Chapter 1
Eli
I took a long drag from my cigarette then removed it from my mouth as I walked through the cold streets of Hartford, on my way to the hospital.
But I needed to do this as quickly as possible so that I can go back to Phoenix, Arizona because the longer I stay away, the easier it will be for him to attack my club and me.
I waited until the coast became clear and entered the hospital then rushed to the elevator and pressed the number three and waited for it to go up.
Maybe this is the worst idea I've ever come up with so far but I just... had to see her no, I needed to see her.
She was always the calm inside my raging storm, whenever I was sad, angry, or anything. I used to put my head on her legs, let her play with my hair until I went back to being a normal human again.
She was my everything... yet I still ran away and left her. I'll admit it, that was such shitty action for me to do but I had to run away but I still protected her though even if she didn't know it. even if no one knew it.
I kept tabs on her, my eyes are everywhere near her to the point that I know what she eats and drinks and I know what you're thinking. you'll say this is an obsession but it's far from it because from my perspective... I call it love.
Ding.Dong
The elevator door opened and I was met by Tony, one of my men that I made him work for the Accardi's in order to keep her safe all the time, and fortunately, they do trust him. "Keep an eye and if someone approaches, knock twice on the door. understood?" He only nodded his head at me and I knew that I could count on him because if it wasn't for me, he would've been dead by now but that... is a story for another time.
I entered the room where I saw Yelena laid down on the hospital bed, still unconscious... I just wish to know who is the son of a bitch who tried to kill my sister and her unborn baby.
Someone poisoned her drink at the baby shower party but luckily they were fast enough to take her to the hospital and save both Yelena and the baby. But they weren't smart enough to find out who did it. hell, they didn't even try to find who did it.
But all the anger I had... suddenly disappeared when I sat in the chair and looked at her, sleeping peacefully on the bed. I reached and caressed her beautiful blond hair before I leaned down and placed a kiss on it.
Her scent reached my nose and all of a sudden, I'm back to being that little homeless boy who was saved by a little angel. Yelena gave me everything and how did I repay her? by making her think I'm dead but... I couldn't be around her anymore because if I'm around her that means every single dangerous thing I did and still do was going to be around her as well.
I felt tears leave my eyes but I didn't give two shits now, the thought of almost losing her... again, was just too much to handle. The first time I almost lost her was when we were kidnapped 5 years ago. The second time was when Adam almost drowned her and if it wasn't for me being lucky and finding the phone that opens and closes the box, she would've been long gone that day. And now it is the third time.
It just fucking hurts, to save her every time and not be able to hug her. Comfort her. Tell her that everything will be okay. But I guess that's the price to pay when you own one of the biggest MC clubs around the world.
"I really hope that you don't hear me, but I just need to say this." I paused, making sure she's not awake because even if she can hear and tell anyone, they won't believe her. "I want to come back to you, I want things to go back to the way they were."
More tears spilled on my face as I continued while my heart ached. "But I know that can't happen, for neither of us but just know and remember this Yelie. one day, I'll come back to you and then I'll take you to the beach, you always said you want to go there with me." I paused again, trying to hold back a sob as I took her hand in mine and brought it to my mouth.
"But for now I'll stay away..." I pressed a soft kiss to her hand then whispered "for both our sakes."
I heard one knock on the door before Tony opened it and I lowered my gaze so he wouldn't see that I was crying. It would be a shame for anyone other than her to see me like this. "They are on their way to the hospital, probably will be here in ten minutes." I nodded my head and put Yelena's hand back on the bed then left the room and hospital.
it was not hard to be the president of your club, what's hard is to make everyone fear you when they see you or even hear your name and in order to do that... I had to become a Ruthless, Reckless, Monster.
