The begining
“How to begin?”
My story isn’t complicated, but it’s hard to understand.
Yeah, it’s hard to understand my feelings and all the pain I got through. No matter how I tried to look happy in front of the people I love, my soul wants to scream so loud that the whole world can hear me that I hate myself, that I hate my body. But I still keep that fake smile on my face. Nobody knows how I really feel because I have no courage to share my emotions that are killing me for years.I hope that someone can see the real me and save me from this lie. I need someone who can love the ‘real me’.
Kai P.O.V
" Just ... ten... more... minutes... common... Kai you... can... do... it......”
I was practicing in our school’s practice room. It was still too early for class, so the high school was empty. I mean nobody was so stupid like me to practice instead of longer sleep. I can’t keep my eyes closed when I know I need to work on my moves and my dance, I need to work more on my body.
“I need to be perfect.”
The air here was so thick that I couldn’t take a breath. I sat on the floor and took my shoes off, facing the big mirror.
I was 19 years old and still single. I had many relationships but I wasn’t interested in love anymore, although all the girls in my school loved me. Better said they loved the ‘perfect me’ not the ‘real me’ because they knew only my perfect side. I had perfect grades. I was the best modern and hip-hop dancer in the high school.
But the real side of me was emotional, broken, ugly,.... fat. I hated me for being like that. I worked hard but I felt like it wasn’t hard enough. I cried every time I looked it the mirror that showed only the outside. I wanted to show my inside, but I was too afraid of their reaction.
“Will they still love me?”
“Or will they laugh at me just like in the past?”
" I don’t want to know... ”
Anna P.O.V
“Peep...peep...peep...“-my alarm ringed
“Anna it time. You don’t want to be late on your first day”- my mum shouted from the kitchen. I completely ignored her beautiful voice. A voice with sweet sound even when she was strict.
“Mmm I smell bacon and eggs”-I whispered to my pillow.
"Oh no... I have school today. It’s too soon. I don’t want to leave my bed. But if don’t get up and get ready I’ll be late. Oh man, I have no choice.”
I got up and walked into the bathroom like a zombie.
“Good morning, you beautiful girl.“- I looked in the mirror trying to brush my long brown hair but it still looked shaggy as always.
I was not the prettiest girl but... ok I wasn’t petty at all but I still loved me for who I’m and I didn’t care what all other girls or boys thought about me. I was 18 and still single. You ask why? Well, I still waited for the charming prince, riding on a white horse to come and we fall in love or something like that. I still believed in miracle like a little kid.
“Anna hurry up we only have one hour to get ready”- my brother interrupted my thoughts.
“Uffff I’m coming”- I groaned back.
I took a short shower and got dressed and went downstairs. There were still some boxes of our stuff on the floor. We had moved in last week in this beautiful house. It was big and new and my bedroom was really nice (I didn’t need to share my room with my bigger brother anymore). But there was only one problem. The high school was 5 km far away from here.
“The Princess took her time”
Leo looked at me, as the bits of his bacon.
“Please don’t ruin my mood even more”- we looked at each other like enemies.
“Ah, kids these days...“- my mum signed trying to save the situation. I sat in my chair and started to eat, hoping that my mum will take us to school today.
“Anna, Leo I’ll bring you to school, today is my free day so I’ll go shopping with my old friends. Do you want something?”
“Yes! I don’t need to walk.”
My mum was the best. Sometimes I got the feeling like she can read my thoughts. She always knew what I needed and how I felt.
“No mum I don’t need anything for now. Have fun”- she nodded and gave me a warm smile.We ate our breakfast and went to school.
"Wo ho I’m going to die today...”
The End of THE BEGINNING
*hi... it’s my first time writing a book that everyone can read, so it’s a little bit embracing for me😳😳😅😅.
I live in Germany so my English is still bad, but I’ll give my best to improve myself and hope you like it. FIGHTING💓💓*
