Window-weather

Have you ever heard of something called “window-weather”?

It’s the kind of weather that looks beautiful from the window but isn’t particularly pleasant to be out in.

That’s how I used to feel about love. It was fascinating to hear stories about it, but I doubt that it is the same in real life. I too have encountered many people who were in relationships but what I see is hardly comparable to what was described as love.

So I often think if they are calling anything and everything they feel as love.

Does the desire to feel love make them do that? Or are they trying to find love themselves?

“Opportunities do not always present themselves; sometimes, we need to create them on our own.”

This was a Remarkable thing often said by people, but does it apply to love as well? “Falling in love”, always sounds so amazing. No matter the process it always is a happy ending if you find love by the end of it.

But do I wanna set out on a journey to find love myself?

No! I’m good, thanks!

I have to get the desire to love when I encounter her, not the other way around.

All these things sound pretty good when I say them to myself, but do I have the patience to wait for someone who may not appear ever?

I know that all of this won’t ever happen and I also know that this is an excuse I created myself to not love anyone.

I know that deep inside I just wanna be behind the window and enjoy the fascinating view called love rather than go out and face the harsh reality and feel the pain caused by it.

I remember telling a friend once “I don’t have high standards for the person but I do have high standards for love”. I know that I meant it when I said that, but what do I mean by that?

I also remember being asked whether I would go for looks or personality.

I didn’t know the answer to that, I mean I can certainly feel attracted to a person when I look at them but how can I know their personality without talking to them?

And if I haven’t been in love even after talking to a bunch of people, does that mean I haven’t met the person with the right personality yet? Or does it mean I am the type that goes for looks? But I didn’t go for the looks too. Are those two the only types?

There are many questions to which finding answers didn’t seem possible until that day…