Dreams
Hi Natali!
I've never been good at this 'genre' of talking. I've never kept a diary or any 'journal' or whatever you call it. The kind of thing you write when something very important happens in your life, so this is a new feeling for me that I don't know if I like it or not yet.
I miss you.
It's been two days already. I miss you so much.
I still go to bed in your oversized sweatshirt. I know it sounds really weird and even gross, but it still smells like you. It helps me sleep soundly. It helps me close my eyes at all.
Do you know I was suffering from insomnia until I met you? Then YOU were the only reason I slept. And that continues to this day.
In the last two days I probably slept about three hours. I suspect my insomnia is coming back. I can't sleep because I can't sleep without you. And when my body shuts down out of nowhere, I can't think of anyone but you, your smile, your eyes, and your body. All I've been thinking about for the past two days is you, only you. I don't know how to change it. I can't do it, but I don't want to change it either.
If I told you that, you would definitely laugh, because if someone goes by the nickname 'sleepy potato' and 'eepy kartoffel' , they could control their dreams. I can still hear your laugh that gave me energy every day.
Well, I'm going to have to quit now or I really can't do it and I'll probably quit here and now.
I love you. Your Nikk.
