Void
“What? Where am I?” I look to my right, then to my left, then to behind me, then in front, then up and down and I keep switching my head everywhere like I was a paranoid person. All I saw was a bright white empty void and the bright white empty void stared back. I stood up and walk at least 10 steps forward. It seemed expansive and I wondered how long it went on for, there was nothing and no one, I was all alone.
I don’t no how long I spent walking in a straight direction, swiveling my head like an owl in each direction in hopes of seeing something other than the void. I felt dread, fear, every emotion a human could feel I felt. Was I dead? Was this Heaven or Hell? Maybe purgatory or neither of either. After awhile I stopped in my tracks and fell down and look up as I laid on the smooth white ground of the void and looked up. Then I saw it, my own thoughts that I was thinking, these exact words were in the sky. I yelled as loud as I could, I was so afraid, but my yell was silent at first but then gained volume it dialed up like the dial being turned for the car’s radio. As my yell ended it echoed all over the void. I curled up in a ball and cried, cried for who knows how long, there was no time here, there was nothing.
I woke up. The void was no longer its bright white but a strange dark gray color. Was it night? I didn’t care, I just wanted out of whatever hell hole I was in. Then I heard something. If I had heard something earlier on I would have been relieved, after so long of not hearing something it made me afraid, and I was so very right to be. I stood up from my ball position and saw it. About maybe a mile and a half away from me was a tall dark figure that looked as if you drawn the outline of a elongated distorted human and scribbled him in with a pencil carelessly. Its eyes I could see from here, they were glowing bright white with no pupils just emptiness. I ran, I ran as fast as I could the other direction, looking back as I ran. It just stood there unmoving, but it still had it’s gaze on me.
I had ran for awhile until I had reached a strange border. It looked like this void was not as expansive as I once thought but it did have a border. But it looked the same as everything else. “Its hopeless.”
“What’s hopeless?”
I jumped back in shock and fear. I looked around and saw no one, until a small girl with black hair and pigtails appeared from the void.
“Aren’t you going to ask my question?”
“Wait who are you?” I asked?
“Oh jeez I’m little Susan Wilbur, from 3rd grade the girl you had a crush on and you continued to go to school with me towards 9th grade but never said how you really felt about me and blew it.”
I stood there shocked and embarrassed.
“Oh yeah. Wait but how are you here?”
“You still haven’t figured it out yet?”
“Figured what out?” I said.
“Man you are dull, look this place Isn’t trapping you Samuel. You are free to leave whenever you wish but you must confront you’re demons first.” She said with a smile while licking a lollipop which she seemed to make appear out of nowhere.
“Wait I can leave? And where did you get that lollipop?”
She stared at me, obviously annoyed I asked about the lollipop.
“Just face you’re demons dude okay? Listen I don’t make the rules here.”
“Oh okay. But wait how do I know what my demons are!?”
“You’ll know when you see them!”
Just lime that she was gone and had disappeared.
I had starting walking again until I had made it back to the strange gray area of the void.
Then I realized something, I had remembered what resided in that hellish place. That monstrosity must have been my inner demon.
Then it clicked in my head about where I was. There was no time for that though, I needed to find this thing and confront it.
I had walked far into the gray until I saw it again. That dark terrible thing with its long dangling arms and boney grasping hands. It stared at me from a mile away. I began to turn around knowing this was a bad idea, but I had gained courage again to face it, but then I regretted turning around. I came face to its body only inches away from me. Its body was boney and malnourished, its ribcage was visible through its dry skin with its skinny and starved body. Its neck was strained lime it had twisted in ways it shouldn’t, it stared down at me, we came face to face. I was frozen in fear, how would I confront it, what do I do? It outreached it arms to grab me and I backed away. I could not do this or could I?
If I was where I thought I was I had to have more faith in myself. I realized it then, maybe this was the point of this, maybe the point was to give me a new perspective and faith in myself. I walked back in front of the creature, again it outreached it’s arms around me, but instead of grabbing me and swallowing me down it’s throat, it hugged me. I brought my arms up and out reached them, I hugged back and I closed my eyes.
I woke up again. This time the void was gone I was lying in bed staring at the ceiling. I was back home, I was back in the real world. I decided I was going to change everything now, I was not going to continue the rough and sorrowful path I had followed for so long.
I began running, running outside to be specific, I began doing this everyday. I got out more and made friends that I didn’t know existed. I even called up Susan Wilbur and asked if she wanted to hang out. I feel better than I was before my experience, I feel whole again and realized that I need to make the effort to be happy, if I wished to be happy. I am happy and now “There is no void, I am whole.”
