Empty
I stirred awake to blackness. My eyes shut against the world. My mind stirred, waking up more. I caught the scent of cleaners and aspirin. It made me think of wounds, wars, and medicine.
As I slowly came into my body; I heard, to my right, the slow sound of rhythmic beeping. That seemed to keep time with my heartbeat. I tried to flex my muscles or to just open my eyes. Only to find I couldn't even twitch my eyes lids. As if they were weighed down by darkness itself.
I internally sighed, accepting I was currently trapped in the darkness of my own mind.
'Why?' 'Where am I?' I wondered. Thinking back as far, and har as I could. But I just couldn't seem to remember. There was only darkness, a dark empty void where my memories use to be. I didn't know how I knew they should have been there but I did.
I started to panic as I thought of what would become of me if I never could remember. My thoughts snapped back, stopping mid-process. As shock filled my head, and I began to panic more. I could remember the word past but I could understand how I knew it.
'What is a past?' 'What is my past?' 'My name!' I gripped at the thought. 'What is my name?' I searched and searched through the depths of my skull but came up blank. 'Though what is a name?' Even more, panic filled me along with other words I knew but didn't understand how I knew them.
I mentally reached and to grasp for anything, anything at all that I could label, understand. . . 'The beeping noise! Maybe I . . . no. Shit! I don't know . . . I can't remember. . . Anything. Anything, who I am or was? Where I am? Why I'm here??? Shit . . . shit . . . Shit!!!
NO!' I took a deep breath. 'I must stop panicking. I.Will.Not.Panic! I will figure this out and I WILL remember.' I swore as determination filled me. Now, focus, whats the beeping noise . . .
Beep . . . Beep . . . Beep . . . Bum-bum . . . Beep . . . Bum-bum . . . Beep. Heartbeat. My heartbeat. It's monitoring my heartbeat. A monitor. Its a type of monitor. I did a minny-internal happy-dance, I've remembered something! Or at least understood it.
My whole body suddenly twitched. Wait. I focused again, and I could feel my fingertips. I could use them! I tried blinking again. I felt my eye-lids shift. Finally after what feels like forever they opened.
