A Victim Of The Word No One Wants To Hear

To say I miss you can’t be enough

I wasn’t even able to say goodbye

So I’m still holding on to you

Everything that is dead and gone

All those memories, good and bad

And I thank you for the happiest years of my life and those that could’ve been

The goodbye I couldn’t say is forever

But now your in the stars, shining ever so bright

6ft has never feel so far

6ft is how they bury every ordinary person

But you’re not any ordinary person

Your my best friend

I loved you

And as you grabbed the best piece of my heart and took it along with you

I just wanted you to hold on

I tried so hard

But one person isn’t enough is it…

I don’t know how you felt but I hoped you knew that I was here for you

And always will

This might seem funny but I would do anything for you to haunt me

I’d give anything to see the happy gleam in your eyes again

And all I do now is close mine and think of you

Every thought I have of you makes me want to break down

‘How could’ve I prevented this? How could I have realized and noticed before this happened?’

You know? How hard it hit me finding out you killed yourself?

It like I was hit by a freight train

A train that never stops

Every thought is another impact

That’s probably how you felt…

Another panic attack

I’m just starting to loose my self

I feel like I’m loosing my soul

To someone that isn’t here anymore

I would’ve gladly took your place

For your pain to be mine

But now…

I’m just a victim to the past

A victim to those words

A Victim Of The Suicided