you scrub my back?" He immediately nodded with a bright grin and came behind me.

I would usually flip my shit if someone was seeing me naked or would touch my bare skin but the moves of his strong fingers running the sponge over my soapy back were so gentle, I was in literal heaven a split second later. Almost automatically I tilted my head from left to right to give him better access to my neck and shoulders with little noises of pure enjoyment.

" So well build... Your skin is glowing like alabaster..." It had my heart racing rapidly again immediately.

This time from something unknown and powerful. Something that was taking my body under possession and made me want to feel more of him this very moment. Made me want to find out what incredible things this man could do to and with me. So I breathed out more hoarsely than intended.

" Would you give me a massage maybe? My shoulders feel so stiff." He did right away.

Soft warm fingers stroke over the wet skin of my shoulders and pushed down into the sore muscles with expert strength. I couldn't hold back a loud moan feeling this intense sensuality. For a couple of minutes only music and my weird noises of joy were filling up the room and it started getting kind of embarrassing to listen to it any longer. To cover my nervousness up I tried to make some casual small talk again.

" Hey Ae? Sorry in advance if I'm prying and making you uncomfortable with my questions. You don't need to answer if you don't want to. But why are you working here?" A soft warm laugh fanned over my wet nape and made me squirm under his hands.

" I wished I could tell you some tragic lifestory that could polish up my image and make me look like a strong and noble person. Something about a young man getting off of the right track of life and trying to earn money to make his dreams come true and who got into this wicked situation out of pure desperation. But unfortunately it's not such an epic story at all. The brutal truth and blunt reality is that I really like sex, I'm more than good at it and I chose working here on my own accord as a win win situation. Are you disappointed at me now for not giving a good excuse?" Maybe a tiny bit, but his gentle hands roaming over my body and giving me such a good feeling made more than up for it.

" Absolutely not. It's just as good of an answer than any other. I was only curious. So you work here because of the thrill?" I heard him humming lowly in my back and it again pulled a deep shiver out of me.

Damn, this man was seduction personified. Even simple things he was doing had a deep erotic tone regardless of what it was. He was even breathing in the most arousing way I had ever experienced.

" I'm one of the rare individuals who does this for the fun and not for the money. I like it to make people happy. With everything it takes to achieve that. So tell me, are you feeling comfortable now?" I nodded while leaning my head back with closed eyes and relaxing fully in the water.

He took thorough care of cleaning me and kneading my stiff muscles until I was almost melting under his magical hands. When I opened my eyes again I could see this gorgeous face hovering just a few inches above mine. Those plump rosy lips looked hella tempting this very moment and my arm suddenly moved on autopilot without my minds influence.

Wrapping my fingers around his nape I carefully pulled his head down to close the last distance between our mouths. He immediately reacted and leaned more into me to meet me halfway. When our lips touched it felt like a firework went off inside my head in a blasting explosion. He tasted wonderful and was moving beautifully against my hungry lips. Yet he was still gentle and soft to not to scare me off accidentially.

I could have kissed him for eternity like this, it felt so good and exciting my entire body heated up immediately. But the water was slowly getting cold and I decided to step out of the bathtub to continue this without threatening to freeze to death. My fingers let go of him and we parted again slowly to get some air into our lungs.

" I... would like to get out..." He nodded blinking almost dreamily and took a step back to get me a towel.

I stood up and took it to dry myself off. Not even caring anymore that he was checking me out from head to toe meanwhile, I completed this task and saw him holding up another satin bathrobe similar to his for me to clothed in. Only this one wasn't black and gold, but black and red.

And felt like velvet sin on my prickling sensitive skin. With a few moves the bathtub was drained and I had my abandoned glass of champagne back in my hand. Chucking it down like a shot I emptied the content and gave it back to him. He leisurely stroled to the bar to get rid off it and asked calmly.

" Want something to eat or another glass?" I didn't had a high tolerance for alcohol so I declined the offer.

I didn't want to get drunk off my ass since this was too important for me. And food would agitate my already flipping stomach even more right now so I would be better off without for the time being. Shaking my head I tried to be brave and take the lead like I had planned. Slowly crawling over the devine sheets I got comfortable in the middle of the huge bed while telling myself over and over again to keep calm.

Failed miserably doing so and it was more than obvious for the other man. He didn't dare to come closer to not to rile me up even more but kept safe distance. Inhaling and exhaling deeply for a few times, I closed my eyes to not to have to see my pathetic reflection in the ceilings mirror.

" Are you alright, Sweetheart?" As sexy as this endearment rolling off his tongue sounded, it pushed a wrong button inside me right away. So I kind of gravely retorted.

" No pet names! Call me by my real name, please." My ex boyfriend used to do that all the time and I hated it from the deepest depths of my guts.

He refused to stop doing this whenever I asked him to because it made me feel degraded beyond imagination to be called darling, sweetheart or honey. This repeated violation of my boundaries was one of the reasons I had such heavy trust issues now. Because he did this on purpose only to make me feel like shit like I found out much later. Knowing very well it would destroy my self-esteem completely he pushed it further and further until I was only a shell of my former self without realizing.

But I was also stupid enough to think that this was his way of showing affection and swallowed it silently for years. Yeah, 'love' wasn't making people blind, it was making them go mental. This relationship ended in horrible terms and I was sensitive to this kind of attention ever since. It was one of many other things I couldn't stand anymore. Ae nodded and slowly made his way to the bed to sit at the end of it carefully.

" Duely noted. If there's something I shouldn't do or say you need to tell me immediately or else I might accidentially trigger a panic attack. Are we one the same page with this?" Not only an alleged experienced lover, he also seem like a damn good therapist this moment. I said yes and then again kept silent while still taking deep breaths.

" Is there something I can do for you for support? Would a hug help you to calm down?" Maybe it really would as I felt cold and empty inside.

So I nodded and waved him weakly over to me. As if to tame a scared feral animal, he carefully came closer until he was standing beside the bed and could sit down right next to me. Opening his arms he whispered a soft 'come here, Saint' and I immediately burried myself in his embrace. It was a strong and comforting hug like I hadn't had it in years. Warm, cozy, reassuring.

Fuck, did I needed that...

Inhaling his fresh and delicious scent I felt him tightening his hold and enveloping my body completely with his strong arms. It gave my a form of security and affection I honestly didn't experience ever before. It was as if I fit perfectly into his chest and embrace. He was whispering 'you're safe' and 'you can cry if you want' over and over again but surprisingly I didn't break out in ugly tears though I badly wanted to. It were simple things like this one big hug that showed me how much I had lost through the years of being with the wrong person.

How much I had missed out by becoming a blind marionette. And it hurt. It hurt so much I had the feeling my poor heart would soon combust in my chest in pure agony. Aes soothing low voice kept me from flipping out entirely, the circles his big hands were drawing on my back calmed me down to no end. I didn't know something simple like cuddles could make me feel like a normal human being again.

" This feels nice. Thank you, Ae." I felt his breathy laugh vibrating against my entire upper body.

" Anytime, Baby. We can spend the whole night like this if you want. Oh shit... I'm sorry for the slip, Saint. I didn't want that." But I heard it with every cell of my body.

It went like a precise bullet straight south and made me flinch hard. Because it sounded so fucking hot in my ears. Nobody had ever called me Baby ever before and the effect was mindblowing. My heart skipped a beat and I felt my dick twitching in interest.

Please don't let him notice, I would die immediately in utter shame...

" Someone likes to get called Baby like it seems, I see..." Of course his attentive eyes had seen it.

" I'm sorry, but how could you-?" His soft husky chuckle interupted me and shook my body slightly at the same time.

" Don't apologize, it actually makes me happy. Your breathing rate suddenly speeded up and I could feel your heartbeat getting out of controle for a moment." How impressive, he should seriously reconsider his job choice and become a Detective.

His sharp eye for details was incredible. Just like his scent. Fresh and pleasant, I could get lost in this wonderful cloud. It somehow smelled like safety and home. If those had an actual scent I would have pecked this one to be it. Since this position got uncomfortable after some time, he gently pulled me backwards to lay onto the pillows while stroking my hair tenderly. For at least an hour he whispered sweet little nothings and cooed soft praises into my ear.

All that while still holding me tight against his lean warm body. It did unimaginable things to me, in a way it slowly mended my broken heart. But it also made me aroused. Aroused like I hadn't felt in years. Sex had become a routine and unpleasant experience for me as my asshole ex boyfriend was the only one getting something out of it. He treated me like an object for his own release and didn't care one bit about my needs. It got so disappointing that I honestly started to feel like throwing up whenever he wanted to do it.

Seriously how could someone be that ignorant towards his partner?

Jacking myself off had also become routine as he couldn't or purposely wouldn't ring my bell but it wasn't the same kind of pleasure as if you were sleeping with someone. Damn, I was a fucked up mess for real. I felt my eyes getting wet thinking about all the opportunities that had slipped my hands because of this one wrong guy I had trusted. I could have had my master degree by now if I hadn't listened to him and stayed home to care for him.

Instead I had taken a job right after school to finance our both lifes as this lazy piece of shit didn't want to work. Since I came from a wealthy background it wasn't that much of a stretch, but my parents didn’t agree with my choice to drop out of college and cut down my allowance. It was only since I broke up with this man that we reconciled and they gave me money to finance my life. But in all of this stupidity I was the only one to blame. It was my own fault to have dragged this out for so long and to not have seen the malicious manipulation he was performing on me all day and night.

In the end it might have been the best thing ever that could have happened to me to catch this asshole cheating on me. This way I had the perfect excuse to end this loveless relationship right there and then. Something I wouldn't have done on my own accord before because I never was bold enough for it. It was time to leave everything behind and let the past be past. He would never be part of my life ever again and had no power over me anymore.

I was my own person and would shine brighter than the moon without him. This strong thought gave me another confidence boost and I finally felt content enough to ignite the flame of life inside me once more. It had been dimmed down almost entirely by fear and pain, but now was the right time to fire it up again. Slowly inching away from the warm embrace enveloping my whole body I dared to whisper my wish to the gentle smile in front of me.

" May I try something? Without you moving meanwhile?" A kind understanding nod followed and he answered in the same husky voice.

" Do whatever you want and need. I will keep my hands away until you tell me otherwise." I also nodded to him and carefully placed my palm on the part of the bathrobe that was covering his chest.

All so slowly I let my fingers glide up and down the silky fabric for a while until I gathered enough courage to shove it to the side and reveal his bare torso. In complete fascination I traced over his hot velvet skin with my fingertips for some time while engraving the sinful feeling it gave me. My hands danced from left to right repeatedly without a pause for what felt like ages before they stopped right above his nipples. That immediately got erected as soon as I caressed them featherlightly with my thumbs. A small moan escaped his throat as an honest reaction to my touch and it did something to me.

It made me feel powerful. Strong enough to intensify my endeavor and let my palms roam all over his upper body to pull more of those sexy noises out of him. He didn't disappoint. When I gently pinched those cute brownish nubs in front of me I could hear one of the most arousing low growls human vocal chords could ever be able to create. His head fell a little back when he closed his eyes to enjoy my naughty actions to the fullest and it had me growing hot in return. So pure unfiltered replies, he seriously seem to like what I was doing.

And suddenly I was more curious than anything what kind of reactions I could get out of him with different approaches. Ae was like a beautiful wrapped up present to me this moment and I was like a little kid on Christmas eve that was about to unpack him. And with each layer I would pull off I would find something new and exciting underneath to enjoy. Like he promised he just kept standing still while I took all the sweet time I needed and wanted to explore his beautiful body. Apart from those damn erotic deep moans that left his mouth occasionally, he just gave himself entirely to me and my desires without interfering.

Not that it had been much until now but the trust and freedom he so naturally and casually gave to me was reassuring to no ends. The power I held over him this way almost made me high, it was addictive like the strongest drug for someone as introvert as me. Pretty soon I was so elated by the steadily building up lust inside me I decided to replace my fingertips with my lips. My eager mouth left a lingering path of butterfly kisses across his bulging chest muscles until it reached his stiff left nipple again.

Where I paused to tease the sexy nub with my lips for a bit longer. The moment a husky ahhh spilled from the other mans lips I knew I had found something utterly delightful to do next. I opened my mouth and enveloped the sensitive brown pebble entirely with my lips. Ae slightly arched his back with another moan to get closer to my mouth and I almost happily obeyed. I even flicked it carefully with my tongue first to then suck it deeply into my hot cavern.

This was definitely the right thing to do according to the deep throaty growl coming out of his mouth just a second later. So I continued playing this soft piece of flesh with my tongue until it was slightly swollen.Just then I changed to the other waiting nipple in need and teased it with the same kind of sweet torture. Aes low deep mewls was such a freaking turn on for me, my skin moistened with a thin sheet of sweat in return from the scorching hot lust broiling inside me after seeing him replying to my actions so passionately. My voice was hoarse when I murmured breathlessly.

" Take your clothes off." The bathrobe immediately slided from his shoulders onto the soft mattress when he moved to follow my order.

With one smooth motion of his hands his black Calvin Kleins flew beside the bed out of sight and I was presented a gift from heaven. Long, thick and straight, the most beautiful and biggest cock I had ever seen twitched under my most likely hungry gaze. I didn't even notice when exactly he got hard, but as a matter of erotic fact it was as erected as it could ever be and aiming at my face right this moment. Gosh, he looked so breathtaking completely nude at my whim.

My mouth started watering upon the delicious sight of this masterpiece with protruding vein and I was this close to swallow him whole when I was suddenly held back. Colorful flashbacks rushed past my inner eye and had me frozen on the spot. How this asshole had forced me to suck his dick despite my strong gagreflex. How he had brainwashed me to believe it was my only purpose in life to pleasure him. I had been so damn stupid and weak to believe him every single word and let him do each damn despicable action over and over again.

I did it on autopilot although it caused me to gag violently when he deepthroated me against my will. My brain was so fucked up to make me think this treatment was to show me his love. Looking back I certainly could call myself the dumbest person on this planet. If you really loved someone you wouldn't treat him like shit and make him feel disgusted with himself. Good thing I knew that know although it was too late. A soft touch on my cheek pulled me back to the present and I flinched hard upon the sudden motion. Ae was caressing my face delicately with a slightly concerned expression.

" You alright? Do you want to stop? I can see it's unpleasant for you." I was unsure what to do this moment as I couldn't tell myself what I wanted.

But thankfully the experienced naked man in front of me knew what the best thing would be. He preped himself on his elbows and looked down to me with a gentle smile while murmuring.

" Mabye it would be more comfortable for now if I would take over and make you feel good for a while? Would you like that?" Very much even. I would love to find out how it felt like. Nobody had ever cared for my pleasure before, so I was more than curious about it.

Especially not this demon of the past...

Seeing me nodding slowly Ae threw me another kind smile and asked me to lay back beside him again. When I did he let his fingers trace over the skin of my face featherlightly for a minute before placing a tender kiss right on my lips and deepening it a bit. This one soft lovely kiss was able to center me and make me calm again. I literally melted into the pillows and let him take the lead for the next steps. Another wave of butterfly kisses floated over my cheeks and neck all so carefully and had me relax in his arms even more after just a minute.

The trace of gentle kisses went further down to my exposed chest and forced a breathy moan out of my open mouth. But the most attractive thing was that he watched every single one of my reactions to his tender touch and acted according to it. Once he made sure I was consent and comfortable he moved again after pausing. This was what I so desperately wanted and needed. What I had searched for in the past years without finding it. Someone who would have his eyes solely on me and just continue if the touch meant pleasure and nothing else. No fear, no pain, nothing but primal desire and lust.

Which he managed to pull out of my body almost effortlessly. His hot lips were now plastering my stomach with thousand little pecks just to see me slowly losing my breath from the good feeling. The last layer fell to the side and my front was fully exposed to his dark soulful eyes. That wasted no time to look up and down my entire body with an intense burning gaze for an embarrassing amount of time without saying anything. Just when I wanted to cover myself up again in some sort of shame he held my hand back with a gentle yet firm hold.

" You're beautiful from head to toe. I've never been more honored to worship such a godlike body.'' And there I was melting into a puddle of goo because of embarrassment this time instead of lust.

The almost reverent tone he used this very minute was curling mentioned toes painfully. And I so wanted to believe him. He said it so determined as if he really meant it. I should find out pretty soon that he indeed confidently did exactly that. Those plump lips trailed downwards again after saying those embarrassing things and continued peppering light kisses all over my thighs next. I couldn't help it, a high pitched mewl escaped my throat in return upon the unknown feeling. Nobody ever did something this endearing to such a sensitive place on my body.

Not even once. It had my loins burning up like a bonfire and my swollen dick jumping in excitement. Yet those wicked pillows didn't land where it was needed the most but prolonged the sweet torture to the maximum. Holy hell, he knew how to stimulate those weak spots to the fullest. I didn't even know my body could feel such intense things or respond so strong. It was a miracle, he was like a skilled magician who pulled one slick trick after another out of his sleeve to make me completely pliant. And all that without losing eye contact for even one second.

" A little more? You're still comfortable?" His hot breath fanned over my moist skin and gave me goosebumps all over.

Seeing me nodding a bit too fast in excitement had him laughing huskily in return. Then all so carefully he bend my left leg to the side for better access. Still without stopping his endeavor on my sensitive spots. After a minute he gently did the same with my right leg and I was laying in front of him like an open buffet. Yet it didn't cause me any discomfort like it always had done but left me wanting more. What a gorgeous human being and lover... But once this talented mouth landed on my balls and caressed them to oblivion with his lips I stopped thinking at all.

Goodness gracious, I was in literal heaven...

A soft moan spilled from my abused lips and urged him to continue without a single word. The view alone was so lewd I had to divert my eyes because I couldn't stand it any moment longer. Big mistake. When I saw the unfiltered reflection in the mirror of the ceiling I had to hold back myself from cumming right there and then. It looked so fucking sexy how this muscular body was laying between my spread legs, I was going mad insane upon the erotic sight.

Closing my eyes wasn't a good idea either as it made me feel the pleasure hundred times more intense immediately. God fucking damn it... The first swipe of a wet tongue on my private parts was almost my undoing. A loud scream ripped out of my throat as an embarrassing reaction and my eyes flew wide open in shock. No... I had never... Those dark eyes caught my surprised gaze instantly when I looked down to him again but he just replied casually.

" Such an honest response, how beautiful... You ok with that?" Slowly losing my mind I couldn't tell that myself, but my body seem to like it as answered automatically with a needy nod.

The tongue was back and drawing sensual slow circles over my loins and balls until I was releasing a continuous chain of aroused moans. Ae then shifted a little to let his palms glide upwards over the pale skin of my thighs a few times before placing multiple kisses on the base of my pulsating cock.