Shame
The shame I feel when I eat is unescapable
The things people whisper, I hold onto
This isn’t the first meal I skip nor will it be the last
I won’t stop until I had my fill of bones and skin
No fat
It was the first time I had been called ‘fat ass’ I knew it wouldn’t be last
That’s when I knew I had to do something
It wasn’t just at school that this happened
It happened at the place that should be called ‘home’
The degrading of my figure was brought by both peers and family
And soon followed by me
I knew I had to do something to stop this shame
So I quit filling mouth with something to nurture my being
And started listening to the cries of my stomach
Thinking that this is for the best
The shame will stop and I’ll be liked for my body
No more baggy clothes or my head down
Just the shadow of who I used to be
The shame will be replaced with words of fake love
Where I will only be degraded in silence
Out my ears’ reach
The shame will be no more
For the shame was just my ugly, fat, useless body
And now I am a shell of myself with a better version of my old body
