So Close...and still so Far

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Summary

He never thought he'd fall in love again. Evan Sinclair's heart isn't ordinary-it's fragile, rare... and dangerous. First love betrayal. Childhood heartbreak. He swore never to trust again... until Damien Cross, the brilliant CEO, walked into his life. What begins as a secret office affair becomes a passion neither of them expected. But one night, heartbreak strikes harder than ever, and Evan collapses into a coma-like sleep. Only Damien's love can wake him. A modern M/M romance about heartbreak, longing, and fighting for the love that won't wait.

Genre
Lgbtq
Author
Mico
Status
Ongoing
Chapters
2
Rating
n/a
Age Rating
18+

One – A place to Start


The city rose with the dawn, skyscrapers catching the early light like mirrors tilted toward the sun.

Neon signs faded into soft blues and golds, steam lifted from sidewalk grates, and the hum of traffic thickened as morning settled in.

Lumen City moved with a heartbeat all its own-restless, bright, impossible to outrun.

It was the kind of place where dreams got lost, found, broken, and rebuilt before lunchtime.

A sleek black Lyft slowed to the curb in front of an older brick apartment building tucked between a bakery and a nail salon.

The driver glanced back.

"Here you go..." He said.

"Welcome to Lumen City."

The door opened, and Evan Sinclair stepped out.

The air hit him first, cool, sharp, alive with street noise.

Car horns, distant chatter, a skateboard rattling over concrete, someone laughing across the block.

Evan lifted his gaze slowly, taking in the towering buildings above him, their windows reflecting the last blush of sunrise.

He tightened his grip on the handle of his suitcase.

This was it. His first real step into a new life.

Evan wasn't tall, but not short either-somewhere in the middle, with soft, expressive features and eyes that held quiet caution even when he tried to hide it.

The morning light brushed gold across his cheekbones and caught in the strands of his dark brown hair. He looked like someone trying to blend into a world far bigger than he was prepared for.

He exhaled, slow, steady.

A new city.

A new job.

A new beginning.

The apartment building in front of him stood three stories taller than the neighboring shops, its old brick darkened with age.

A metal fire escape zig-zagged down the facade, and a narrow front door with a buzzing keypad waited beneath the awning.

Not glamorous, but honestly, in a strange way, promising.

The Lyft driver gave a small wave before pulling away, leaving Evan on the sidewalk with nothing but his suitcase and a heart thumping with wary hope.

"Okay..." He murmured to himself.

"Here we go."

He hauled his luggage up the steps and pressed the buzzer the landlord had told him to use.

A soft click answered, unlocking the door.

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Inside, the lobby smelled faintly of coffee and old pine flooring. A single plant in the corner sagged like it was ready to give up on life, but the soft warmth of the space made Evan's shoulders relax a little.

Tenth floor. Apartment 10B.

His new home.

○♡○♡○♡○

Evan dragged his suitcase into the elevator, the metal doors groaning shut behind him.

The ride to the tenth floor was slow, the kind where every passing number blinked like it had to think about showing up.

He didn't mind. The quiet hum gave him a chance to breathe, to steady himself after the sensory shock of Lumen City.

When the doors finally opened, a long hallway stretched before him-soft beige walls, dark carpeting, doors spaced evenly like the building was trying very hard to be orderly despite its age.

He found 10-B at the far end.

The brass numbers on the door were slightly crooked, and a faint scratch crossed the middle as if someone once tried (and failed) to move furniture through it.

Evan swallowed, fingers brushing the key the landlord had mailed him.

This is home now.

The thought was fragile but comforting.

He slipped the key into the lock, turned it, and pushed the door open.

Warm light spilled across a cozy living space. A gray couch sat beneath the window, soft morning sun glowing behind it.

Art prints, mostly abstract shapes and swirling colors, decorated the walls. A pair of sneakers was kicked off by the coffee table.

A faint smell of cologne and coffee lingered in the air.

And someone was on the couch.

A tall, lean man sat slouched back with a sketchbook balanced on his knee, earbuds in, pencil dancing across the page.

Dark brown hair fell slightly messy over his forehead, and a soft five o'clock shadow framed his sharp jaw.

Tattoos curled along his forearms-clean lines, geometric shapes, flowing designs-and two small silver hoops glinted in his left ear.

His left eyebrow had a thin, intentional-looking shaved line that only made him look more effortlessly cool.

He didn't notice Evan at first.

Then he did.

The man paused his music, looked up, and blinked once, twice-eyes warm, hazel, alert.

"Oh-hey..." He said, voice smooth, still thick with morning.

"You must be Evan."

Evan froze with his suitcase half in the doorway.

"Uh-yes. Sorry, I didn't mean to intrude, I-this is-10B?" The man grinned-easy, lopsided, instantly disarming.

"Yep. 10-B. Where the magic happens."

He closed the sketchbook with a soft tap.

"Come in, come in. I'm Noah."

Evan stepped inside, nudging the door closed.

"Nice to meet you."

"You too," Noah replied, standing up.

He was definitely a little taller, definitely athletic, definitely someone who looked like he rolled out of bed looking good on accident.

He held out his hand.

"Welcome to Lumen City, roommate."

Evan shook it, surprised by how warm Noah's grip was.

Noah's gaze softened a little.

"First time in the city?"

Evan nodded.

"Yeah.

"I could tell by the way you were holding your suitcase that it might run away," Noah said with a smile that felt oddly reassuring.

Evan let out a breathy laugh-a real one.

And something inside him loosened.

"C'mon..." Noah said, stepping aside.

"Let me show you your room before the city overwhelms you again. Trust me, it happens to all of us."

Evan followed, feeling, for the first time since he'd arrived, that maybe he wouldn't have to face this new life alone.

Noah led Evan down a short hallway, passing a bathroom with a flickering light and a linen closet overflowing with towels that definitely didn't match.

He stopped in front of a door painted a soft gray.

"This one's yours," Noah said, nudging it open with his foot.

"We cleaned it up yesterday... Well, I cleaned. My last roommate tried but he doesn't know the meaning of the word dust."

Evan stepped inside.

The room was small, but bright sunlight spilled through a wide window, warming the wooden floor.

A simple bed, a desk, and shelves lined neatly against the wall.

It wasn't much, but it felt... safe.

"It's perfect," Evan breathed.

"Perfect is a stretch..." Noah laughed.

"But it's yours. That's what matters."

Evan set his suitcase beside the bed.

Noah leaned against the doorframe, arms crossed, tattoos flexing lightly with the motion.

"You look like you've been carrying your whole life on your shoulders for a while..." Noah said casually.

"The city's gonna feel big at first. But it gets better. Especially when you've got someone to show you around."

Evan glanced at him, surprised by the warmth in his tone.

"Thank you. Really."

"Hey, roommates stick together," Noah said with a shrug, then pointed a finger.

"Rule one: you can always borrow my coffee. Rule two: don't judge how many hoodies I own. Rule three: if you ever want to talk about anything, I'm here."

Evan felt something small but real loosen inside his chest.

"Got it."

"Good," Noah pushed off the doorway.

"I'll let you settle in. When you're done, I'm taking you out for breakfast. There's a bakery downstairs that'll ruin your life in the best way."

Evan smiled.

"Sounds perfect."

When Noah left, Evan opened his suitcase. Clothes, toiletries, a framed photo, notebooks-he unpacked slowly, folding each piece with care.

The city hummed faintly through the window, a steady backdrop of life and movement he wasn't used to yet.

He stepped to the window, resting a hand on the frame.

Lumen City stretched outward in shimmering layers of glass and streets-towering buildings, people rushing along the sidewalks, a distant elevated train sliding between structures like a silver thread.

For the first time, the reality settled in him.

He'd really done it.

He'd really started over.

His phone buzzed.

Evan blinked and grabbed it-an unknown number... no, not unknown.

The area code matched the company he'd applied to.

His heart jumped.

"Hello? This is Evan," he answered quietly.

A bright, professional voice chimed through the speaker.

"Good morning, Evan! This is Maya Hart from CrossTech's HR Department. I'm calling with good news."

Evan sat on the edge of the bed.

"Good news...?"

"You passed the initial phone interview. Congratulations! The hiring manager was impressed. We want to schedule your second, in-person interview."

Evan's breath stalled for half a second, then rushed out all at once.

"Really? Yes-yes, of course."

"Wonderful..." Maya replied.

"Is tomorrow morning at ten okay?"

"Yes," Evan said, his voice steadier than he felt.

"That works."

"Perfect. Bring your ID, résumé, and portfolio samples. I'll email you the details shortly."

They exchanged goodbyes, and Evan lowered the phone into his lap.

Tomorrow. It was happening.

He leaned back on his palms, staring at the sunlight-dusted floor.

He wasn't officially hired yet...But for the first time, he felt like he was stepping into something real.

Something possible.

A soft knock sounded on his door.

"Are you alive in there?" Noah called.

Evan stood, opening the door.

"Yeah—sorry. Just had a call."

Noah raised a brow.

"Good news?"

"Hopefully. I have my second interview tomorrow."

Noah's face lit up.

"Hell yes! See? The city's already treating you right."

Evan laughed softly.

"Maybe."

"No, maybe."

Noah slung an arm lightly around his shoulders, guiding him toward the front door.

"C'mon, Sinclair. Let's feed you. You look like one small breeze could knock you over."

Evan flushed.

"I don't—"

"Shh..." Noah said, opening the door.

"Let the city's best pastries do their job."

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The bakery downstairs was small and cozy, warm light spilling over rows of pastries dusted with powdered sugar and filled with fruit.

Evan ordered a croissant—Noah ordered three.

They sat by the window, watching Lumen City wake fully-people rushing by, holding coffee cups, dogs tugging owners down the sidewalk, electric bikes zipping through traffic.

"This place is incredible," Evan murmured between bites.

"Told you," Noah said, mouth full.

"The city can be a mess, but if you know the right spots? It's magic."

Evan watched the world outside, feeling the first real thread of belonging tug gently at him.

"You're settling in better than you think," Noah added, sipping his latte.

"Really?"

"Yeah." Noah leaned back.

"You've got that look."

"What look?" Evan asked.

"The 'I'm scared but trying' look. It's a good one. Means you're brave, even if you don't feel like it."

Evan stared at his croissant, embarrassed at how much the words warmed him.

"Thanks." He said quietly.

"Anytime." Noah replied.

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The sun dipped lower over Lumen City as Evan and Noah stepped out of the bakery café, each carrying a small paper bag-their treats boxed inside.

The evening breeze swept through the street, carrying hints of cinnamon, roasted chestnuts, and the distant sound of a saxophone from somewhere on the corner.

"Okay." Noah said, popping a bite-sized tart into his mouth as they walked.

"You officially survived your first bakery line. That alone means you're ready for anything."

Evan laughed softly.

"It felt like a test."

"It was a test. Lumen City doesn't play around when it comes to pastries."

They wandered down a tree-lined street where string lights were beginning to glow overhead.

People passed with shopping bags, couples held hands, and dogs tugged on leashes.

The world felt both too big and somehow perfectly close.

Evan glanced sideways at Noah.

"You really do make this city feel less overwhelming."

Noah smirked.

"It's part of the roommate package. I come with jokes, tour-guiding expertise, and occasional emotional wisdom."

"Occasional?" Evan asked.

"Very occasional," Noah responded with a half-eaten grin.

Evan shook his head, but his smile stayed.

He felt lighter with Noah-like he didn't have to pretend to be braver than he was.

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They reached a small pedestrian bridge overlooking a canal that ran through this part of the city.

Lanterns lined the railing, their warm glow rippling across the darkening water.

Noah leaned his arms against the rail.

"Crazy, right? Sometimes I still can't believe I live here."

Evan stepped beside him.

"Do you miss where you came from?"

"Nope."

Noah popped the 'p' and let the silence settle before adding, quieter.

"Not really worth missing."

Evan looked at him, sensing the weight behind the joke.

But Noah shrugged it off, kicking lightly at the railing.

"What about you?" Noah asked.

"Homesickness hitting yet?"

"A little..." Evan admitted.

"Not because I want to go back... just because everything's new. Big. Fast."

"Hey." Noah tapped his shoulder lightly.

"You won't drown here. You have people now."

People.

Plural.

Evan wasn't sure he deserved that much, but the warmth in his chest said part of him wanted to believe it.

"You're... hard to read sometimes," Noah said suddenly, his tone gentle instead of accusing.

Evan stiffened, but only slightly.

"Oh?"

"Yeah. Like you're here, but you're... holding something back. Not in a bad way. Just... protective."

Evan's fingers brushed the railing, eyes lowering to the glowing water.

"I guess I've just learned to take things slow. New places, new people... new everything."

"Slow is okay..." Noah said simply.

"You don't have to rush with me."

Evan blinked, surprised.

"Why do you care?"

"Because you're my roommate," Noah nudged him lightly.

"And because you seem like a good guy who doesn't give himself enough credit."

Evan looked away, swallowing.

"Maybe."

"But..." Noah added, standing upright.

"I'll get you to open up eventually."

Evan smiled faintly.

"We'll see."

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They continued walking, the streets glowing with early evening energy.

When they turned a corner, the skyline shifted, and CrossTech Towers rose into view again-towering, shining, cutting through the dusk.

Evan slowed.

Noah noticed.

"It really grabs your attention, doesn't it?"

"I... don't know why."

Evan murmured.

"It's like it has a presence."

"It does."

Noah stuffed his hands in his pockets.

"CrossTech runs half of Lumen City. Their CEO? Damien Cross? People say he built his empire on nothing but sheer brilliance and pressure."

Evan's gaze stayed on the building, something almost magnetic pulling at him.

Noah bumped his shoulder.

"Don't worry. It's not gonna eat you." Evan chuckled softly.

"I didn't say I was worried."

"No..." Noah agreed.

"But you looked like you were holding your breath."

He wasn't wrong.

Evan had felt... something. Not bad. Not good. Just unfamiliar.

A strange flutter of nerves-like instinct recognizing a future he didn't know he'd meet.

He tore his eyes away and kept walking.

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Back at Havenwood Lofts, the lobby buzzed with evening arrivals.

By the time they reached 10B, Evan felt both tired and alive in ways he hadn't expected.

Noah tossed his hoodie onto the couch.

"So. Tomorrow's your interview. You freaking out?"

"A little," Evan said honestly.

"Good. That means you care."

Evan smiled-soft, shy, grateful.

"Thanks. For today. Really. I... needed it."

"I know," Noah headed toward his room.

"And hey, if you need a pep talk tomorrow morning, I charge only one pastry per motivational speech."

Evan laughed.

"Deal."

As Noah disappeared into his room, Evan exhaled slowly.

He wasn't sure where his life was heading, but for the first time in a long time...

He wasn't terrified of the next step.