Chapter 1
I'm really overwhelmed, I'm tired of the same repeated dreams
My deepest desires , my hidden scars
My untold emotions and the biggest disappointment
I don't want to tell
Nor do I want to think
Sometimes silence is the best reply
Under the pouring rain
Whether I'm crying or not is unknown
Looking up at the sky
Hoping that each drop will wash something underneath
I'm here but I want to disappear
Once I forget and the other I miss
The more I miss the more I hate
I run faster in the field
Dropped everything I fear
I left the heavyweight behind
I don't want to look back
I did enough, I wanted enough , I hoped enough
Rather than that
I think nothing fit
Maybe that's what it meant to be
And maybe it's not
So many insecurities, struggling over and over
Till I forget what it means
Was it sweet and fluffy or was it painful and sour
Could it be exchanged?
Nah all I want is for it to be
And for me to become
The shackles I put down myself
I'm going to break
It took me long enough
And it drained my spirit enough
I without regret Swear to never look back
And go ahead
Maybe walking under the rain woke me up
Or I just want to believe so
Either way
I'm sure everything was washed away as well
All that is left is drying myself up
And starting again
