A Suicide Invitation
Suicide Invitation… Check… Accept of Decline?
Late at night alone.
The darkness makes me feel alone.
Drinking Barefoot… Cheap and neat.
A brief Moscato to take my mind off of me.
Moved on to Cape Line… That strawberry kick
Took a dark and a light blue.
I don’t know when to quit.
Looking around, I feel I don’t belong.
I don’t belong anywhere.
It’s a horrible feeling.
To not belong at all. Not be comfortable
I second guess my every step
Every thought
Every breathe
Every Yes
Every No
Am I evil
Am I good?
That feeling fades when that warmth kicks in
I’ll fall asleep.
Fall asleep.
Pray the nightmares stay away
Does he hear me at all?
Does he care?
The last time I prayed
I prayed for the wrong reasons.
I prayed for you take me.
I prayed to disappear.
My blood flow was interrupted.
I believe you were sincere.
I fell in love too.
Sort of, I missed you for a moment of two
It was over, an infatuation
Hit me hard
A roof fell on my head
Then I lost my roof
My cover up, my hide out, my place.
I hate you
I like you
I’m disappointed in you.
I prayed for you to go away.
That reflection damns me every single day…..
