Chapter 1
Carly
It's been a few days since the wedding and Ethan has been acting strangely. I mean I can't blame him after three people closest to me tired to stop the wedding the one I even didn't want, but I had no choice to go through no one knows the entire truth, not even Star if she did she'd have ran me out of there while Caspian bet Ethan's ass.
The wedding I never wanted wasn't based on love like he tried to make out. My parents siding really know how evil and fucked up Ethan fuckin Hollngway really was. He was a sadistic prick with no care to how anyone felt, but himself. I really fuckin messed up when I left Jonahtan and Kyler they were the best thing that had ever happened to me after Aiden. They understood me and loved me for who was and all Ethan wanted me for was a fuckin trophy wife bragging about how he married the woman only he could ever have.
I hated the way I spoke to Aiden, Liam and Kaden, especially Kaden. I wanted to build bridges so he could see his nieces or nephews. I wasn't sure what I was having yet but I will find out at my next scan as Ethan "insisted upon it". I had no reason to forgive Aiden for the shit he put me through but I'm willing to forgive and forget for the sake of our parents' being friends and my step brother Liam who was a brother I wished was around more one who I had no idea had those types of feelings for me. He'd always looked out for me. Growing up he always looked out for me and when he got put inside Aiden had. Kaden had tried his best to look out for me, but with our parents splitting us up into different schools when he acted upon his feelings for me I wasn't sure how to react apart from badly. I so wanted to run to all of them when they entered the church, but, couldn't knowing that everyone was watching.
I hated how we left things unsaid and the fact I know I've lost my brother for good. I hate the fact I'll never see Kaden again after his outburst. I have no idea if I'll see Liam again cause of his confession Aiden can go screw I haven't forgotten the way he treated me I know I should put it behind me broken wounds and all that bull crap but he's never made any attempt until the wedding to contact me and tell me he was sorry and wanted to be friends one day I'll forgive and forget but right now everything is raw.
I forgave Ethan cause he had a lot of shit going on in his head about his father and the love he never got from him cause the asshole father wanted my mother not his mother or him. I was convinced forgiving him was the right thing to do until he wrecked my relationship with Jonahtan and Kyler he twisted it all to his advantage. I would never have married him and ran with a baby in my belly. We have our first scan in a few weeks so let's hope with all this shit happening everything's okay.
Ethan went out earlier tonight leaving me with my thoughts, lord only knows where he's going. I hope he's not going to do anything stupid that could land him in prison. He's so hot headed he doesn't think before he does anything.
I wish I had never agreed to marry him cause I know I'll never love him like he wants me to. I did it because of all black male I didn't want anything to come book on Jonathan and Kyler. I remember when he asked me and the look on his face was pure anger. He knew there were only two people I would over consider marrying and one of them wasn't him he slammed me to the wall sneering at me. "You're mine Carly you'll never escape me and if you do I'll make sure you'll never see our baby ever again. I'll make sure everyone knows what kind of relationship you had with them and I'll out them in the relationship they have together."
I looked at him scared and confused. I wasn't sure what he was trying to accuse them of. I've never seen them share a relationship together nor a sexual one anyway. Was he trying to say that Jonahtan and Kyler we bi? I've never seen them in that type of situation. I know they've shared women before but have no idea if anything else happened whilst they were doing so. If they have shared a sexual relationship that's up to them if they feel comfortable enough sharing it. Maybe they didn't think I would understand but they would've been surprised I had surprised myself by saying yes to two men who I cared deeply enough for to allow the triad. I had stayed with him so he didn't harm their reputation not mine I loved them deeply no matter how much I fucked it all up and whoever they end up with I know they will make them happy.
The door creaked and I knew my time alone had come to an end. The door slammed. I guess Ethan was in a worse mood than the one after the wedding. I thought he had had time to let off steam after the wedding fiasco but I guess I was wrong.
He walked onto the lounge looking more pissed off when he left with no explanation where he was going. I took one look at him and wondered what the hell had happened to him. His face was bleeding, scuffed and battered.
I walked cautiously over to him, unaware how bad his mood actually was. I placed my hand in his face and looked into his blazing eyes. "What happened?"
Ethan
After the night I had I wasn't really in the right frame of mind to talk to Carly let alone engage in any type of explanations. I still can't believe I got followed by some twink to be beaten for some no hoper who thought they could take my Carly away from me. I moved on instinct, still pissed and vengeful after the shit that had just happened and surprised to see she was still up unless she was feeling sick but right now I dont give a shit about that I have too many problems and that ain't one of them. I grabbed her around the throat and pinned her up the wall glaring at her angrily. "It has nothing to do with you so keep your nose the fuck out of my fucking business."
"I'm only asking because I ca..."
"Don't talk bullshit Carly you don't give two shits about me let alone care about me. So don't bother with your fucking pity party I don't need your bullshit."
"Bu..." she says, grasping my hand trying to pull it off her throat. "You're only asking because you think it might come back to you somehow."
"Please don't Ethan, the baby."
I glared at her angrily. "Keep out of my fucking biuisness!" I said letting go of her throat and she fell to the floor grasping her neck coughing. "Get out of my fucking sight bitch, you're only good for one thing and you can't even give me that."
She looked at me with her hand on her throat, her eyes red and teary, but right now I couldn't give two fucks how she felt. The doctor had told her to keep stress to a minimum the only way that would happen if she stopped interfering in my business and stopped given me a fucking headache when she keeps going on and fucking on. Three fucking days we've been fucking married and I'm regretting every fucking moment. The only reason I'm here and still married to her is that I don't want any of those fuckers going after her and trying to win her back I will make her love me no matter how long it fucking takes as long as she keeps out of my fucking business and stops fucking nagging me.
"Go to fucking bed Carly. I need to be the fuck alone."
She pulls herself up and runs; she doesn't like confrontation in any shape or form. I fall onto the sofa and pull out a spliff. She has no idea I'm smoking weed to keep calm cause it's the only thing that can with all the shit this going on right now. I want kids and I want them with her, but she's getting on my last fucking nerve and if I don't mellow the fuck out I may do something I regret and I won't have a baby son or daughter to look forward to.
I light the joint and take a long and well needed drag. And slowly blow out the smoke redialling what the cop said. He had told me he would go and see the guy who owned the public house when it was open tomorrow as it was too late to do anything right now as it was closed. I suggested seeing him now that there were no punters around. But it totally went over his head and he shook his head saying everyone needed to have time to themselves after work and he would make sure to pay the guy a visit tomorrow then he would let me know what was going on.
What a fucking joke it was obvious he knew the guy and was ramming him or something else. I'm not against men with men, but I was angry when the guy came at me and I said a lot of things I shouldn't have but did.
