Prologue
How hard can it be to let go of someone? Someone who meant the whole world. Someone who had witnessed your ups and downs through it all. Someone who’d been very supportive of all your decisions in life, especially when they persuaded you to take the opportunity to reach your dream-a dream that you’re not quite sure whether it’s really your dream. A dream that might pull you away from that very someone who meant the entire world to you. But it’s okay, right? Since they even supported you to take it, and it’s only a matter of time that the relationship you two built will slowly fade out.
It’s just too painful to reminisce about that time both of you celebrated after receiving a ticket to my dream-my college dream. Only to find out that they won’t be standing beside you through it all. If only I had known that they wouldn’t be a part of my life anymore, I would have stayed. Staying in my hometown, and never leaving it. Never abandoning the relationship we’ve worked too hard to build. But I can’t, since they wanted me to take the opportunity. They pushed me to take it, willing to sacrifice what we had just for me to be able to succeed.
But instead of feeling successful, my entire soul is just filled with an intense heartbreak. A heartbreak that even time won’t mend. It’ll forever be deep inside of me, even while I’m distracting myself with college stuff. It’s still there, the only thing I’ve been used to coping with was music. Since music was the glue that stuck us together. We share incredible moments together with just simple music. Sadly, I couldn’t just listen to the music we both used to listen to. It’ll just make the heartache churning inside of me get worse. Instead, I settle on just listening to different music. Music that hopefully made me forget, made me move on.
It didn’t help me move on. My heart and soul wouldn’t let me move on. Whispers in my mind saying, “I can’t just move on.” On the bright side, that’s a great motivation to have to finish my college years. I always reminded myself that they wanted me to finish this and never look back. Granted, I’ve only accomplished the former one of their wishes. I should be happy-really should be-but during graduation, it’s missing something. A blind hope that in the midst of the graduation ceremony, I will see them. See their smiles once again after walking up the stage and receiving my diploma.
Unfortunately, they weren’t there in the crowd. What was I thinking? I made a promise that I won’t look back, but I keep wanting to go back. To go back to where it all started. Back when, I was happy spending precious time with them. After receiving my degree, I should have started my career now. I should just move forward and go on with my life. But something tells me to go back to my hometown. To at least take a rest from all the college stuff going on in my life. And maybe to see them again.
The entire time, I was feeling nervous and scared that perhaps they have changed through those years. Perhaps they have found someone that they can share their time with. That’ll be sad, considering that I was thinking about them throughout my college years. The moment I stepped foot back in my hometown, a sudden realization that everything had changed. So, my worry grew a little bigger.
Right after settling down at my family home, I walked around the town, meeting the people all over again. Even every person living in this town had changed. So possibly, there’s a high chance they have changed as well.
After meeting every single person in the town, I have yet to meet the only person who gave me motivation to finish my degree. Unfortunately, they were nowhere to be found. I asked around, hoping that they’re still here. Hoping that they’d stayed and waited for me all through those years we were apart from each other. When my family told me they’re still around, I felt a wave of relief in me. But when I asked my family where they were, the moment they opened their mouths to answer, I immediately knew they, too, had changed.
I went off to see them for myself. And when I did find them, my heart skipped a beat when I saw them. And it appears that I’m not the only one who felt the sudden attraction between us. The very first thing they did when they saw me back was flash me a smile and went for a tight hug. The warmth of their body against mine felt normal. It felt nice and I missed it.
I remember the time we were just talking about our goals in life during high-school. And I remember them telling me they had a love for cars and wanted to be a mechanic someday. Now, I can proudly say that they have reached their goal. It’s funny how both of us had reached our dream, and yet I can still feel something is missing. A spark of hope formed inside of me that maybe they, too, felt that something was missing. But after seeing them again, I can safely say that the piece that is missing is them.
Luckily, they’re not dating someone. This could be a sign that it’s time to rediscover the bond we abandoned all those years. To feel the spark, we had for each other. This might be the universe potentially giving me this moment after all my struggles. I’ve never been the one to believe in faith, despite that most of the music I prefer listening to is all about it, but I think I deserve to at least explore this one out for myself. To my relief, I’m not the only one who wanted to explore things out, too. Rediscovering our relationship may take some time, but I’m willing to spend all my precious time with them to restore the love we had with each other in the past. And apparently, they’re thinking the same thing too.
The best part of this entire “rekindling our relationship together” is that we get to reminisce our moments together with the music we’ve listened to. That was also the time that I got to hear them sing. Hearing them sing once again had made me realize how much I missed their voices. The voice that sounded like it’ll wrap me around in a warm blanket while I’m going through something. The same voice that’ll whisper endearing words in my ears. I’m not ashamed to say that every time I hear those words, I always melt into a puddle. Oh, how much I miss their voices. It’s been years since I’ve heard them sing as well as heard them how much they love me.
And of course, I couldn’t just let them be the one to sing along. There have been times in the past when we have done a duet together. In this present day, it feels perfect to try to have a duet again with them. Singing with them may have stopped time around us for a moment, but it does feel that way. The love I felt for them during that time had reflected on their eyes. Going back to my hometown might have been the smartest thing I have ever done. Just because of this certain moment, I’m sharing right now with someone who’s deeply special to me.
Maybe it’ll work this time. Maybe there’s no more situations where we have to let go of each other. Maybe this is the end of our story together, forever listening and singing our favorite songs to each other. But of course, being too happy can sign the universe to balance life out. And with that, someone else in my life had been taken by the universe. That made me drop to the floor and cry out all my sadness away. I only got to push forward because of the songs my lover sings in my ear. Songs that make me feel calm and have got me through my mourning stages. From that point onward, I promised to myself that I won’t let anything take my lover away from me. Without them, I don’t know whether I can keep on standing back up again after the death of a family member.
This will be the end of our story… I just know it. No more death in the mere future, just one. With the two of us, we can get through everything. Plus, with the rumors in the town running around about them proposing to me made my heart flutter for that moment. This is it, my happy ending. I’m finally going to have it after years and years of being alone with my heartache.
Unfortunately, life doesn’t work that way. It’s never that simple, and it’ll never be that easy to get a happy ending. Life can be unpredictable… But I think both of us can get through it. Even if it takes our breath away.
