A Victim
To say I miss you can’t be enough
I wasn’t even able to say goodbye
So I’m still holding on to you
Everything that is dead and gone
All those memories, good and bad
And I thank you for the happiest years of my life and those that could’ve been
The goodbye I couldn’t say is forever
But now your in the stars, shining ever so bright
6ft has never feel so far
6ft is how they bury every ordinary person
But you’re not any ordinary person
Your my best friend
I loved you
And as you grabbed the best piece of my heart and took it along with you
I just wanted you to hold on
I tried so hard
But one person isn’t enough is it…
I don’t know how you felt but I hoped you knew that I was here for you
And always will
This might seem funny but I would do anything for you to haunt me
I’d give anything to see the happy gleam in your eyes again
And all I do now is close mine and think of you
Every thought I have of you makes me want to break down
‘How could’ve I prevented this? How could I have realized and noticed before this happened?’
You know? How hard it hit me finding out you killed yourself?
It like I was hit by a freight train
A train that never stops
Every thought is another impact
That’s probably how you felt…
Another panic attack
I’m just starting to loose my self
I feel like I’m loosing my soul
To someone that isn’t here anymore
I would’ve gladly took your place
For your pain to be mine
But now…
I’m just a victim to the past
A victim to those words
A Victim Of The Suicided
