Chapter One
LINA TATE
Her fingers were tapping against the steering wheel, the thudding sound echoing into the silence of the car. My eyes shift to the road ahead of us, the long empty motorways that continued and wouldnโt stop. She turns on the radio, the urgent news about the flood happening in Boston ring into my ears.
I plug in my headphones, blocking out any distractions, trying to calm myself down.
My head turns and faces the window beside me, the trees passing by me within seconds. I barely had enough time to figure out the colour of the leaves because of how fast my mum was driving.
Suddenly my sanctuary was shattered as my headphones were yanked from my ears. โIโm speaking to you, Lina.โ
โI didnโt realise,โ I muttered, a feeble attempt to deflect confrontation.
โThis is good for you, the best medical school in Boston,โ she declared, her words laden with an unspoken expectation. I felt the urge to claw my way out of my own skin as I scratched my forehead in frustration. โMaybe you could actually pass your fourth year instead of failing it.โ
โI didnโt fail,โ I protested.
โYou didnโt write anything on the exam,โ she scoffed, dismissing my efforts with a wave of her hand. โThat, my dear, is failing.โ
A bitter taste lingered on my tongue as I mustered the courage to speak. โYou only care because it hurts your precious reputation.โ In that fleeting moment, her gaze met mine, and the darkness in her brown eyes sent shivers down my spine.
โWatch your mouth,โ she warned, a sharpness cutting through the air. I mechanically wrap my headphones around my phone, turning away to shield myself from her scrutiny. โIโve worked hard for what I have. It wasnโt handed to me on a silver platter like it was for you.โ
โEasy?โ I retorted incredulously. โYou think I had it easy? I worked day and nightโโ
โAs have I!โ She interjected, her voice rising. โAnd all for you to fail your last year in medical school, all because of your damn ego.โ
โMy ego?โ I whispered, the tension escalating as we approached the imposing black gates of the school. โYouโre one to talk. Youโre sending me off to a medical school in the middle of nowhere, so if I do fail again, no one will know because you pay for complete confidentiality,โ I continued, my voice growing stronger. โYou canโt have one of the top general surgeons in the world raising a stupid daughter.โ
โStupid is right.โ
The imposing gates slowly creak open, granting us passage into the school grounds. My mother navigates the car until we arrive at an old, grandiose building that seemed to sprawl over twelve acres of land.
The air buzzes with the energy of students engaged in various activitiesโsome seated on the lush grass engrossed in books, while others partake in a spirited game of rugby in a distant corner. As my mother puts the car in park, we both step out into the open.
A collective hush falls over the students as all eyes, like curious creatures, fixate on us, or more precisely, on my mother. The weight of her reputation, it seems, precedes us.
Before we even make our way toward the entrance staircase, a woman clutching a folder descends hurriedly. She stops in front of us, a warm smile on her face, and extends her hand towards my mother. โMrs. Tate, what a pleasure to have you walking our grounds.โ
My mother reciprocates the handshake with a practiced charm. โThe pleasure is mine. Iโve heard wonderful things about this institution.โ
The womanโs gaze then shifts to me, and she offers a friendly smile. โAnd you must be Lina. Welcome to our school. Iโm Ms. Anderson, the admissions coordinator. Weโre delighted to have you here.โ
I manage a polite nod, feeling the weight of scrutiny from the onlooking students.
Ms. Anderson takes the lead, guiding us toward the grand entrance of the building. The corridors exude an air of academic significance, adorned with portraits of distinguished alumni and shelves of trophies.
As we walk, she shares snippets about the schoolโs rich history. I tried my hardest to not zone out. Her words punctuated by the distant echoes of student chatter and the occasional slam of a locker.
We ascend a magnificent staircase, its mahogany banister gleaming with the patina of years gone by. Ms. Anderson leads us down a corridor adorned with oak-panelled walls until we reach an ornate door marked โHeadmasterโs Office.โ
She knocks gently before opening it, revealing a spacious office filled with antique furniture and lined with shelves of leather-bound books.
As we settle into the chairs in front of the desk, the headmaster offers refreshments. โWould you like some beverages?โ
โA water, please,โ my mother replies with a gracious smile, a departure from the earlier tension in the car. I take a moment to glance around the spacious but somewhat sterile office. It lacks the warmth and character one might expect in a headmasterโs domain.
โThis place is stupid.โ I whisper.
โStop being so negative, if your father-โ
โDonโt even bring him up-โ
A sudden creak of the side door draws my attention, and my eyes lock onto the figure entering the room. This canโt possibly be the headmaster. He looks more like a model than an educator. At best, he appears to be in his mid-twenties, and thereโs an air of casual confidence about him that defies the traditional image of a school authority figure.
He takes a seat in front of us, omitting the customary gesture of shaking my motherโs hand. His dark brown eyes, sharp and piercing, seem to effortlessly penetrate the air of formality in the room.
Itโs as if our presence is an unwelcome intrusion into his world.
The tanned skin complements his well-defined features, and his dark hair falls in an effortlessly tousled manner. Dressed in a sharp, dark navy suit, the white shirt beneath it is crisp, clean, and meticulously ironed.
A faint aura of mystery surrounds him, the sense that he doesnโt easily reveal his thoughts or emotions. His presence commands attention, and I canโt help but wonder how such a young man ended up as the headmaster of this school.
As he sits, his gaze lingers on us, studying with an intensity that borders on unsettling. It becomes clear that this man is not just attractive; he possesses an allure that goes beyond physical appearance.
โMrs Tate.โ He speaks.
His voice dark.
His tone unmatched.
โMr Kane, thank you for accepting my daughter.โ My mother, always one to gauge social cues, attempts to engage him in conversation. โYour school has an outstanding reputation. Lina is eager to excel here.โ
Eager.
Thats funny.
Because I donโt feel fucking eager.
He leans back in his chair, fingers steepled in front of him, and a faint smile plays on his lips. โExcellence is a standard we uphold rigorously at this institution. We expect nothing less. Now Miss Tate, explain this for me?โ He picks up a slim folder and slides it over to me.
I raise a brow and lift it, opening the folder to see my exam paper. The same exam paper I failed. How did he get this?
โHow did you get this?โ
โAnswer my question.โ He demands.
My gaze flitting between the scrutinising intensity of Mr. Kaneโs eyes and the damning evidence of my academic shortcomings in the folder before me.
โI...โ I stammer, the weight of his demand settling uneasily on my shoulders. โI suppose I didnโt perform as well as Iโd hoped.โ
His smile fades, replaced by a stern expression that could freeze time. โHoped? Miss Tate, hope has no place in the realm of my school. Explain your lackluster performance.โ
It wasnโt a question, it was a demand.
The room feels suffocating, and I struggle to find words that wonโt further disappoint him.
Why was I scared to disappoint him?
โI faced some challenges during the exam. It was...unexpected.โ
โChallenges are a constant in life,โ he retorts, his tone unwavering. โWhat separates the exceptional from the mediocre is the ability to overcome them. Tell me, what challenges could have hindered your performance?โ
His gaze doesnโt waver, and I can feel the weight of him probing into the recesses of my thoughts. I take a deep breath, attempting to steady myself. โPersonal issues,โ I finally admit, the words hanging in the air like an admission of guilt.
He leans forward, his fingers now laced together, forming a formidable barrier on his desk.
โWe expect our students to rise above personal challenges and deliver exceptional results. You were given an opportunity to prove yourself, and you fell short. Explain why I should believe that you wonโt repeat this pattern here?โ
He was annoying me.
Almost as if I was asking him questions.
I shake my head, acknowledging the gravity of his words, my fingers tracing the edges of the folder.
โAs you embark on your journey here,โ he continues, his tone softening just a fraction, โremember that success is not bestowed; it is earned. We shall be watching closely, Miss Tate.โ
โThis is stupid, I want to leave this fucking place.โ
I glance over at my mother, hoping for some support, but her expression remains stoic, devoid of any sympathy. Before I can protest further, Mr. Kaneโs voice cuts through the air, authoritative and unyielding.
โDonโt look at her, look at me.โ My eyes automatically locks with his. โShe wonโt help you,โ he states matter-of-factly, his dark eyes piercing through the defiance in my gaze. โSheโs signed your life over to us already, Miss Tate.โ
โExcuse me?โ
โYou will be living here, until you pass this year.โ My mother finally decides to talk, but when she does-nothing good came out of here. โThank you Mr Kane.โ She stands up, shaking Mr Kanes hand as she walks out of the office.
โWhere are you going?โ I yell out, shooting up from my seat. โYouโre not leaving me in this fucking place!โ I scream out into the hallway, everyoneโs eyes are suddenly on me and my mother spins around.
โYouโre in a church! Watch your mouth.โ My brows furrow.
โI donโt believe in god, you cannot keep me here against my will!โ
โYes I can. And I will. I signed the papers before you turned eighteen. And as did you.โ
She knew I would fail.
โWhat?โ
โYou arenโt cut out for medical school, I knew you werenโt, so I signed the papers to get you into the best school in case you did fail.โ
I felt as if I had no home at all.
She closes her eyes for a second.
โYour stuff is already in your dorm room, goodbye Lina. Iโll see you when you graduate.โ She turns away.
โFuck you! I fucking hate you!โ She tricked me.
She tricked me.
I watch her as she leaves and suddenly feel my heart break.
I turn around and look up to see Mr Kane standing there with his assistant. The hallway was suddenly deserted.
โMiss Tate, we are in a church building, if you use ever use such dirty words, Iโll make sure youโre punished accordingly. Is that understood?โ I scoff, this man is really trying to threaten me?
โIt isnโt understood.โ
โYouโve made that very clear. Youโll be banned from breaks, and instead will spend your time in confinement with me. Until you understand.โ My neck aches from looking at him, but I didnโt show it.
โI guess you better get used to my face Mr Kane.โ
โItโs not a pleasant one, but Iโll get used to it.โ
I fucking hate this man.
I watch him walk away, until his assistant steps forward. โYou have a very pleasant face, love.โ She smiles.
I know that.