Wax and Wane – Julie
I’ve had Wax and Wane by the Cocteau Twins on repeat all day.
God, I love that song. It’s not exactly cheerful — but then again, neither am I.
At some point I just sat there, realizing how it just takes over everything. Then it hit me — how lucky I was that Julie couldn’t make it today.
She’d hate this track. Not because it’s bad. She just wouldn’t get it.
Don’t get me wrong — there’s nothing wrong with Julie. We’ve only been dating a month, and she’s… nice.
Yeah. Nice. Looks good, listens — or at least pretends to. But her taste in music? Not even close to mine.
The other day I played Dreams by Fleetwood Mac. Absolute classic. She didn’t even notice. Not a blink. Like the song wasn’t even in the room.
That’s when I knew.
Node had warned me, of course. Node always knows.
He said I’d start dating her.
He also said it wouldn’t last.
And he was right — again.
Julie dumped me this morning.
She said, “Look, Ethan… I love you, but I can’t feel you. Not really. You’re somewhere else all the time.”
And she’s right. I probably am.
Node’s a strange guy — my best friend. Hell, my only friend.
Drinks way too much Coke, wears shirts in radioactive colors, and hasn’t seen daylight since the last system update.
Sometimes I think he wasn’t born — he was exported from the delivery room.
Still, he’s solid. He’s always there when I crash.
Anyway, yeah. Julie’s gone. And somehow, Wax and Wane feels a lot better than she ever did.
I don’t even remember how I ended up in that café. The place looked a bit worn down, but I liked it.
Ordered a coffee. Stared at the tablet built into the table.
Node once told me, never log into public devices.
I didn’t listen.
Thank God I didn’t.
That’s how I met Ellie.
