BTS One-Shots

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Jungkook loved her but she didn’t know it.

Siri loved him but he didn’t know it.

What happens when one of them finally confesses on a very important day?

✨Inspired by Taeyang’s wedding dress song but with a twist✨

> angst with happy ending

Word count:~6880

DON’T copy my storyline or take any part of my work please.

---Jungkook’s POV---

Today’s the day she gets married.

I can’t accept it but I know I have to.

We’ve only known each other for a year and a half but I knew I was in love with her after a couple of months of knowing her. She joined the company with her best friend after our mutual friend, Jin, helped them get a job here at BigTech.

Through Jin, we weren’t just work colleagues, we became friends. And then she joined our friend group where we would all hangout together sometimes on the weekends. Go to the beach, have BBQs at someone’s house, or play games and sports at the park.

I loved when our friend group would be invited to her place. That’s when I found out she and I had a few things in common. She had an awesome Marvel movie collection, as well as a decent pile of games. I was even surprised to see she had the latest PS5.

She and I became friendlier where some days she would make me lunch with my favourite foods and it would come with a post-it note attached. Some days it was just the post-it note I would find on my work desk and it always lit up my day. She always had something sweet or encouraging to say, and she even gave me cute compliments.

'You are amazing at what you do.′

‘You look like a bunny sometimes. Did you know that?’

‘Laugh more, worry less.’

‘You look like Bambi and Thumper all in one. You know what they have in common? They’re so cute! Just like you.’

‘Let the haters hate. I’ll be here to appreciate you.’

‘Bunny smile more. It’s cute.’

‘You make me smile.’

She would always put cute little smiley faces or a bunny in the corners of her notes, too. I’ve caught her one time writing a note at her work desk and it made my heart flutter seeing her put in the effort to make me happy.

It was those little things she did for me, as well as what we had in common that made me fall for her. But the day I caught her writing one of the notes, was the day that confirmed my feelings for her.

I thought there could be something between us but when she started dating Jin 4 months after joining the company, I realised I was wrong.

And then my heart was further crushed when they announced their engagement 6 months ago. It took Jin 10 months of dating her to realise that she was the one for him and he put a ring on her finger.

And now here I am.

At their wedding.

I should’ve made a move sooner. I knew she was the one for me after she did those things and yet I hesitated because I’m a fucking coward.

But maybe it wasn’t too late?

Maybe I could talk to her before she walks down that aisle? Confess everything I’ve been feeling before she says ‘I do’?

Surely she had some feelings for me because why would she have done those sweet notes for me? Why would she have gone to the effort of making lunch for me some days? Even after she started dating Jin and announced their engagement, she still did those things for me.

Ugh! But I can’t do that to Jin! He’s one of my best friends. I can’t do that to him... I just can’t...

Can’t I?...

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Fuck it. I can and I will.

The ceremony was going to start in about 20 minutes and I figured it was now or never. Get everything out so then I’ll have closure.

“Oh! Hey Kookie.”

“Hey,” my eyes widened as I took in her dress. “Wow you look-”

“I know, I’m hot, right?” she said cheekily with a grin.

I rolled my eyes playfully and chuckled, “You’re not just ‘hot’ ya know. You can be pretty too.”

“I think this is probably the prettiest I’ll ever look,” she said as she smoothed down her dress. It hugged at her curves, accentuated all the right places and she really did look pretty. Pretty damn beautiful.

“I doubt that. You look pretty all the time.” I smirked a little and she blushed.

Yes, I know I’m flirting but so what? It’s harmless. Done it plenty of times before when we’re alone when no ones looking. Done a lot of things together when no ones looking. Just like now.

“You think so?”

“I know so,” I said with a confident nod and a smile.

She blushed some more and bit her lower lip, seeming all bashful. Except I knew she wasn’t the shy or coy type of girl. She was usually confident which I found attractive.

“You look pretty as well, Kookie. Pretty damn handsome.”

I chuckled at her honesty and told her thanks. She can make me laugh and feel so normal. Feel appreciated. Even on such a day like today where my heart is slowly breaking. But she doesn’t know that. No one knows that.

“It’s bad luck to see the bride before the wedding, ya know...” she teased.

My heart sank at the topic... “That only applies to the groom.”

She gave me a sympathetic smile and I wondered if she knew how I really felt.

It was quiet between us for a moment and so I took in the surroundings of the bridal room. Took in the sight of how she and the bridesmaids were almost ready. My heart ached that this was really happening. She was wearing that beautiful white wedding dress and it wasn’t for me...

But I was here to do one thing.

Confess.

Before it’s too late.

’Cause it ain’t over till it’s over.

In my head I sound confident but truthfully, I wasn’t. I gulped and my heart pounded fast. Shit do I do this? Do I tell her?...

“Hey I uh... I need to tell you something...”

“Hm? What’s that?”

“I um... Well... It’s a little hard for me to say...”

“Go on~ You can tell me anything. You know you’re like one of my best friends too, right?”

“Yeah... a best friend with benefits... Is that all I’ve ever been to you? You never felt anything more for me? Even after all the time we’ve spent together? After all those times we slept together? Did you ever think that maybe we could’ve had a chance?”

Silence. That’s all there was between us for a few moments as we looked into each other’s eyes.

“I’m in love with you. Have been for a while now but I just never found the courage to tell you because I’m a fucking coward. Because I know you love someone else but fuck- my heart can’t take it anymore with you not knowing how I really feel about you. I just had to let you know before it’s too late and I just... Well I want to know if you would give me the chance to make you happy? To maybe give ‘us’ a go?”

More silence between us.

I gulped as I looked at her. My heart sank and my gut twisted with each passing second.

“I’m sorry, I didn’t know you felt that way. I can’t- I just... I just don’t feel that way for you... I’m really sorry...”

Her eyes looked so sad but I guess this had to be done. Whatever we had, had to stop, otherwise there would just be more heartache...

I walked away after that.

And I left feeling like a part of me was missing...

---Siri’s POV---

Today’s the big day.

It’s been a year and a half of knowing Jungkook since I started working at BigTech, and I can’t stop thinking about him some days when I know I should stop. When I know I need to stop having these feelings for him.

Because I know I can’t have him. Not in the way I would like to anyway.

It’s hard when he’s always been so charming and sweet. And especially so when he’s flirty. And that bunny smile of his always gets me. Always warms my heart and makes me feel like I’m the only girl he wants. And god- he’s just so attractive with those tattoos, the eyebrow and lip piercings and that short haircut! He looks like a sexy geeky rockstar, especially when he wears his glasses at work sometimes.

Memories of us being tangled in his bed sheets give me a melancholic feeling because things need to stop. I can’t keep doing this with him anymore.

I can’t do anymore late nights where we have great sex and then just lay side by side watching Netflix shows together- until I need to sneak back home. I can’t keep trying to sneak kisses with him at work when no one is looking. I can’t keep up the facade that I’m happy as is because I’m not. My heart can’t take it anymore.

If I had confessed sooner, then maybe I wouldn’t be feeling like shit right now on such an important day.

But he never made a move anyway. He never asked for more than what I gave.

And I know the reason why.

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“Oh! Hey Kookie,” I said as he stopped by the bridal suite. My heart fluttered at seeing him look so handsome in his groomsman suit.

“Hey-” his eyes widened as he drank in my figure in my gown, and for a moment, I was happy to have such an effect on him, “wow you look-”

“I know- I’m hot, right?” I said cheekily with a grin. I could always talk like this with him. Be myself, not take myself too seriously and just laugh with him.

He rolled his eyes playfully and chuckled, “You’re not just ‘hot’ ya know. You can be pretty too.”

“This is probably the prettiest I’ll ever look.” I shied away from his eyes as I smoothed down my dress.

“I doubt that. You look pretty all the time.” He smirked at me a little and I couldn’t help but blush.

“You think so?” I flirted.

“I know so,” he said with a confident nod and a smile.

I blushed some more and bit my lower lip. He could be so sweet to me and it would make me forget our situation.

“You look pretty as well, Kookie. Pretty damn handsome.” He chuckled again while saying thanks, showing me that cute bunny smile that I always swoon over.

Yeah, we playfully flirt because why not? But I know I need to stop this. I can’t keep torturing myself.

“It’s bad luck to see the bride before the wedding, ya know...” I teased.

“That only applies to the groom,” he said with a tinge of sadness in his voice. His eyes had a glint of sorrow behind them and I gave him a sympathetic smile because I understood his feelings.

Of course I understood his feelings. The feeling of unrequited love fucking sucks.

I knew this because while I’ve been pining over him for the past year and a half, he was pining over her. My best friend and roommate, Jieun. The one who’s getting married today.

It sucks because all this time, I knew he had feelings for her. His eyes always lit up when she was around and his smile would get that little bit wider.

I didn’t understand why he was in love with her. It should’ve been me. I put all that effort in getting to know him and trying to get him to like me, but he just... he never noticed me the way that I wanted him to. I hate how he never knew my feelings even when they were right there in front of him.

He only noticed me after Jieun and Jin came out that they were dating. He had that look of needing someone to take his mind off of something- or off of someone. So that’s what I allowed myself to become for him because at least that gave me some of his attention that I had been craving.

Fucking pathetic of me, isn’t it?

I became his friend and eventually his fuck buddy just so he could get his mind off of her. I wanted to help him forget about her in the hopes that he might think of me.

I’m not usually this pitiful. I could get any guy I wanted but I wanted the guy whose heart doesn’t want me.

I’m a fucking loser.

I had hoped that with us having a sexual connection, his heart would eventually open up and let me in. And part of him did open up. We became closer. Flirty friends in the workplace and flirty friends out of the workplace- all of which involved the late night ‘Netflix and chilling,’ and the sneaky kisses or the odd fucking in the bathroom at work.

But it wasn’t just sex- well not for me anyway. There were moments when I knew he was down in the dumps because of Jieun. The times when she had flaunted gifts Jin had bought her, times when he’s seen Jieun and Jin be all lovey dovey, or times when he’s heard Jieun gush about Jin- those were the times when I was there to try uplift Jungkook. Those were the times when I tried to make him happy and laugh.

I’d suggest going out for a beer or two at a pub after work, or go to the park or beach and just walk around aimlessly while eating ice-cream. And even though we’re 23/24 years old (JK is 23), I’ve suggested the arcade a couple times as that was usually a good distraction. We didn’t even have to talk during those times. I was just there to keep him company. I was comfortable just being around him and he was comfortable being around me.

Jungkook and I had a good ‘friends with benefits’ thing going on. But there was never anything more. Which was why I needed to stop things with him, otherwise I’m just asking for more heartache.

I can’t help but wonder though... Did I ever even have a real chance with him? If I told him right now how I felt about him, would he give me a chance? Because there was no way he had a chance with Jieun- she was way too in love with Jin.

Jungkook’s eyes looked around the bridal suite where they landed on Jieun. His eyes went from having a hint of sadness, to going real gloomy once he took in the sight of Jieun in her wedding dress.

He was heartbroken.

And so was I seeing him look like that.

He shouldn’t be sad. He shouldn’t be feeling that way when I know I could make him happy.

At that moment, something in me was telling me to just let everything out. Tell him how I feel because then maybe he’ll realise that I’ve always been there for him. That it’s me who can love him the way he wants to be loved by her.

“Hey I uh... I need to tell you something...”

“Hm?” He blinked a few times and it looked like I had snapped him out of his thoughts. “What’s that?” he looked down at me, giving me a small sad smile. His mind was obviously still on her.

God, my heart was pounding in my ears from nervousness. “I um... Well... It’s a little hard for me to say...”

“Go on~” he flirted, probably trying to distract his mind from the beautiful bride not far from us. “You can tell me anything. You know you’re like one of my best friends too, right?”

Fuck- is that really all I am to him? Surely he felt something for me after all this time together?

“Yeah... a best friend with benefits...” I mumbled to myself at the sad realisation. “Is that all I’ve ever been to you? You never felt anything more for me? Even after all the time we’ve spent together? After all those times we slept together? Did you ever think that maybe we could’ve had a chance?”

Silence. That’s all there was between us for a few moments as we looked into each other’s eyes and it made my stomach flutter in a bad way.

Jungkook just... stared at me with slight confusion. As if I asked him something he didn’t understand. As if I spoke another language.

And yet I stared back at him with my eyes begging him to say something that would make me feel hopeful. Something that would make me feel better about what we’ve been doing together. Something that would make me feel like I hadn’t been so pathetically in love with him all this time for no reason.

It looked like he was still confused so I just gave it to him straight.

“I’m in love with you. Have been for a while now but I just never found the courage to tell you because I’m a fucking coward. Because I know you love someone else but fuck- my heart can’t take it anymore with you not knowing how I really feel about you. I just had to let you know before it’s too late and I just... Well I want to know if you would give me the chance to make you happy? To maybe give ‘us’ a go?”

Jungkook’s eyes widened when I confessed I loved him, and then he blinked so much while staring at me as he tried to process my words. There was more silence between us and it was killing me inside.

Jungkook licked his lips and bit his lower lip as he gave me the guiltiest eyes. I know why he looked at me like that. He felt guilty for not reciprocating my feelings.

It broke my heart even more.

“I’m sorry, I didn’t know you felt that way. I can’t- I just... I just don’t feel that way for you... I’m really sorry...”

His eyes were sad and sincere and I didn’t hate him for his honesty. I just hated myself even more for falling for someone who couldn’t love me back.

At least he was nice about it, I guess? I still felt sick to my stomach though and tried to push back my tears that I felt coming. I swallowed the thick lump in my throat and nodded at him with a smile I tried to force out.

“That’s ok, Kookie. You can’t help how you feel. I get it. At least I told you.” I smiled again but it made a tear fall down my cheek.

I quickly wiped the tear away while still smiling at him, but his face looked pained at seeing me cry. He obviously did care for me. Just not in the way I would like.

“Hey, don’t be sad for me, Kookie.” I playfully nudged his arm but his pitiful look for me stayed with him. “I’ll be ok. I just um... I’ll need some readjusting with us. Some space to uh... To get over you, I guess- but I still want to be friends- I just... need some time? You understand, right?”

He bit his lower lip and nodded once, “Yeah... I understand...”

“Great. Well um... I should go back to the girls... Probably need to re-do my make-up...”

“Right. I’ll uh... I’ll see you at the altar and for the dance?”

Ohh that’s right... The bridesmaids and groomsmen are meant to dance together at the reception. I forgot about that... And Jungkook and I were partnered up because Jieun knew that I liked him...

Funny how she knew I liked Jungkook but she was totally oblivious to Jungkook’s feelings for her.

I never told her about Jungkook and I sleeping together. She would’ve grilled me on why we weren’t together by now if I had told her. But I can’t exactly tell her the real reason why; because she was that reason and I didn’t want her to feel like shit.

I should’ve confessed to him after the dance, that way shit won’t be so awkward during the ceremony and reception. That way I won’t feel like crying all afternoon or evening.

“Yeah, I’ll see you at the altar and for the dance,” I said with a smile that I still tried to plaster on.

Jungkook swallowed thickly and nodded once. Then he left.

Taking a piece of my broken heart with him.

---Jungkook’s POV---

It’s been a month since the wedding day and I felt like part of me was missing something.

Of course I was missing something, though. I had lost Jieun forever. But it was weird... I couldn’t stop thinking about Siri’s confession. I kept getting random flashes of her in my head and I didn’t know why.

On the wedding day, I went to the bridal suite to confess my feelings to Jieun, but I got interrupted by Siri and received a surprising confession from her instead. Her confession made me forget about my own confession because I was totally flabbergasted. I had no idea Siri felt that way for me.

Sure, there was a sexual attraction between us, and she is a pretty, lovely, and funny person. She always got me laughing and made me feel not so lonely some nights. But it never occurred to me that she liked- no, that she loved me.

It really did make my heart sink and stomach twist when I rejected her because she was- no, she is- a really good friend. When she tried to plaster on a smile even though I broke her heart- fuck- that made my heart ache for her. I almost felt worse than when I saw Jieun in her wedding dress.

I felt bad for Siri for the majority of the wedding because she was faking a smile all night. I could see behind those blue eyes of hers. I could see she wanted to cry but couldn’t.

And fuck- when we had to dance together for the reception? She couldn’t even look at me for more than a second at a time and she practically ran out of my arms as soon as the song had finished. At the time I just felt so... so sad. Like I had lost her even though she wasn’t even mine?

Weird how it was a similar feeling to when I ‘lost’ Jieun after finding out she and Jin started dating and when they got engaged...

Ever since the wedding, I’ve been giving Siri her space and I hadn’t messaged her at all. But something felt off... I hadn’t even seen her at work this week. We worked in different departments at the company, but I would usually still see her around the cafeteria or on coffee breaks because we always had our breaks at the same time.

I wondered if maybe she was sick this week? I thought I would ask her tonight when I see her. The guys and I were over at hers and Jieun’s place for a BBQ. Jieun had invited all of us after she and Jin got back from their honeymoon a few days ago.

When I arrived at their apartment, I didn’t feel so downcast and I wasn’t as bothered at seeing Jieun and Jin together. I think I’ve just accepted it now. But then I don’t understand why I still felt like something was missing...

I also noticed straight away there was something different about the apartment. The big bookshelf Siri and Jieun had no longer held the cool Marvel movie collection. Instead, it was filled with Super Mario figurines which I knew belonged to Jin.

Was Jin moving in with the girls? Were the DVD’s moved somewhere else to accommodate Jin’s things?

“Noona, where’s all your Marvel movies? And all the games?” I asked curiously as I looked at the bookshelf with a beer in my hand. Then I gasped when I looked at the TV shelf to find the PS5 was missing too, “What the! - Did you sell your games and PS5?! You could’ve told me! I would’ve bought them off you!”

Jieun chuckled as she brought out snacks and placed them on the coffee table in the lounge for Jin, Yoongi, Namjoon, Hobi and I to snack on (the other two weren’t here yet).

“You silly Kookie. Those all belonged to Siri. She took them with her when she moved out.”

WHAT?! They were Siri’s? The Marvel DVD collection? The games? The PS5?? No wonder she was good at gaming when she would come over to my place sometimes. I guess I never asked who that stuff belonged to and I just assumed it was Jieun’s because she would suggest watching the movies sometimes when we were over and she would suggest playing games as teams...

Wait! Siri moved out?? When? Where? Why?

I was dumbfounded and I had so many questions. “Oh... I didn’t realise they were hers... And I didn’t know she moved out? How come?”

“She knew Jin and I wanted to live together after we got married, so she moved out while we were on our honeymoon so Jin could move in. That’s why she isn’t here. I thought you knew she moved away?”

“Uh... No... I haven’t seen her all week at work but that makes sense now. Probably been moving her stuff all week.”

“Wait- you didn’t know about her moving? Or about her job?” Jieun looked at me with furrowed brows.

“No? And what about her job?”

“She’s moved away, Kookie. She moved to the city where our Head Office branch is. She got offered a better job over there.”

My heart dropped. That ‘missing’ feeling in my heart felt worse.

“Oh... I uh... I never knew about it. She never told me...” I looked down at my beer as for some reason, I felt hurt and disappointed that Siri never told me she was moving or got a new job offer.

“She was offered the job the day before our wedding. She hadn’t accepted the job and was still thinking about it. During our honeymoon she messaged me saying she was going to take it. Kinda worked out in her favour since she was planning on moving out of here anyway. She moved out last weekend and started working for them this week.”

Ohh... That’s why she didn’t tell me... Because she wasn’t sure about it but then accepted it after the wedding- wait a minute! Did she take the job offer because of me? To get away from me? Because I broke her heart?

My heart was hammering in my chest at the thought.

I skulled back the rest of the beer I had and I needed another. Needed to calm this weird wretched feeling in my stomach.

I rounded the corner walking into the kitchen to see Jieun was muttering something while her head was in a cabinet. “That silly girl forgot all of these. I’ll have to post them to her.”

“What’s that, Noona?” I opened up the fridge and grabbed myself another beer, then I watched her bring out a small basket filled with a bunch of pens and different coloured post-it notes.

“Oh, it’s just stationery Siri forgot to take with her. She has a thing for using post-it notes- as you would know with all those notes she stuck on the lunches she made for you and on your desk. She was so cute for doing that.”

I choked on my beer.

I coughed so much that Jieun had to come pat my back, “Jeez, Kookie, you ok?”

I cleared my throat and let out the last of my cough, “Yeah, I uh... The beer went down the wrong way...”

“So silly,” Jieun chuckled as she walked back to the little basket.

My heart pounded harder in my chest as I looked at all the colourful sticky note pads. They were Siri’s thing?... Just like the Marvel movies and the gaming was Siri’s thing... And she was the one who made me lunch some days?

Shit. Have I been falling for the wrong girl this whole time?...

But I remember seeing Jieun writing on a sticky note that one time!

Fuck, how can I ask her about it in a way that it doesn’t sound like I didn’t know it was Siri?...

“Uh... Did you ever write any little notes, too?...” I had to ask because I needed to confirm I hadn’t misplaced my feelings. The random sticky notes were one of the main reasons I fell for Jieun because I thought she was the one who wrote them...

“Nah. I just liked to add a bit of cuteness to Siri’s notes by drawing smiley faces or bunnies on them since she mentioned you looked like a cute bunny all the time. It was always her who wrote them.” Jieun smiled so sweetly like she was proud of helping her friend make cute notes, which I guess is a sweet thing to do, but it only made my heart drop.

That one time I thought I caught Jieun writing the note replayed in my mind. Jieun had the post-it notepad and pen in her hand while at her desk. Siri had been right there sitting opposite her, chatting to Jieun with a smile on her face since they are best friends. But I never saw Siri write on the note...

Unless I had just caught them at the wrong time? Rather than seeing Siri write the note at first, I caught the end where Jieun was drawing on it instead?... And that note just magically appeared on my work desk not long after I saw them so I never really saw who put it there that day...

Now that I think about it, I’ve never actually seen who puts the notes on my desk this whole time. I would just arrive at work and there would be a cute note stuck on my computer screen. Sometimes after grabbing a coffee or having lunch, or even after finishing a meeting, I’d find another random cute note on my keyboard.

I just always thought it was Jieun after that day I saw her with the notepad... And as time went on, each note got more flirty and more meaningful- which made my feelings for her stronger...

But it wasn’t her... It wasn’t Jieun...

Oh god...

Jieun sighed sadly, “She liked you a lot ya know, Kookie. I thought her cute little notes would work on you. I was so sure you two would get together at my wedding because you guys seemed a lot closer over the last year. It’s why I made you dance partners for the reception. I hoped to play matchmaker but I guess that didn’t work out since she moved away. So sad. You two would’ve been so cute together.”

My heart sank as low as it could go. I can’t believe this... I fell for the wrong girl...

I thought it was Jieun who I had stuff in common with. I thought it was Jieun who was writing those notes for me- all because I caught the girls at the wrong time.

And Siri knew I had feelings for Jieun. She knew because I remember her saying ′I know you love someone else,′ when she confessed to me on the wedding day.

She knew my feelings were for Jieun and yet she was still there for me. She tried to cheer me up. Tried to take me out and get my mind off of Jieun. She continued leaving me random cute notes on my desk. And oh fuck! - I hate that I’m only realising this now and I feel like such an asshole- but she even allowed me to basically use her sexually to get my mind off Jieun.

I’m such an idiot! I’m such an asshole! I’m such a fucking blind idiot asshole!

It should’ve been Siri. It should’ve been her.

No wonder I’ve been feeling like something was missing even with Jieun being back. It’s because I’ve been missing Siri!

I did have some feelings for Siri- of course I did. I care about her and she still means something to me. It was just that I’ve been so hung up on thinking Jieun was the one who had done those things for me that I never fully allowed my heart to let Siri all the way in.

“Kookie? You ok? You’ve zoned out.” Jieun looked at me funny and waved a hand in my face to snap me out of my thoughts.

I shook my head and blinked a few times as I processed the last of my thoughts. I knew what I had to do.

I needed to go to her. I needed to go to Siri.

“Noona, where has Siri moved to? I need to see her. I’ve just realised I’ve been so stupid and I do like her. Like a lot.”

Jieun’s eyes lit up and she gasped, “Oh my gosh! Yes! Finally!”

After a few minutes of Jieun telling me where Siri was, I was out the door and in my car. I had only one beer so I was still sober enough to drive.

I was going to take the one and a half hour long drive to see Siri and I was going to tell her that I do have feelings for her. That I want her to give me a chance. To give us a chance.

God, I hope I’m not too late and I hope her feelings are still there for me.

Knock knock knock

I nervously waited for Siri’s apartment door to open. My left leg was shaking, my hands clenching and unclenching, and I fiddled with my lip piercing with my tongue while my heart was racing.

Then the door opened...

Siri gasped as soon as she saw me, “Jungkook? What are you doing here?” she asked with surprise. “Wait, how do you know where I live??”

“I’m sorry!” I blurted out, “Jieun-Noona told me where you live. I asked her because I needed to see you. I needed to tell you that it’s you. It should’ve been you. I was meant to fall for you.”

Siri’s eyebrows raised in surprise, “I’m sorry, what?”

Ok. Here goes. I’m just gonna say everything I need to and let it all out. I’m not going to be a coward like I was on the wedding day. Not this time when it really matters.

“All this time I thought it was Jieun. I thought she was the missing piece of me. I thought it was her who I had things in common with; the Marvel movies and the gaming. I thought it was her who cooked me lunch some days. I thought it was her who left the cute sticky notes on my work desk. Those were the things that made me fall for her.

“But it wasn’t her. It was you. You are my missing piece. You did those things and I only figured it out tonight after seeing your stuff was gone from the apartment and when Jieun mentioned you forgot your post-it notes. It was you. It was meant to have been you that I should’ve fallen for and I’m so sorry that I didn’t see it or realise it sooner.

“I’m so sorry, Siri. I’m sorry that you still gave yourself to me and fell in love with me even when you knew I had feelings for someone else. But now I know those feelings were misplaced.

“I’m a dumbass. A real fucking dumbass because you were there for me the whole time and I didn’t allow myself to open up to you or let you fully in. But I want to let you in now. I want to give us a go. I want to be the one to make you happy coz it was because of you that I was able to smile and laugh when I was down.

“I want to be the one to love you properly like I should’ve done from the beginning- if you’ll let me that is. Please, give me a chance to make things right? Please let me love y- mm!”

My speech was suddenly interrupted with Siri’s lips on mine and her arms around my neck. As soon as I realised she was kissing me, I instantly wrapped my arms around her waist and pulled her body close to mine.

Fuck, this was an amazing kiss. It was just so passionate, so deep. I’ve never felt so many butterflies go off in my stomach.

This is what I’ve been missing. Now that I know that it was all because of her, I feel complete.

After a few good long seconds, our passionate kiss turned soft and gentle, finishing with little pecks and then we rested our foreheads together.

“I’ll give you that chance, Kookie. I’ve loved you for over a year. It’ll take more than a month for me to get over you, ya know.”

I rubbed our noses together and gave her a soft kiss, “Good. Don’t get over me. Don’t leave me.”

“I won’t leave you.” She smiled up at me as she cupped my face, her thumbs caressing my cheeks. I took hold of her right hand and kissed the heel of her palm.

“Can you move back home?” I asked all hopeful.

“I’m sorry, Kookie. I need to stay here at the Head Office branch for at least a year.”

I pouted but my heart didn’t sink too much. A year wasn’t that bad. Plus the drive wasn’t even that long.

“We’ll make the next year work in our favour then. It only took me an hour and a half to get here so we can see each other on weekends. Either you or myself can drive after work on a Friday and then leave Sunday evenings. No biggie.”

She chuckled, “I can’t believe you drove all that way for me tonight.”

“Of course I did. I had to see you.” I squeezed her and lifted her off her feet, then gave her a deep kiss.

“You’ll stay over? Wanna watch the Avengers? Or I can beat you at Crash Team Racing?”

I smiled widely and my heart went really warm looking into her pretty blue eyes. “Yeah, I’ll stay. And hell no! You’re not beating me! I’ll beat you!”

She giggled before nudging her nose against mine, then gave me a sweet kiss, “You’re on, Jeon.”

Three years later....

“Nope! Nuh-uh! It’s bad luck to see the bride before the wedding, Kookie.”

“Noonaaa... Come ooonnn...” I whined.

“Nope! Siri doesn’t want you to see her until you’re meant to.” Jieun kept trying to push me back out of the bridal suite but I was sort of too big and strong that she barely moved me.

Yep. Today’s the big day.

My big day- well actually, it’s our big day. A day I’ve been so excited and couldn’t wait for ever since I popped the question to Siri a year ago.

After I turned up at her doorstep those years ago, I had never been more happy. Never been so smitten. Siri and I made the distance work because it wasn’t even that long, and when that one year was up, she moved back to our town and moved in with me.

“I need to know if she’s ok, though,” I said with a pout on my lips. “Has she had any morning sickness today? Has she been too tired? Any cravings? Do I need to get her anything?”

Yep. My wife-to-be is three months pregnant. I’m going to be an Appa!

“Jungkook, stop worrying. I have it under control. I’m her Maid of Honour. And I’m a mother myself. And I’m her best friend. I know how to look after her. Your soon-to-be-wife and your baby are fine. She’s glowing with happiness. But she won’t be happy if you see her before you’re meant to. Don’t forget the pregnancy hormones will make her twice as mad if you ruin it for her.”

Shit. Jieun’s right. Those hormones can be a bit much...

“Leave now or face the wrath of your baby momma.”

I groaned and gave in since Jieun was right. “Fiiiine. Tell her I love her and that I’ll see her at the end of the aisle.”

“I LOVE YOU TOO, KOOKIE!” I heard Siri shout from somewhere that I couldn’t see. “I’LL BE THE ONE IN WHITE!”

I chuckled with a big grin on my face as I walked out of the bridal suite. Not long to go now.

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And there she was.

A beautiful vision in white.

Walking straight towards me. Her eyes were only onmejust like mine were only on her.

Siri really was glowing. A happiness glow along with the pregnancy glow. And maybe even some left over just-fucked afterglow from last night?

Either way, she was radiant.

So many times I’ve thought back to how much of an idiot I was to not have seen her love for me.

And I’m still an idiot.

An idiot in love with the woman in a gorgeous white wedding dress.

And this time, that wedding dress was for me.

~~~ THE END ~~~