Oxygen

It's been years since I've attempted to write so please be kind but honest. Constructive criticism and reviews welcomed and would be greatly appreciated!

Thank you in advance for taking the time to read and comment or review.

Author: Misty G

Upon the horizon, sun 🌞 rising from the East,

Frozen dew droplets 💧 all along the ground.

A chilling breeze passes by and feels like bliss ,

Yet, my chest tightens and anxieties increase.

Focusing wholly on the beauty all around,

In a futile attempt to ignore what I cannot dismiss.

Inhaling a long breath of crisp air,

Holding it a bit before I slowly exhale.

Sighing, my joy impeded by a slight wheeze,

Reminded, abruptly I must check is it there?

For without it; knowing anything I do I will fail,

My inhaler, for without it, I cannot breathe.

My entire existence, relying on that device,

Hindered and limited by my own body.

Like a prisoner sentenced to life without parole.

Never to know the crime for which I pay this price?

Born to live without breathing as a commodity,

For things as simplistic as to run, jog or stroll.

Looking like a human on the outside,

Though feeling as though I should have gills.

For my days and nights feel like I'm an alien,

Only instead, I alone, feel it on the inside.

Missing out on basic human thrills,

Unable to do many a things I'm willing.

Wishing to arouse of sleep that never comes to end,

A horrid land in which I live a dreadful dream.

Try to skip the medicated aerosol on which I rely,

Hoping I'll wake up realizing I no longer depend.

Instead of waking I flop unable to scream,

I've no choice but to submit and comply!

For you see without my medical aid,

I'm no more than a fish out of water,

Unable to escape this lung disease.

I choose to be thankful for this help, manmade,

Suffering could be worse so to say I'm not grateful I'd be a liar,

But I also desire the life to breathe with more ease.

The kind where simply breathing in OXYGEN not chained to an inhaler or running without collapsing is a reality....Not an impossible dream...