I’m still doing it.
My mind is messed up,
I don’t know what to do,
Is this cruel,
Is this right,
Could this even save a life?
Why am I like this,
What did I do,
I wish I could escape this zoo.
My mind is in circles, My heart in knots.
I feel like I’ll kart this around for the rest of my life,
Holding secrets for you,
The worst thing to do.
Wish I could tell you,
I should tell you.
But everything’s telling me not to.
It could brake me,
It will brake me.
Brake me again like she did,
But I wouldn’t have you to glue me together again.
Hold me like to do,
Hug me like you do,
Wish I’d stop feeling so blue.
It keeps on going,
Round in circles,
All-day long.
Why can’t I stop it,
Why should I stop it?
This isn’t the right thing to do,
Should I ask for help?
This can’t be the worst case,
There has to be harder cases out there,
Kids facing violence,
Kids facing fear,
Kids facing anger,
School,
Bullies,
Teachers,
Ex friends,
Strangers on the street.
What’s it with this world?
Why have we messed it up so much?
How have we messed it up this much?
Wish I could make it better.
But if I can’t even make my life OK,
How should I make everyone happy?
Do I need to?
No they don’t need that from me,
They don’t need anything from me.
They might want something eventually,
But not today.
Today I have me,
And her in my heart.
But I still have to choose - I hate this.
This is a recipe for disaster,
I don’t know why I’m doing this,
It doesn’t feel like a good idea.
- Nothing’s a good idea anymore.
This isn’t a good idea,
But I’m still doing it.
I’m still doing it.
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