Misplaced Endearment
Respectfully, I declined your love
Hesitantly, I connected to the tugs
They pulled on my heart
Confused me and brought me shame
Now, nothing can be the same
Like a hurricane, these schemes stirred up my life
These tricks and traps brought my heart one inch away from a knife
But I caught it
I fought back
Because I thought that I might be stupid or feel stupid in the end
There is no way I could defend myself against the wealth of love sent my way
No way I could run or hide from his eyes of lies
His love rays shot my heart sending waves to my brain
Making it more difficult to maintain the structure and disciplines I have held dearly
Nearly, to my surprise,
I almost compromised my integrity
Inevitably, I reacted as nature would have it
In ignorance of my own personal trauma
Bringing my own spells of drama
To surround a lifestyle that's been clean for years
Untainted, and purple shade painted in graceful and modest attire
And it almost made me a liar
Not in words, not on paper
But in behavior
For I almost missed all the signs through what almost felt like the inability to resist and listen to my mind
I almost didn't hear my mind
Irresistibly, losing track of time
In what confusingly pulled me in disbelief
For I've never known anyone so kind
Thankfully, I am not blind
For though I cannot rewind time
And no excuses can I find
I know here is where I needed to draw the line
As I am not dumb
And though no party has won
I am happy that I am sane and that I saved the human I love most from a ton
Of despair and a ton of pain