Shame

The shame I feel when I eat is unescapable

The things people whisper, I hold onto

This isn’t the first meal I skip nor will it be the last

I won’t stop until I had my fill of bones and skin

No fat

It was the first time I had been called ‘fat ass’ I knew it wouldn’t be last

That’s when I knew I had to do something

It wasn’t just at school that this happened

It happened at the place that should be called ‘home’

The degrading of my figure was brought by both peers and family

And soon followed by me

I knew I had to do something to stop this shame

So I quit filling mouth with something to nurture my being

And started listening to the cries of my stomach

Thinking that this is for the best

The shame will stop and I’ll be liked for my body

No more baggy clothes or my head down

Just the shadow of who I used to be

The shame will be replaced with words of fake love

Where I will only be degraded in silence

Out my ears’ reach

The shame will be no more

For the shame was just my ugly, fat, useless body

And now I am a shell of myself with a better version of my old body