The Last Gift

We were walking on the ground of our school I could hear the shouts and screams of students echoing all around. It was the last paper of the semester so everyone was quite happy and excited for the holidays. But despite all this I couldn't help the slight thump of my heart as tears flowed down my cheek. His hand felt warm in mine as he wiped my tears gently and looked at me with sullen sad eyes. I leaned against his touch wishing that the warmth that he gave me never ended. His soft voice echoed in my ear as I looked up at him with tear filled eyes clutching the gifts I had prepared for him. "Don't cry August", he cooed in such a sweet voice that I just wanted to wrap my arms around him right that instant. "This is not fair --------, how could you just leave me?",I said with a trembling voice as I clutched his hand tightly. "Don't cry August....we will always be bestfriends no?", he comforted me with such sweet words yet I only felt more hurt. The fact that he could not understand that I didn't just want to be "bestfriends" hurt me more. I finally handed him the handmade toys and charms I made for him with reddish eyes and a sad face. "This is the first time I made this.....I want you to be the first person to receive it", I said with a teary eyes and a sad smile. He looked suprised for a moment before handing me his ID card as a gift for me to remember him as he smiled so sweetly. "Thank you August.....Text me regularly",he said with a choked voice and a smile as he hugged me tight. I felt my heart flutter. It shouldn't have...I wish it didn't. My mouth slightly opened as if to ask something but I just clenched my mouth shut instead. I want to ask you if...you would have loved me....if I was just a girl. "I will miss you --------".