His Eyes

My therapist said that writing was a good way to release emotions, so I'm trying my best to write how I feel. My name is Melody and I'm married to Jason and have one son named Elliot.

Me and Jason were so much in love but as the years went on I was put on the back burner as our lives became more and more hectic. With my mother having cancer and his father passing away. Eventually he quit his job leaving me as the sole breadwinner in our family.

At first I was fine with it, it was just a dry spell I thought. Well it's been a dry spell for 2 years. Our son is going to kindergarten and all he knows for a male role model is a man drunk off his ass every day.

The house is falling into disrepair and bills are stacking up, I feel like I'm drowning. The longer I stay with him the more I feel like a failure.

Anyways, I was finally able to buy some limited edition black rose body wash. Hopefully it will make me smell better and not like our washing machine has been broken for weeks.

And Elliot hasn't been able to sleep for days, his insomnia is getting worse and I know his father is the reason. Always keeping him up with his loud ramblings and incoherent speeches.

But Jason is still the love of my life and I hope he gets through this immediately.