I lost myself inside myself
*ilostmyselfinsidemyself*
losing myself inside myself
what is lost?nothing tangible
unseen,i'm drifting further away, cliché is it not?
disconnecting the cord that holds me down,keeps me calm
sanity lost long ago,not that i want it back
it's a bit easier and yet not easy not being a normal being
being is to be and to be is to live which is to be present
is it not?
what then would tether me to myself? Myself? Funny.
why be grounded when floating has no strings , no ties
it's the ties that always envelop me,giving me no air to breath
cutting off my oxygen ,depriving me of life.life to be.
as much as I deny it,I want to be,I really do
yet,why should I? there is no purpose,i am just a being
why be,when there's no joy,no love, no truth,no permanent?
I want to feel yes,feel fear, disappointment,pain,of course I do
should I not have a level that tells me I've reached a limit?
overflowing,submerging in an inky sea of emotion.no restraint
waves of it rolling over me,drowning me,unable to pinpoint the source
as I question my own being,my own presence,I wonder
am I really that petty?maybe you would know,huh?
its the ties that envelop me,choking me with their holds.
