Chapter 1" STAY"
I don't know why I stayed when there was no reason to. My life’s a mess—nothing more, nothing less. But still, I stayed.
Why? I waited, perhaps hoping everything would turn out okay, so I stayed. But did I truly want this for myself? I have nothing and no one to hold onto in this world.
The ghosts that haunt me at night, robbing me of peace, feel more familiar than any human in my life. Yet, I fought to stay.
Sometimes, I think the silence itself is my only companion. It wraps around me, cold and unyielding, yet strangely comforting. I talk to it, argue with it, plead with it—and it never answers, but it never leaves either.
I’m lost, unsure where I’m going or why I’m clinging to what’s tearing me apart. I wander through memories like empty rooms, hoping to find a door I missed, a light I forgot.
And still,
I stayed.
Even when the world turned its back, even when the shadows pressed closer, I stayed. Because leaving would mean facing the emptiness without a shield, without even the faint comfort of despair I know so well.
So I just stayed.
