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Before I Knew

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Summary

At thirty-two, Daniel Bennett has built the kind of life people admire: a successful career, a picture-perfect marriage, and a reputation for always doing the right thing. But when his wife asks for a divorce, Daniel finds himself sitting alone at a bar in New York City, unmoored and quietly unraveling. For the first time, he's forced to confront a truth he's buried for years - he's been living a life that was never really his. Then he meets Thomas. At twenty-four, Thomas Reid is everything Daniel is not - young, free-spirited, and unapologetically himself. The charming Australian businessman is in town on a corporate deal, but it's Daniel who captures his attention. Intrigued by the older man's quiet sadness and drawn to something he can't quite name,Thomas leans in. And Daniel, against every instinct he's spent a lifetime honoring, doesn't pull away. What begins as a chance encounter becomes something neither of them expected - a connection that feels dangerous and tender, thrilling and terrifying. As Daniel questions everything he thought he knew about himself, and Thomas wrestles with wanting something real for the first time in years, both men must decide how much they are willing to risk for the possibility of something honest...and something lasting.

Genre
Lgbtq,Romance
Author
Marty
Status
Complete
Chapters
160
Rating
4.9 (14 reviews)
Age Rating
18+

Chapter 1: The Quiet Before

The glass was sweating beneath Daniel's fingertips, the rim untouched for several long minutes. Ice clinked faintly as it melted into the amber scotch, but he barely noticed. He sat at the far end of the dim bar, away from the noise and hum of conversation. The city's rain-speckled neon lights blinked faintly through the tall windows, casting fractured color over polished wood and old brass fixtures. His gray suit still clung to him from the earlier downpour, but he hadn't bothered to take off the jacket. He hadn't bothered to do much of anything.

He exhaled through his nose, slow and quiet. That had become his way lately-silent sighs, invisible griefs, internal battles no one could see.

The divorce papers weren't even filed yet, but her voice still rang in his head: "Daniel, I can't do this anymore. We're not happy. We haven't been."

He hadn't argued. What would have been the point?

He had built his life carefully, deliberately-business degree, corporate ladder, house in Westchester, elegant wife, fine cutlery. All the things he'd been taught to want. All the things that looked good from the outside.

But at thirty-two, sitting in a bar alone, Daniel realized he was a stranger to his own life. And for the first time, the loss didn't feel like a failure. It felt like... an opening.

The ice clinked again as he finally lifted the glass and took a slow sip. It burned just enough.

Then, through the low hum of bar chatter and the smooth pulse of old jazz playing from the speakers, a sudden burst of laughter shattered the quiet around him.

It was loud, unfiltered, and deeply amused.

Daniel glanced sideways, mildly irritated-until he saw the source.

A tall, golden-haired man stood by the bar a few stools down, leaning slightly toward a gray-haired older woman who looked like she'd just made the joke of the century. The young man was grinning, full and bright, his head tossed back with laughter.

Australian accent. Thick. Rich with vowels and sunshine.

"Fair dinkum, you actually said that?" he said, still laughing. "Bloody hell, that's brilliant!"

The woman giggled, clearly charmed. Others around them turned, smiling. The bartender poured his drink with a grin.

Daniel watched, curious despite himself. The man was striking-blonde waves falling loosely over his forehead, tan skin, a body built like someone who surfed before breakfast but still wore a tailored navy blazer like it belonged to him. His shirt was open at the collar, sleeves rolled just enough to show a leather-strapped watch and forearms that weren't trying to impress, but did anyway.

Confidence, Daniel thought. Not arrogance-just an ease in his own skin. It radiated from him like heat.

He turned back to his drink, trying not to stare. But he kept hearing that voice. The warmth in it. The lack of guarded edges.

Daniel envied him immediately.

He wasn't sure what caught him more-the laughter or the way the man seemed completely present. Like he didn't care who watched. Like joy didn't need permission.

A foreign way to be.

Daniel had spent most of his life keeping things neat, acceptable, expected. He'd made every right choice. Dated women. Married the right one. Built the life. Played the part.

But now?

Now, he was sitting in a dark bar at the edge of a quiet undoing, and there was a blonde Australian man lighting up the room just a few stools away.

His name would be something bold, Daniel thought idly. Something strong. He didn't know why he cared.

When he looked back, the man was still talking, but his eyes-golden brown, open and glinting-caught his for just a second.

Daniel froze.

The stranger smiled.

Not a flirtatious smile. Not quite. More like: I see you there, watching. I don't mind.

Daniel quickly dropped his gaze to his glass, heart knocking once inside his ribs.

Jesus, get a grip.

He ran a hand through his dark hair and tried to ignore the prickle under his skin. It had been years-maybe a lifetime-since he'd even allowed a thought like that. And here it was. Unbidden. Quietly electric.

He wasn't the type to get flustered. Not anymore.

The Australian's voice floated back over: "You know, you've got a proper face for trouble, you do."

Daniel wasn't sure who he was talking to, but the flirt was there now-just below the words.

He turned again, unable not to, and this time the man's eyes met his directly. Smiling. Curious. Assessing.

And then, with the easy grace of someone who did what he wanted without hesitation, the man excused himself from the small group around him and walked toward Daniel.

Daniel's throat dried.

Oh. Shit.

The closer he came, the taller he seemed. Even the way he walked was self-assured-shoulders loose, jacket open, hands casually sliding into the pockets of his tailored trousers like this was just another ordinary evening and Daniel wasn't suddenly caught off guard in the very middle of his own private unraveling.

He stopped beside the stool next to Daniel's.

"Mind if I join you?" the man asked, accent thick, smile easy. "Bar chatter's gotten a bit dull over there. Thought you looked like someone who could do with a proper distraction."

Daniel stared at him, momentarily caught between fight, flight, and forget-how-to-speak.

But the man didn't push. He just stood there, waiting. No pressure. Just a soft, simmering curiosity in his golden gaze.

Daniel cleared his throat, finally. "I'm not very good company tonight."

"That so?" The man's smile widened slightly. "Well, lucky for you, I'm not easily discouraged."

And just like that, before Daniel could say another word, the stranger pulled out the stool and sat down beside him.

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author

Opening feels vivid, Daniel’s quiet despair against the Aussie’s effortless spark makes a striking contrast. Did you plan his entrance from the start, or did he just appear naturally in the draft? Also, do you usually create covers with AI, or work with an artist for custom designs?

a year
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author

Great start 🪝
Daniel seems like he’s been just going through life doing what he thinks he’s supposed to do instead of doing what makes him happy 🥺

a year
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