The Actual Beginning

Aldina Alvarez

They say a new day is a new beginning, make the most of your day, live in the present etcetera. I am not a person of that sort. I tried living in the moment and failed miserably.

I live most of my life in my own world, which is mostly daydreaming. I daydream a lot and as a result, I tend to seek solitude. People think I am crazy because I don’t hang out with friends or anything. I want to be alone and keep daydreaming.

But little did I know that daydreams were just an illusion.

Now, people tend to think that I am something different, given that I don’t hang out with friends, or rather, don’t have any friends of that sort. Sometimes giving company to yourself is better than being with people who are nothing like you.

As a teenager, I always wanted to escape my reality. I didn’t want to be where I was. Didn’t want to do what I was doing. I waited for that day when I could get my own apartment and live alone and not have my parents breathe down my neck. It’s not like I don’t love them or anything but I really hated living with family.

I cannot get my mind around the concept of living in a joint family. How do people find pleasure in that? I would go crazy. My family was small consisting of four members; my parents, my brother, and myself. But three was more than enough for me. Mostly because I was nothing like them. I had way different interests, views on the world, etc.

I wanted to become a doctor for years. But as I understood the hard work, determination and commitment put into becoming one, I slowly withdrew from my dream. So after graduating high school as a science major I had no clue what to do. Then it hit me that I could go for literature. It wasn’t a decision fully supported by my parents but after loads of persuasion, they finally gave in.

Although English was not my first language, I knew it more, spoke it more, heard it more, and as a result, it was more of my first language than Spanish. And now, in the end, it brought me to a position that I have yearned for my whole life.

That brings me to London, the place that I am residing in currently. But only the Lord knows what is waiting for me in here.

I am Aldina Alvarez and this is my story!