what happened
Some days I don’t even want to be alive
Others I’ve never felt so happy
But there’s been fewer days I tried
And the days are more crappy
I don’t wanna go back,
To the hole, I dug out of
But the strength I lack
All I need is a hug
Depression has left me sad
Like an empty void
Missing what I had
When my friends weren’t annoyed
Whenever I hung around
But I can’t think about that
I need to focus on my future and grades
Pretend to be my smiling self, the one, and only Nat
My eyes pretending to be as bright as jade
I just need a hug
Someone to talk to
A person who gives the back of my shirt a tug
And ask “what’s happened to you?”
If I was honest I would say “well I don’t really know,
I feel like I’m putting on a show”
I don’t think they would understand
Feeling something, but nothing happened
So I guess that’s what happened
Nothing
But my whole life has just darkened
I want to feel a happy about something
