Being Loved

It was the springtime when I met him. At that point, I didn't know how things will change. Maybe I should start by introducing myself, Hi my name is Sara Smith. I really did have a complicated past life, I mean I didn't have a normal family and right now I don't have one, so I preferred not mentioning my family name. my dad used to come home drunk, he was always frustrated with my mother's illness. I was only seven back then. my dad would always curse my mum about how he always had to spend his money on her illness and sometimes he even tried to beat her.

it was a little while before I turned fourteen when my mother died. after that, my dad started drinking more and more. he would even beat me up until I started bleeding. the situation turned worst one day when my dad came home fully drunk and I asked him that he should stop drinking. I was given a death glare and then he took my arm and forcefully threw me on the bed.

his words still echoed in my ears "you are the reason for my sufferings!! why did you even had to be born??? if you weren't here I would surely have been happy." after that he actually tore all my clothes and tried to rape me. I obviously screamed. I could see the cramped room with no lights just my father's glare filled with lust. the neighbors somehow saved me and then called the police. my father was arrested. but even after he was gone I was scared as hell. he kept shouting "you'll never be happy in your whole life. you don't deserve to be happy". maybe those words were true.after that, I never saw my father or that town.

I left for the city took up a part-time job and somehow managed to get through high school. after a lot of struggling, I did manage to get a scholarship for one the top university in the country. luckily one of my distant relatives from my mother's side offered to pay me an allowance until I land on a job.but there's one thing that I need to tell about me, I'm not a virgin. well, not that I care but I think most of the girls around me in the university must have lost their virginity until now. Ok enough of this silly talking it's my first day of university and I need to aim at getting a job and not worry about these silly things.

so I closed my apartment door, made sure I locked it and then head to the University.I kept planning my career until I was interrupted by the thought that I'm at the entrance gate. people here actually look quite good.but I don't think that I would be spending my time making friends with them. I need to study my hardest to land on a job.

three months have passed since I started university. I'm the weirdo for everyone around me. I don't have any friends either which clearly justifies the weirdo. anyways it's time for results for my previous tests. I went to the soft board at the end of the corridor. I should be at the top. WHAT?!?!? second ?!!? oooh not again. its Daniel Flinch again. I don't develop any particular feelings for anyone normally but I hate that guy. By hate I seriously mean HATE. he's always coming on top, hanging around with his friends, is the most popular guy.plus his looks.

I hate to say this but he does look like a model. perfect body, sharp handsome looks, mysterious blue eyes, and gorgeous black hair. anyways I don't like that guy. I just ignored him standing in front of class hall chit-chatting with his friends and went straight to the class and sat on the front bench. obviously, I can't sit in one of those benches in the middle. It's not like I don't wanna but I don't have any friend to company me and clearly, I'm not good at making one.

at the end of the class, the teacher asked me and Daniel to drop off the reports in the lab. my day couldn't get any worse.why do I have to accompany this guy. "should we take the lift?", Daniel asked. I would rather not 'cause ever since that incident with my dad I've developed a phobia towards confined spaces. but clearly, I can't tell him that so I replied, "yeah, sure".we took the lift. It's not that bad since there are lights and all. so I guess I won't be bothered by my fear. Daniel started, "so Sara, you are pretty as always. I competed well enough with you I guess." he smirked. god! he pisses me off "cut it out, you know I'm not that type," I said as calmly as I could.

he gives me a devilish smile again. "but you should know that you are clearly the type I would make fall for me" "in your dreams Daniel". he gave a million dollar smile which I won't lie gave my heart a ba-dump. suddenly some noise came out and lift stopped. the lights were gone too. oh no, it was all dark. I mean I could see a little bit but that was not the point. it remembered me of the exact scenario when dad came over me.oh no, I shouldn't be thinking about it.

but my body won't listen. I dropped all the report papers and started shivering. Daniel asked, "hey Sara you ok?" oh no! not in front of him. but my mind can't keep up with my body. it was too late. I started feeling weak. all I could see was my dad on top of me and cursing me. another image popped out of him beating me. I can't take it anymore. I bent down and without knowing tears started falling. Daniel was saying something from behind but I couldn't hear it. all my mind could think was of my dad.

my heart was beating loud. those scars started hurting again. all I could hear was my dad. I started apologizing, "I'm sorry. please don't hurt me. I'm sorry for being a curse! I'm sorry for being born!" suddenly I felt a warmth from my behind. I was still crying. but then someone held me tight with my head on his chest.no way I was taking favor with that guy. but I can't lie to myself anymore.

I never hated him but was jealous of him because he could be so happy every time .it's too late for me to hate him. I clenched his shirt and started saying sorry again. my tears were relieved when they heard Daniel's voice. "don't worry baby, I'm here. no one will hurt you. I'm here baby. it's ok."

I don't know why but those words left my heart in a sweet ache. his warmth was so soothing. he held me tight on his lap. since my height was short or he was too tall I placed me head his shoulder and hugged him whole time. he held me tight seeming like he had no intentions of letting go. for some reasons, I didn't want this moment to end.

but then the lights were up again and the lift started moving. I tried to stand up but couldn't until Daniel helped me. two of us didn't speak until we reached the lab. it was empty when we reached there. after placing the reports Daniel broke the silence. he started, "Sara..." before he could finish I started, "if you wanna use it against me, you can. but you should know it won't make much of a difference."

his expressions were unexpectedly serious. "what makes you think I would do that?" "doesn't everyone wanna do it." he smirked in a little mocking way, "do you really think I would do that? for all I could think was how to make you feel better and murder the person who made you like that." he stated. after this my heart really did took over my mind. it was too late for me to hate him. tears started falling off my eyes. he looked confused. " why would you do that? why can't you just be like everyone and stay away from me? why do you have to be so nice to me? how am I supposed to hate you now? why would you do that?" I practically shouted at that moment. but what I heard was a giggle.

Daniel was right there in front f me giggling. I was totally embarrassed. he smirked and came up to me. I was beet red at that moment. I was not even able to look him in the eye. he gently places his fingers on my chin and gently lifted my head up. I could see his gentle and soothing smile which made my heart pound. he started, "well how could I not do it. I obviously don't wanna make the love of my life hate me." wait! wait! wait! did he said, love?!?!? I mean a lot of guys have asked me out but I never felt this way to them or never saw such strong feelings in them.

I dropped my jaw. it was just too hard to believe. "what type of reaction is that?" Daniel giggled. "do you love me?"I couldn't believe what type of cute voice I let out that moment. get your senses back me! Daniel gave out a sigh." really? you are still asking that? why wouldn't I?" "well, because I'm a weirdo, I don't get along, people don't like being around me, I could see that, and you know..." before I could say anything he shushed me with his finger."you don't value yourself at all, do you?" he wrapped his arms around my chest from behind.

"baby I fell for right at the moment I saw you. you weren't like other girls who would come to me for my looks. you always kept your cool. to tell you the truth you were just my type. someone who is hard to get." he giggled at the last sentence. I can't believe it was the same guy who pissed me off. it was too late to deny that I was falling for him. I didn't know what to say, so I just held his arms and relaxed in the warmth of his chest. then he came to me in front and held my hand. I must have turned into a tomato until now. he gently asked, "so Miss Sara, would please go out with me?"

I felt a sweet ache in my heart. I couldn't deny my feelings. it was the first time for me when someone cared for me. up till now, deep down, all I wanted was to be loved. but this feeling also scared me."I'm scared Daniel" I replied honestly. but his words were all I needed to hear. "don't worry baby, I promise I'll love you and never let you go." I blushed but then I whispered so that it was audible to him, "ok". as soon as my lips stopped moving Daniel pulled me close rapidly by my waist and whispered into my ears, "oh baby, you made me wait so long." and then he pressed his lips against mine for a long, deep and passionate kiss. oh god, it was my first but seriously it felt magical. maybe this is what they call first love.

[Hi guys! thank you so much for reading my story. this is only the first part but I'm already excited about how you all will react. please don't hesitate to tell if you find any flaws. I can assure you there's a lot to come. So keep reading!!!]