Chapter 1. Ashes in Autumn
The Islands Academy looked more like a haunted mansion than a school.
Ivy strangled its towers. Grey stone walls loomed against a sky that couldn’t decide whether to rain or suffocate. Mara Calloway stepped off the shuttle with a duffel bag over one shoulder and nothing in her chest but static.
Around her, students laughed and hugged and dragged luggage toward the stairs — like they’d never bled, never broken, never been rewritten by pain.
She envied them.
No parents. No welcoming arms. No camera waiting to capture her first day back.
Just her and the echo of something she refused to name.
Her hair was tied back so tightly it ached. Her uniform was too clean. Her pulse was steady, too steady. Like her body knew how to brace now—automatically.
Someone whistled low behind her.
“Well, well. If it isn’t the girl with the golden reputation and a spine made of ice.”
Mara didn’t turn around. She didn’t need to.
“Still desperate for attention, Ashbourne?” she replied, her voice flat.
Leo Ashbourne stepped up beside her with the ease of someone used to being watched. Leather jacket. Black boots. A guitar case slung over one shoulder like a weapon. His smile was razor-thin.
He looked the same. And somehow not.
His eyes. That was the difference. They used to burn. Now they just… observed. Like he was behind a wall of smoke, watching life unfold from a distance even he couldn’t measure.
“You cut your hair,” she said without looking at him.
“You stopped smiling,” he replied, just as casually.
She turned to glance at him—only for a second. A mistake. His eyes locked onto hers like they were searching for something. Not softness. Not an apology. Just a trace of the girl she used to be.
“Didn’t think you’d come back,” he said.
“Yeah,” Mara replied, shifting her bag. “That makes two of us.”
He didn’t follow when she walked away. She didn’t give him the chance.
She walked like thunder might walk, if it knew how to hold its breath. He called her Ice Queen for years now, but now she was more like a cracked glass.
Leo watched her go, pulse thrumming in his jaw. He hadn’t meant to speak. Had told himself all summer—hell, all year—not to care. Not to poke old bruises. But seeing Mara Calloway in the flesh again… It was like the ghosts decided to wear skin just to mess with him.
They have never spoken much. If any at all. They were just passing shadows in the corridors of the buildings. He didn’t think she even cared enough to know his major.
But he watched her. He has seen the fire behind her eyes at the beginning of the first year. It was what drew him to her in the first place. He has seen the full of energy, beautiful girl that could heal the world with one smile. But what really caught his attention was her voice. Because when she sang, the world stopped to listen. It was nothing like he has ever heard before. Every note was raw, it meant something.
He spent the last year wondering what had happened that made her lose that flame. What turned her into the girl that was afraid of what she previously owned. A broken glass.
She hadn’t changed much, not on the outside. Same jawline that could cut diamonds. Same braid so tight it looked like it hurt to wear. But her eyes were hollower now. Quieter. Like someone had turned the lights off behind them.
And still—she’d thrown his words right back at him like they meant nothing. Maybe they didn’t.
He readjusted his guitar strap. It was going to be a long year.
It was an arts school, but the arts weren’t what made it brutal. It was the money. The hierarchy. The secrets.
Mara dragged her bag into the administrative hall. The dorm building had changed. The entire top floor had been converted into senior suite-style pods — six students to a flat, co-ed now, part of some “progressive initiative” the school board was excited about.
Mara wasn’t. She didn’t get excited anymore.
She dropped her acceptance packet on the check-in desk. She ignored the stares. She knew what they saw — the Golden Girl, the prodigy, the front page for the most recognised artists of last year. They didn’t see the fractured silence in her chest, the way she didn’t smile anymore unless forced. They all thought she was living the dream last year. She disappeared to follow her goals, to become the star. All lies.
She received the documents and books from the receptionist. The housing list read:
Senior Pod B
Blaise Castellan
Leo Ashbourne
Theo Vance
Cass Virelli
Ginny Rowan
Mara Calloway
She read it twice.
A laugh, dry and exasperated, sounded behind her.
“Guess we’re roommates,” Ginny said.
Mara blinked. “You knew?”
“I suspected,” Ginny shrugged. “My mom wanted me to room with Ryan, but…” She glanced at Mara’s face. “I told them no.”
Mara said nothing.
Ginny added, softly, “He doesn’t talk about you anymore. But I haven’t stopped thinking about it.”
“Don’t,” Mara said quickly, flatly. “Don’t pity me.”
“I don’t,” Ginny said. “I hate him too.”
Their pod was at the far end of the top floor, right beneath the old bell tower.
When they stepped inside, Mara’s first thought was cold. Exposed pipes. White walls. One massive living space with five bedrooms attached like limbs. Concrete floors softened only by the occasional rug, like the designer gave up halfway through.
Mara claimed the bedroom furthest from the shared bath, closest to the window in the common room.
She unpacked in silence. It was mechanical now. Like a soldier:
Clothes folded like military inventory - check
Books stacked alphabetically - check
Medication tucked beneath a false bottom in her drawer - check
Sketchpad under her pillow, spine cracked from years of nightmares - check
She hadn’t cried when she was told she’d be returning.She hadn’t cried when Ryan sent his last letter.She didn’t cry now, even when the silence started to hum in her ears. She would not give him that. Not after he took everything else from her.
The door slammed open an hour later.
Cass Virelli entered like a fashion week villain: perfect black eyeliner, combat boots, lips curled in amusement. Cass Virelli was the bassist for The Serpents. She was the badass version of a mean girl at the academy. Her sarcasm was her weapon and she was feared by pretty much all her pears.
She looked at Mara. At Ginny. And smiled like she smelled something unpleasant.
“Well,” she said, voice like silk over glass, “I guess every pod needs a project.”
Mara glanced up. “Cass.”
Cass smirked. “Still pretending silence makes you superior?”
“Still pretending cruelty makes you interesting?”
Cass’s smile didn’t falter. “Cute.”
Theo Mercer followed close behind. Silent. Hair half in his eyes. Guitar case on his back. He gave no greeting, just dropped his stuff in the closest room and disappeared inside it. Theo has always been the quiet one of the Serpents. He was Leo’s best friend and the lyricist & guitarist of the band. He was watchful though, when he looked at you it felt like he can see all your secrets. But as much as he could decipher someone else’s deepest thought through behaviours, he himself was hiding something.
Then Blaise Moreau breezed in like the smoke from a slow-burning cigarette. Tall. Beautiful. Dark-skinned. Dressed like a magazine ad for ‘dangerous but charming.’ Blaise was the flirty one of the group, never committed, always with a different girl on his arm. The drummer of the Serpents. He could make almost every girls blush and his pick-up lines were basically his whole vocabulary.
He took one look around and raised a brow. His grin came slow, amused — like he’d just walked into a drama he couldn’t wait to stir.
“Oh, this is going to be dramatic. I’m already aroused.”
Ginny threw a pillow at his head.
“Behave.”
“No promises.”
Mara didn’t reply. The air thickened.
Then in came Leo. His hair was nearly white, shorter than she remembered. He moved with a confident stride — like he owned the room, the school, the world. He was the lead singer. His aura was dangerous. He wore a leather jacket, combat boots and white t-shirt tucked into black jeans. His tattoos were peaking through the collar and sleeves of his jacket. He seemed to get even more of those in the last year.
“You’ve got to be kidding,” he said.
“You said that already,” Mara muttered without looking up.
He ignored her. “Whose idea was it to shove me into a pod with the golden girl and the Ice Queen?”
Ginny raised a brow. “Aw. Still mad I wouldn’t let you hit on me at that Halloween show?”
Leo snorted. “Please. I have standards.”
He said nothing more. He dropped his bag with a graceless thump and collapsed into the couch opposite Mara’s. For a moment, they locked eyes — hers empty, his unreadable. Neither looked away, caught in some unspoken contest neither acknowledged. For a second, Mara thought she saw worry flicker behind his gaze. But she dismissed it.
Cass flopped onto the couch. “This is already exhausting. Blaise, mix us drinks.”
“It’s 2 p.m.,” Ginny said.
Blaise shrugged. “Exactly. I’m late.”
They all settled into a barely tolerable silence.Cass blasted music from her speaker. Theo closed his door. Leo pulled out his guitar and started tuning like he wanted someone to pick a fight about the noise.
Ginny leaned closer to Mara. “We need to survive this semester.”
“I plan to,” Mara said. “They don’t have to.”
Theo knew this year would be hard.
Everyone said senior year was supposed to be about pressure—finals, showcases, college reps breathing down your neck, making art that would outlive your time here.
He had prepared for all that. Had braced for the work.
But this—this wasn’t academic. This wasn’t something he could study his way through or silence with another late-night song draft. No checklist. No clean lines.
The real war lived under his ribs.
Not the kind he could talk about.
He’d always known he was different. Had names for it now, sharper ones, braver ones. He’d looked at the words, tried them on in the mirror, let them settle beneath his skin.
And still, some part of him recoiled every time.
Because the truth wasn’t about labels. It wasn’t about gender or attraction or anything that could be printed on a form.
It was about fear. Deep, marrow-level fear.
Not of being hated.
Of being seen.
His family—gods, his family. Everything about them was tradition laced with performance. Appearances mattered. Legacy mattered. He could already hear the conversation in their dining room:
“It’s just a phase.”
“Don’t say that in front of your grandfather.”
“Do you have to make this so difficult for us?”
Even his teachers—progressive on paper, proud of their diverse classrooms—would hesitate. Would flinch. Would mark him “other” in a way they’d never unsee.
And his friends… well. They meant well and he loved them. But meaning well didn’t mean they’d stay. At least that is what his mind kept telling him. And repeated enough times, you start to believe even the thinnest lies.
But Cass knew.
She hadn’t said it aloud. Didn’t need to.
She looked at him one night after rehearsal - after he’d slipped up and corrected himself mid-sentence, voice sharp and unfamiliar - and she hadn’t blinked.
Just said “You good?” like she wasn’t really asking.
He hadn’t answered.
She hadn’t pushed.
Since then, she kept showing up. Late-night texts. Half a protein bar at lunch. Her shoulder, quiet and steady beside him on days when the walls felt too loud. She didn’t treat him differently. That was the part that mattered most.
But even knowing Cass had his back, it didn’t stop the spiral when it came.
And it was coming now.
Because the world could dress itself in rainbow flags all it wanted—some people would always smell vulnerability like blood.
And in their eyes, it would be weakness.
It was stupid, maybe, to think that after everything—after years of knowing he was different, of trying to name the pieces of himself that didn’t quite fit—this would be the thing that finally cracked him.
But it was cracking him.
He could feel it again. That slow, terrible spiral that came in without knocking.
First, his breath betrayed him—lungs tightening like a fist had curled around his ribs.
Then his heart—racing fast and wild, chasing a predator he couldn’t see.
And then—always—came the dark.
It didn’t fall all at once. It leaked in. Edged in around the corners of his vision. Soft at first, then sudden. Like a curtain being pulled across a stage mid-song.
And Theo—
Theo disappeared with it.
Not outwardly. Not visibly. To everyone else, he just got quieter. Still.
But inside, the noise was deafening.
He clutched the edges of the desk. Focused on the texture of the wood. On the faint hum of Cass’s music bleeding through the wall. On the one chord he’d written last night that hadn’t sounded like someone else’s pain.
Breathe.
He told himself he was okay. That he would be okay.
Even if he wasn’t sure that it would be anymore.
That night, Mara found a letter tucked into her sketchbook.
The handwriting was familiar. Neat. Desperate.
Mara,
You just left. I thought we meant more than that.You’re not meant to be there — not with him. Not with her. Not without me.You were my girl. We can still fix this.I forgive you. Please come back.
– Ryan
She folded the letter once, without reading it again. No tears. No shaking hands.
She placed it on her desk like a dead fly.
Ginny walked in, holding two mugs. She saw the letter almost straight away. Didn’t ask. Just flicked her lighter.
The paper curled and burned. Smoke and ash.
Mara watched until it was gone.
Mara lay awake that night.
Above her: the ceiling.To her right: Leo’s soft guitar strumming.To her left: Cass’s hum of electric synth.Down the hall: Theo’s creaking floorboards. Blaise’s laughter. Ginny’s steady breathing.
Five strangers.
Two friends.Four enemies.And a girl still rebuilding herself from the wreckage.
She didn’t belong here. But for the first time in months, she didn’t feel like she belonged anywhere else either.